it's been quite some time since i blogged a decent entry so i'm going to blog now, when i'm a happy girl. don't want to blog everytime i'not feeling happy or when i'm down. people might misunderstand tt i'm such a pessismistic person. i ve my happy sides as well. just that when i'm happy, i dun feel wordy enough to blog. meanwhile, i want to stay in this happy and crappy mood. i want to be simple. don't point thinking so much. if it's meant to happen, it would, i cannot prevent it so i'm going to just enjoy every moment right now.
work's great. in the sense that it's the same routine everyday but at least i'm not facing any problems. just 2 more weeks and it will be over.. come to think of it, i might even miss work after we get back to school. the people htere are really nice. work environment is not like tt in my imagination but the place is really nice with nice and helpful people. the nasty ones are really the customers. =/ i know my little boy cannot stand itp anymore.. cos he apparently hates doing admin.. and tt's all he does. but he doesn't like to call either... hmmmm.... oh wells. not everyone likes itp, it's a matter of mentality. i noe he can stay positive. the funny thing is we've been emailing each other though we just sit beside each other... a form of keeping company. =)
i'm currently watching looney tunes. one of my fav morning pastime for this week. cos i work in the afternoon shift so i can watch tv.. and cartoon is a great stress reliever. i used to watch cartoons in chinese and i'm still doing it now. i think watching cartoon is chinese can be quite funny. as in to hear the pple dubbing it. so it's another joy altogether. missed those times when i practically just tune into cartoon network 24/7. oh.. tt one, cartoon network only operates in da day. not liek now... it's 24/7.
amelia and i ve biggg dreams and ambitions. both of us wanna open a bridal shop. and be wedding planners. =) we would be pretty pretty wedding planners and she claims tt the bridegrooms will change their mind after seeing us. hahhhaa.... wondering if 5 years down the road... we would still hold this dream?? or would we be laughing it off already... and speaking of amelia.. i m craving for steamboat!!! and our bbq or potluck session.. when when when!!!! WHEN???? i wanna eat steamboat!!! the ma la one.... the one in bugis. i wanna eattttt!!!!! and i wan the eat the dessesrt there too.. at LIANG SEAH STREET. read this amelia... LIANG SEAH street. hahha.
here's a post to get pple to write testimonials for me. i lost all my 40 plus over testimonials.. can everyone who reads this write.. so i can get it back. i dunno why it's gone.. for a few weeks already. soo sad can.. i lost all my precious past testimonials..... =( so ya... help me if u can yea? and thanks to those who already did!! u guys are sooo sweet. =)
k.. am gg to eat lunch. i promised tt boy tt i would eat proper meals so i bugged my mum to cook for me instead. hhaaa.... after lunch.. den off to work. this week is a 6 day week. cos last week didn't work on fri. so this week ve to compensate. but luckily, can dress down. jeans day!! it's been soo long since i last saw him wear jeans.. i miss it!! =)
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
i felt something. something i don't know how to describe. made me think. we would have lesser time for each other in the future. although we forsee problems but no matter how we anticipate them or even prepare for them... when it's here, it's different. that feeling i noe all too well. hmmm...
mummy's such a sweetie. she revived her little girl here by giving me advancement in allowance. =)
mummy's such a sweetie. she revived her little girl here by giving me advancement in allowance. =)
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Choo Jing Tian Leona is pronounced dead on this day and at this time.
Reason: Flat broke. Don't even have cash to buy a monthly magazine. what