Can't wait can't wait!!!! 2 more days and i will be out of singapore. Too much things to handle, too much stress, too much thoughts, too much people with problems. I just wanna leave these all behind and go to sunny island and do nothing but eat, relax and eat somemore!

i am going to try my best to document my trip. maybe via instagram. pictorial format is much easier. they say pictures say a thousand words. i think pictures will say alot more about a trip than just me talking about the trip. Not sure if i have wifi there. but usually, if i go holidays with the boy, i don't care if i have wifi.

I am aching terribly from the gym class the boy and i went to on saturday. How unfit i became and how much i want to be fit again! i think gym can be so fun with a partner. Of course a female one will be better, can chat in the changing room, can go suana together. haha

rubee is sick. the important keys on her keyboard cannot be used. and when i say important keys, they are enter, the letters 'e', 'r' and 'l'. all these keys and some others not so important ones cannot be used over the whole weekend. caused me a bit of a problem, especially the enter key. but weird enough, suddenly, i am able to use these keys. i don't know when rubee will be sick again but i guess it's time to buy a new laptop? money money money.....

i had a lovely time the whole weekend. though i thought it will be a fit and healthy weekend. wanted to go gym then after that go macritchie walk walk with the girls. but weather was not that good. it rained and we cancelled and all of us went to angel and simon's place instead. it was a very nice time chilling out. we finally had a friend's place to go over and bunk. no parents. near my place also. take cab also not that expensive. hee

cooked chicken rice today with prawn paste chicken instead of the normal steamed chicken. nice but the hassle of preparing and cooking. using the deep fryer for the second time since we bought. it is really troublesome to wash the deep fryer. no joke. but thank God i have the boy. he is really really good at such stuff. washing up and making sure everything is spick and span. I am thankful for having him. =)

i am looking forward to the whole of August. so many things i wanna do!

2 down. one more to go! and i will be ready for krabi!!!

this whole week went past in a flash. or rather, i was so preoccupied with one thing that i kinda neglected everything else. i had a seminar presentation to a crowd of about 15 on saturday. kind of like mini public speaking for me. i was preparing for it the whole week, nervously and getting cold feet. I got so scared that i wanted to give it up totally. then boss told me that if i don't take up the challenge and stand up for it, i never will. so yea, i just went ahead. thankfully, everything went quite smoothly. and i got quite positive feedback! haha.. phew!

and one saturday is gone just like that. i was so nervous before the presentation, the night before i couldn't sleep and before the presentation, couldn't really eat so imagine my relief after the presentation. I was so hungry and at the same time tired. I wanted to cook but was quite tired. so end up, we ate at the coffeeshop downstairs my house. so tired i slept before 10!

had another peaceful sunday, relaxed and all. i love sundays like this. morning go church, eat my favourite katong laksa. seriously, katong laksa is the best. never settle for anything other than katong laksa. then came home and took a nap. haha, i am such a sleepy head. i love sleeping! i love my bed. sadness, next year have to buy new bed. a bigger bed already.

then cooked dinner. macroni dry. nice attempt. next time perfect it. =)

17 more days to krabi... cannot wait!

I probably mentioned this already but here it is again. Counting down to Krabi! each day passes by very slowly. And in between from now till then, i have a huge presentation and two roadshows. That is one break i totally deserved yea? Haha!

before i go for that trip, i need to do three things. i hope i have the time to do them:
1. Go do pedicure
2. Go facial
3. Cut hair

And after that, i will be ready to go for my trip. I am hoping that after i come back on the 18th Aug, can plan a long weekend trip somewhere. because 20th happens to be public holiday and 21st is yours truly's birthday. =) but budget is one. and i scared we might end up even more tired if we travelled that much, especially back to back.

I feel quite crushed in spirit recently. never felt such huge setback. how do i ever resolve this? 
 

i want to go on holidays! i want to buy shoes! i want to buy bags! i want to buy clothes! i want to get out!!!!

ok, this shouldn't sound as desperate. because i will be going krabi in one months time. and i am counting down. every day and every hour and second. it is just that, i am planning a trip in January. i want to go somewhere in jan with the boy, but i have no idea exactly where to go. don't wanna spend that much also because the wedding is next year.

and speaking of the wedding. argghh... bottle neck yet again. i would love planning any wedding but my own! nothing seems to be going my way. i don't know what kind of arrangement would be the best! this is so frustrating. i need someone to sit me through and reassure me, and confirm with me, debate with me on the pros and cons. seems like everyone is too busy with their lives at this point of time.

=(

I had one of the loveliest date today. It makes up for the fact that i stayed in office till 2 plus on a saturday. yesterday was really bad though.

I was in a pretty cranky mood cos i need to go back on a saturday for the meeting. And the worse was that i thought i could leave by 12 max? and end up, we had to buy lunch and dine in and continue our discussion until 2. i was so fed up, and i started shooting anything and anyone that got in my way. I could still get away with it now in office, cos i am the youngest. but seriously, i did feel very bad after i left. And when my mood became good after shopping with my boy, i thought back about my attitude in office and felt a bit bad.

but retail therapy is always the best! we both bought bottoms, not really matching but i wanted it to. then i went watsons. watsons is one place i can stay and shop. just like candy shop. And then i had a good time cooking together with the boy. i always have a bad habit, like i will crave for some stuff after watching people eat it on tv. i watched a jap show recently and they grilled a fish. i thought it looked yummy so i told the boy i want too! and my favourite asparagus wrapped with bacon. and our first attempt at wine wine clams. it was yummy! just that we used alot of white wine, the taste was abit strong. the boy said outside one most likely dilute it. maybe that is what i should do. quite wasteful to pour in one whole bottle of white wine.

anyway, today was just a usual sunday. we went to church. and then we went to watch spiderman. hmm, just like any super hero movie. not impressed. just that since it is the must watch movie, so we go watch it lo. and then, in order to take a "nature" related picture, we walked from parkway to east coast park to have my long awaited sushi tei. i have been craving for it whole week. a lazy afternoon, eating sushi and enjoying my paperpot (nabe) and then after we bought a dark mocha frap, we took a slow stroll back to parkway to take bus home.

i look forward to taking more long walks with you. =) =)

it is amazing how much stronger i grow when there are weakness around me. when everyone around me is fine and doing well, i tend to be reliant clingy. however, when someone shows signs of weakness, or verge of breaking down, i emerge and try my very best to be their supporter, to go the extra mile to make them feel better.

i would like to think that my batteries are used for this purpose. people around me give me the strength during normal days. and i am always charged up. when they are in need, i give them the energy and that extra burst of encouragement and love, whatever they need.

we are all indeed build very differently. no one is superman. and no one can always and perpetually be happy, taking the stress and burden of life. everyone needs solace and a place they can just curl up and whine. even superman. and i will be that ordinary person to be there. always. because my strength comes from everyone around me.

I had the most lovely time with my friends today. Lovely place, food was alright. I think it should be nice, just that i didn't have alot of appetite today. So i ended up eating very little. But the company was great. This is my family and as chin calls it, friends are our chosen family. and i am so glad i have my girls.

We were at this restaurant call Cornerstone, located at Bishan Park. It is a pity they don't serve brunch. this place is such a nice place to have brunch. so suitable.

Next on the list will be my birthday celebration. But before there, it is Krabi! i am so looking forward to it!

And these people are my family-- half sisters. The closest thing i get as sisters. I love you girls

And yes, things are finally falling in place. But not my blog. Somehow, i cannot seem to do up a nice background. In this way, i lost alot of things, like my pictures, and those links to others' webpages. Importantly, there is no place for anyone to leave comments. Not that anyone has been leaving me any comments lately. But i am positive. I rather have a place for others to leave comments than not to have it at all.

Throughout this whole month of early wedding planning, i learn a great deal about what it is to be as a couple. for a start, woman are the ones who fantasize, who has a dream wedding since young and who has lots of ideals and want everything perfect. guys on the other hand are more practical. money is one of the crucial factor they look at and then they weigh all other factors below $$$. At the same time, they also wanna please their wifes to be. So actually, they have a pretty tough job in controlling the expenses. I believe alot of man out there just let their wives spend in whatever way they want for the wedding. After all, they love their wives and also they want to give her the best day of her life. Since she is only going to marry once. It is like a gift.

as a young couple ourselves, we kinda started from scratch saving for the wedding. with more savings coming from the boy. being his usual self in the past, he would ask me to forgo the wedding and just fly somewhere secluded and marry, our own world. of course that did appeal to me. however, i wanna share the joy with everyone i know. i wanna be a pretty bride for a day, with lots of pictures to show for it. importantly, i want those i love to witness me marry and be happy for me. Not counting the fact that, my parents only have me as a daughter. so certain traditions and customs cannot be spared.

i always wanted a beach wedding. however, there are so many considerations. i learnt that not everytime whatever you want, you can have. you simply have too much to consider. it is not just about yourselves. and having chosen decemeber as the wedding month, i have to consider the weather as well. i heard on the wedding day, things can go wrong no matter how perfectly you plan. i don't wanna add on my troubles by worrying whether rain or not. so going through this whole month, we learnt to give and take, i learnt to compromise in a practical way. i learnt that wedding is just the start to our marriage and i don't want to start it by not learning how to plan a wedding together.

all in all, we are very happy with our decision. in fact, i feel both of us has a say to it. and that is how it should be. both liking it and it is our decision. =) =)

i'm not very good at handling such situations. what do you do when your prospect start acting weirdly and declaring he likes you after only meeting you twice for less than half an hour each. it really creeps me out, freaks me out. i must be more mature in handling such situations next time.

too bad, i thought he could be my client. boo.....

And the search for wedding venue continues, coming nearer and nearer to the end. I've been to super nice place, such as @ Hyatt, the new concept call The Gallery, with the super intimate privacy reception area, complete with a loft kitchen and even living room, which we can design any way we want. of course, such new concept place comes with a price.

we should be making a decision soon. all these weeks of searching, inspecting, we've learnt alot. and we have benefited alot. we met some very nice wedding coordinators and of course a fair share of inexperienced 'gabra' ones.

i went to sengkang sports complex for roadshow today. usually now i don't like to do roadshows anymore, cos i am not very good at it anyway. abit waste of time, sometimes for me. but i agreed to go today and it was quite an experience. one of my best moment. =) =) happy. anyway, sengkang sports complex is quite cool ,they have very nice pools and very well equipped facilities. i am glad that my future home will be near here, so i can visit often.

haik.. my life is filled with work, trying to get started my preparation for my wedding and not much else. i want something exciting!!! anyway, decided not to blabber too much wedding talk on this blog. after all, i don't want it to be like all about wedding and no more personal life. i set up a wedding blog, at least a place for me to blabber. haha

i have been walking long distances ever since the sundown which i already clock 21 hours that day. like last week for instance, we were supposed to go beaufort for site visiting and we took the wrong shuttle bus and it took us all the way in to sentosa cove instead. imagine the distance we had to walk to come out and by the time, we already missed our appointment. then plus my appointments lately all made me walk long distances, all not near mrt or anything. ok, some of it is my own choice to walk instead of taking one mrt stop. now i know why i eat so much and not significantly fatter. don't get me wrong, i am still fat but i should have been fatter with the food i eat. i walked so much!

and this weekend, more site visiting, more walking i supposed. must remind myself to get into more comfortable dressing and shoes.

i wonder how do people ever decide where to choose their venue. i am having such huge problem choosing!! =/

i had one of the best weekend as long as i remembered. and long weekends are defined total undivided time together with my boy. without any activities of socializing. haha! i know how it sounds, but at times we really need this another long weekend is defined as friday, sat and sun. nowadays, we don't get fridays together as much as we would liked to. anyway, this is a once in a while thingy, next week, it's back to activities and socializing.

we did have a mini hiccups during this long weekend, but it didn't change anything. this is still the perfect weekend. lazing around. runnng a half marathon and cooking dinner, which is something we haven't been doing for a long time.

now that we got seriously planning and talking about budgeting, i realised how stressful this is all going to be. how can i tide it through? 

Dating is playing games, but engagement, or betrothal, means we are now committing to truth. We are choosing to reveal more of ourselves so we can see each other wholly and love each other in wholesome ways.

The outcome of a good engagement is marriage, when, as Adam and Eve discovered, we find ways to be "naked and not ashamed" before each other. This is more than just undressing; it is the psychological honesty that allows us to meet one another in truth, peering into each other's souls without embarrassment or threat of one of us walking away.

There may be times when too much honesty harms a good relationship, but it is hard to know how secrets can be part of a healthy relationship. God does not turn away from us when the secrets of our hearts are brought into the healing light of divine grace. Nor should we turn from those who trust us with the intimacy of private faults, disappointments, needs and dreams. As Jesus reminds us in this brief parable about a lamp, "Whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is concealed is meant to be brought out into the open." Especially in marriage.

These are times when i am so glad the bible is really and truly a life manual. 

i don't have discipline. zero. nothing. i don't have the discipline to exercise, i don't have the discipline to not drink cold water even for 3 months. i don't have the discipline to finish what i start. i don't have nothing!!!!! makes me sick.

i am getting a little out of control. my accounts are in a mess... God, save me. please.

over the weekend, people kept asking us, "how's everything? now nic move house?" and nic will say he fee that hougang is like another country to him and everything needs to be adapted. he cannot get used to hougang. and i will say, yea, i feel like i am having a long distance relationship with him. haha!

indeed, this week has been a little difficult for us. in terms of adjustment and adapting. but like everyone will say absence makes the heart fonder. and it really did. we were inseparable this weekend. haha.

alot of things happened this weekend. i am both thankful and fearful. i am thankful for my blessings. and fearful of the unknown future.

i know i want it simple.

i don't like to take injections. it is not the fear of needles, but rather, it is the aching feeling you have in your arms afterwards. u feel a ache and you don;t dare to knock it for fear it might be painful. it is not, but the feeling is there. and u cannot raise ur arms up too high because that is achy too! gosh....

i ve been eating like a pig recently, especially during the afternoon times. but then i don't ve the appetite for dinner after that. doesn't sound healthy. like today, i had a bowl of fish noodles soup which i didn't even finish then a cup of mixed fruits. after which, my colleague bought me a cupcake from twelve cupcakes. then i was so freaking cold in the office that i went down to buy a hot soya milk and got tempted by a stick of fishballs. and these are all consumed in 5 hours! help me, i feel the fats building around my tummy already.

the afternoons are always the hardest to wait out. but i am glad my mornings and evenings are packed. work harder, girl!

i was watching the 9pm show and there was this part about love. it actually brought tears to my eyes. i just always want to remind myself these verses:

" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres "

Love is really something so intangible yet it is one of the most powerful tool. A husband can say to the wife, i love you so much that i want to make sure you are well and taken care of even when i am not around. A mother can say to a child i love you so much that no matter how many wrongs you do, or how badly you treat me, i will always forgive you and my arms are always open to receive you. How difficult it is to give unconditional love. in this society, everyone wants something back in return. they want to be appreciated. they want to be loved first before they are willing to love freely. so many conditions.

A 21 years old in the morning and a 71 years old in the evening. What a vast contrast. The role i had to play talking to both, the things i said to both person is so so far apart. other than the fact that my saturdays feel so different not being able to spend with the boy, i had a fun time meeting new people. it reminds me what i love about my job in the first place. talking to people from all walks of life, listening, giving advice. making a difference.

it feels a little sad that i am not able to get anyone at short notice. even if it's just for lunch. =/

the 5 F's in my life, which i feel like i am failing in. failing in every aspect because i am not giving it my all in those aspects. you reap what you sow, i guess i deserve it. if life is like rock climbing, i guess i am not that far away from ground yet because the rule of rock climbing is that u let go of whatever you are stepping on, to reach for a higher place. and only by doing that, we can move upwards. i refuse to let go of my current standing because it gets me uncomfortable to leave my footing. but when i don't do that, i cannot move upwards or forward.

will i really be happier if we start living together? is that what i want? what is my biggest fears? will they keep coming back to haunt me?

maybe the new strategy to it all is to numb myself and immerse. give it my best shot so that i can feel that at least i excel in 1 of the F's in my life.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. (1 Peter 5:10)

Looking back at pictures, thinking back of conversations and looking at facebook updates, i remember the promises we share, the words we exchanged. i've learnt a long time ago that i cannot trust people. i cannot trust their words or anything at all. i need to rely on myself. but why do i still feel so upset each time i reflect back the happenings in my life.

i'm planning a trip in January with the boy but we are not too sure where we wanna go. I suggested hongkong, since we never been there before. he said no cos it's like another singapore which he doesn't want. Then he suggested japan and i said, too expensive! haha, then we thought of nice beach places and all he can think of is diving!

it has been a relatively great weekend. we went to check out some wedding stuff and we thought of doing the solemnisation on a weekday. was wondering how many people would or are willing to take the time off or take leave to come to our solemnising ceremony. hmmmm.....

i conclude. no one in this world can lead a double life, can have two partners at the same time. not even the smartest, craftiest person who can lie through their teeth. it is simply too tiring. to keep up to the lies. to run around sneaking in the dark. it could be thrilling at first, but to keep up with it along the course of month, don't even talk about years, i think it is too tiring and painful.

happiness is being open, clear conscience and leading a meaningful life. not a two faced life.

"家，不是讲理的地方，是讲爱的地方"

i echo this very strongly. I need to love to be happy at where i am.

Happy 25th Birthday my love! and yes, he loves his beer.

it was a naughty weekend for us. before you think any further, we skipped church to go out and walk. just the both of us. it was a hectic week for both of us. he being all strung up on his upcoming exams, thinking about nothing but figures and all figures. sound very stressful to me. so we decided to take the time off to walk around and have a nice lovely evening spent eating italian food.

i m glad he enjoyed his birthday and his gift. =) i have a few cravings now... i wanan go eat HIMAWARI!!!!! and pasta de fresca... and and big fish!!!!

hope April will be a good month with good foood and happy times

pretty girl. pretty voice. pretty song

I read somewhere today:

Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like the company is cutting back the payroll and you don't know if you may be next, and dinner as if you had just lost your job.

Interesting.

And I am home alone... again! Mum went Chiangmai 2 days after dad went Bangkok. Dad would be back on tues or wed then there will be someone at home at least. wish i had a sister, it would be nice to have someone around without parents cos mummy almost drained me each and everytime we go into a long conversation.

It has been one roller coaster ride for me since Friday. Everything doesn't seem right since then. Nothing anyone says make sense, nothing i do is right, nothing i do makes me feel right again. it is call spiraling. i need to get out of this before it hurts someone. someone told me i am escaping. running away from doing the things i need to do instead of solving the problem.

time to find a new hobby... like gym!! i will definitely sign up for a gym soon. i need to face it head on.

Dear God, give me the strength i need.

suddenly, i crave solitude more than anything. i wanna be invisible.

how pretentious this world is. i totally subscribe to the theory that behind everyone's face they show to public, there is a hidden secret. not so much of a secret secret. but a hidden frustration, a hidden side that they don't want other to know. it could be due to things they are ashamed of and it could also be things that they don't wanna explain, don't wanna be judged or criticized.

all pented up. one day it will burst. there is simply that much we can handle.

i received my first sealed with a crest envelope today.



My friend's wedding! My first friend's wedding!! haha.. i would love to show everyone wad is inside but because she has not distribute her cards yet so i have to be discreet! anyway, i realised now my cards already all say 'leona and nicholas', next time will be it mr and mrs tan. no more leona?? haha



I realised laziness is really my biggest downfall! i decided to really seriously, properly do research and properly start packing my room and do planning.

this weekend has been hectic. we were going for gatherings, helping out and simply just out alot and slept very little. don't get me wrong, we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly, just that if every weekend is like that, we will be super pre-occupied with everyone's matters other than our own stuff. and after a long day still must come back and listen to my mother blab and blab and blab. haik....

Psalm 46:1-3

1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, 3 though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging

Psalm 46:10

10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth

This helps in situations like this. =) I can smile again despite the mess i am in

life had been pretty hectic for me lately. I'm usually tired and lazy at the end of the day. I have tons of work to do when i reach home, one thick book to read and videos to make. But i'm tired each time i come home that i simply don't feel like doing anything.

when is daylight coming to me? i am in 24/7 nightfall.

wedding planning is not as fun as i thought it will be. haha! so many choices. can i have like 10 weddings with 10 different places and themes. but i only want one husband. please let me fix the date first!!

i want a wedding like that in singapore! don't tell me i can only get it if i go overseas

and it's the new spring menu at Sushi tei! Finally!!



Something new that the boy tried:


and the real thing looks similar to the picture. i really that that baby sardine thing taste like our silver fish.


And we tried this! it's really huge. now i know they never cheat in dragon roll!


haha! all the sushi tei language coming out. haha.. seriously , i thought i was sick of sushi tei already. but apparently, i still love it. not to the extend one week eat 2,3 times. but i will definitely go back soon.

i'm getting really excited about how things are going to turn out. I need all the prayers!

i just came back from Batam from my team's monthly meeting. we have been wanting to go overseas for a meeting the longest time. like change the environment and at the same time a retreat and team bonding. as long as i remember, we have been talking about it for 2 years and never once did it. but now finally, we did it!! haha


Batam- the land of Ayam Penyet!


the view from our balcony


了了 and my pedicure. pretty!!


the clear blue sea!


the game that entertained us till 2am plus batam time, which is 3am in singapore time. Topple is the game


giant mug root beer! only @ a & w


=)

I am home alone for tonight and tues night. It is daddy's birthday tmr and so my mum decided to do a sweet short holiday to Genting with him from tonight and will be back on wed.

i love having the house to myself in the day, that is if i am even at home in the day, with my super hectic schedule lately. but i don't like having the house to myself at night. it's not that i m afriad or anything, cos i know i don't have to fear. i guess being an only child always craves to have people around. and being alone is way bottom of my list. thankfully, i am going for a company meeting trip to batam. we have always said we wanna have a quarterly retreat and we finally did it! so at least one night i don't have to be alone. my colleague jokingly asked, next time nic reservice how? i thinking, come back to 娘家? provided mummy allows. haha!

i have not pack, have not done my household chores. i should be packing and all. i think wake up earlier tmr to pack or something. i will catch up on some drama. since i have been so busy the past week

i am seriously considering about hiring a part time pa or secretary. when i am so busy running around with appointments and seminars, this and that, i still have to go handle paper work, minor details, i am so tired! so much trips up and down for small matters when i could have used them for more important stuff.

i m so tired!!!!!

this is all so scary. it's a do or die kind of thing. =(

this weekend was almost close to perfect. everything turned out according to my wishes and i thank God for that. when i have a good time, i eat more than normal, we had frog leg, dim sum, steak, fried chicken, mcspicy, japanese curry rice. haha... we had a little of all of these in just mere 2 days. Luckily for us, we did run a little on saturday morning but don't think it made up for all the food we ate. i know it when i saw the weighing machine just now! hee

and we ended off this weekend sinfully with:




his favourite tiramisu from Haagen-Dazs


as much as you annoy me half the time, we had the best of our times for the past 6 years and i look forward to spending the next 60 years and more with you, my love.

recently, it got me thinking, it will be nice if the boy gets a job overseas and we were to relocate. it will be a time when we have true independence, away from the buzz of our parents and i think that is where we will learn alot more stuff as a couple and as individuals. hmmm.. just a thought.

i'm amazed with how fast bus 12 takes e in the morning from my place to katong or at night from katong back to my place. on sunday mornings wherever i thought i will be late for church, the bus surprisingly gets me to church in 30 mins, sometimes lesser. and on nights where i am so tired, yet the bus is able to get me back in 30 mins or less as well.

BUT... other timings, bus 12 seemed to be SO MUCH SLOWER. like afternoons, it take me 45 mins or more to reach that area and evenings are worse but the stretch on east coast road will be so jam. the bus does not move!

had a relatively good day today. nice meet up with old friend. looking forward to more of such meet ups. =)

i was told i shouldn't keep asking for more. i hate myself for not being able to give myself more. on days like these, i feel so useless. nothing accomplished, nothing to be proud of, nothing to call my own.

i want more but i don't have the right to ask for more. unless i get it myself.

i love weekends when we have the car. makes going anywhere so much more convenient. the weekend that just passed has been great. we have been swamping ourselves with activities and now that bsf have started, we have more work to do during the weekends. yet, despite times like these, i am so thankful we still manage to squeeze quality time out for each other.

had a lovely dinner last night with my aunt and uncle. of course the fact that we went sushi tei @ I12 katong makes me even happier. think i am collecting points so much faster now. it's amazing how my boy could talk and converse with my relatives so much better than with my parents. times like these make me feel i actually have the best of both worlds. totally made my night.

sleep is not on our side lately. we are so easily tired. =/ wanted to catch up abit on our devotion and bsf homwork tgt but we end up taking a nap so long it became dinner time.

i can't wait for 2014.....

Happy Valentines Day, everyone!

i dun have any special vday plans to begin with. thought we will just go for a movie and simple dinner but then we were summoned back to church for youth alpha meeting so we decided to just have a simple dinner at I12 Katong, sushi tei of course. for those who knows, i have an ulterior motive for going there. haha

my vday gift this year is a huge mango. i came back and immediately, this was the conversation i had with daddy.

daddy: eh? where are your flowers?
me: huh? what flowers?
daddy: never get flowers this year?
me: (smiling proudly) i got a huge mango!!!

seriously, my parents thought it was very strange for me not to receive flowers. hello? do they even know nic? my boy is practical like anything and giving me mango cos i like to eat is much more practical than flowers. though i hate the fact that my mum thinks he got me already, like after propose, then no more flowers.

ahhaa... but i love mango!!! but one daisy or sunflower wouldn't hurt. i love sunflowers since secondary school. ask any of my girls! haha

i understand that valentines day is just a day with marked up prices by restaurants, florists and any other vendors who try to use it as a day to earn more money.

however, vday has very significant meaning to me and this can be traced from all the way in my sec. school Back in IJ days, vday is a widely cenebrated day. girls give a stalk of flower, chocolates or sweets and everyone is sure to get something back that day. i love celebrating vday with girlfriends. it adds to the fun and laughter or it all. now that i have the boy, vday becomes a day that we would spend tgt.

practical as he is, vday makes him irritated. the crowd, the marked up prices. he lost the mood to celebrate and among all our special days, vday kills his mood more than anything else. haha!

hmmm... now, maybe there is a way to make February special? and make him hate it less? hmmm....

i m burning my brain out today. fever up to a whopping 37.6 degree. made the boy so angry. cos i didn't know how to take care of myself according him...

haha... well.. he chose to accept the full package didn't he. haha!! hope he doesn't read this

everyone, please meet me for dinners at sushi tei for the whole month of feb!!!! =) in I12 only!!! haha!

It has been a busy and fulfilling weekend for me starting on Friday. And it was on Friday that my shopping spree started as well.

Went to LG with mixed feelings. I was happy to be able to share the good news of my engagement yet at the same time, i know i will be hearing more about the sudden news of one couple moving to Canada. They are close mentors for the boy and I and we had learn alot over the last 1.5 years from them. It saddens us to see them leave but we know in all God's good provisions, this is the best decision for them to make.

Youth Alpha finally started with a loud bang i might say! We have 10 over participants, not counting those who dropped by to visit. I do hope these people can continue coming.



And Alpha's food is always so AWESOME! This is only week 1!



So after my Friday shopping spree @ mphosis, i bought another bag from Charles and Keith. I was almost tempted to buy something from Mango. Everywhere is having sales!



And finally, introducing my new friend after rubee....

I was quite upset when my very old NEC died on me. It has served me since Poly year 1 which was when i realised i need a laptop to do all my projects and all. Or maybe that was an excuse for me to ask my parents to buy me one. But God's timing is perfect. Gave me a timely bonus to spend on this laptop. Oh well, some monies that have to be spent cannot be avoided.

And it's mphosis day today!!! I chanced upon mphosis having sales today and i couldn't resist. I always liked their clothes but it always cannot fit me nicely somehow and i am not so willing to pay their price sometimes.

Anyway, i decided to wear and carry all the things i bought today!! =)

My Bali trip was awesome! There are so many pictures i want to post, so many memories i want to share.



the beautiful sundeck that holds so much memories for me. the moment of tears, joy and laughter.

the whole trip was really like mini honeymoon. i realised the boy emailed the resort to plan it that way. so many nice and awesome surprises. i love the sunset dinner at the beach too. the sunset was so pretty!!



and lastly....



i really wanna post more pictures but then i will end up posting everything. so yea.... i will show u if u ask! hahaa

A really good saturday spent with loved ones before the boy and i fly to bali. today is the annual 'lou-hei' day with my family but be-na-brah decided to do something else before the dinner and that is to take our precious GM to the movies!!



I'm sure GM enjoyed herself alot and we are happy we brought her. =) =) And here's us before Bali.



Pray for journey mercies. Will be back on Tues. =)

It is days like today that make all worries and troubles insignificant.

one thing after another... i'm suffocation!

After 2 good days of visiting, i'm still not ready to start work!! I'm not ready to start anything! i just wanna pack up and go Bali! But i m looking forward to this whole busy week though.

Anyway, this year has been relatively different. I spent the first two days of visiting with the boy and for once, we finally went to visit his mum's relatives. They sure have a lot of people there. I love big family! Too bad, he's not very keen on it, he likes things simple, and less noise. So i don't think I will be able to have a lot of huge family gatherings. =/ But i'm sure everyone in my family loves him. Everyone except one. The unreasonable, fussy one. Good job, my love! Keep up the good work.

our hush puppies shoes!





and let this whole week roll!! =)

I didn't do pedicure this year. my package is still there after 1 year plus. my nail chipped a while ago and i was lazy to ask them to be super careful with it so i decided not to go. i wanted to find something red and i end up with this. haha! maybe i should start doing my nails. troublesome it may be but collecting a lot of nail polish seems fun. haha!

the colour above is called

It's Up To You

Product Code: NI 224

Happy 6th anniversary to us! Well, the actual day is tmr but we decided to pre-celebrate it because tmr is cny reunion dinner day. and both of us will have our own dinners at our homes respectively.

i asked the boy, should we dress to the nines and go out somewhere nice to eat? or should we cook up a blast? he chose the latter so we woke up early in the morning, went for a nice dimsum breakfast and then started our grocery shopping.



and we started cooking a storm:











and the feast is here!



i wanted to do a 4 course meal but seriously, just these 2 almost took up half the day. so tiring. presenting crabcake and handmade ravioli!!



Thank you for the past 6 years worth of memories, love and joy. I look forward to many many more years with you and bali next week!! Lovessss!

went to bff's house today and got surprised by a door gift!



so cute of her! who gives door gift to a random guest who decided to go over last minute just to get shoe membership card. Haha! rather amused by it. and i got tickled by her mum as well. i guess it is always more fun and amusing to talk to other people's mums other than your own.

Anyway, new year resolution: 100 pairs of shoes. Now 3 down, 97 to go! WOOTS! haha!

went mini shoe shopping with the boy. mini because we kinda know what we want already so just go buy! i tend to want to have same things as him so although i didn't think of owning a pair of hush puppies shoes, i end up buying one because he bought one.



something similar to this.

i still need heels though. lots and lost of heels! haha

i just realised this coming sunday is our 6th year anniversary. what should we do? whip up a special 4 course meal, things we never cook before or go to a nice restaurant?

hmmmm....

i had a very fulfilling and tired weekend. happily tired.

LG is back on every Friday. Never prepared for it and frankly, my heart wasn't there. Too long never do homework, need some getting used to. I love fellowshipping and my new resolution is to follow my boy not to eat after 1030 (which is after cell).

Saturday was a long and sweaty day. The boy and i went to grandma's to help out in preparation for the steamboat. Not much to be done cos Empress Dowager likes to do things herself. Afterthought to myself, i should have just push her out of the kitchen and insist on helping. we might have to eat out next year. and there goes one steamboat session, which is always my favourite. then after we are done in the afternoon, it was still early so we popped over to my aunt's place where we started playing kinnect. i seriously sweat like crazy after 15 minutes or so. haha!! and i m even aching now!!! gosh! and then dinner at my grandma's was like a sauna session altogether. we ate in the kitchen, not much wind and the boy commented we are burning calories as we eat! I so agree!

Sunday which is today ended up as last minute cny shopping for clothes. oh we tried CoCo Curry!



it definitely is nice but my boy prefer the GoGo Curry and i chose the wrong dish. The chicken cutlet sucks!!! must remind myself to eat sausage next time and ask for lesser rice. I wanted to prove i more garang than the boy so i took the highest level of spicy-ness. Shiok but burning to the throat. i couldn't even finish the curry. Haha!

so we walked down from somerset to far east, bought quite a bit of stuff. i am still missing a pair of heels which i eyed at charles and keith. just that they don't have my size. i am going to run around a few branches. and i want a bag too!!!!

i have been really upset when my carelessness, forgetfulness and clumsiness caused me to lose one side of my pearl earring and another side of my diamond earring all in the matter of 2 weeks. it matters to me because all these were bought by the boy. if i had bought it myself, i wouldn't have been half upset.

today, much to my very surprise, he sprang me this



i love the ruby studs inside and i love the boy more! i pray i won't lose this EVER!!!!

i have so many pending matters on hand. how to concentrate!?!!

my memory is deteriorating. how to remember???!!!

i am getting clumsier by the minute. I pissed myself off SO MUCH!!!!

ARGHHH!!!! BAD DAY!!! HOW TO LAST TMR!

Genesis 9:16

Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth -NIV

God haven't answer my prayers directly yet but seeing this reassures me that He is still in control. How so? I'm really not sure. I am still quite weak on the inside, waiting to strengthen up. How should I do it? I'm not sure too. But a wise person would say, figure out your why before you think about how. I need to know why i want to do it then i can figure out how i wanna get there.

I had a super lovely weekend. ended on a high note. God, give me strength to endure one more week.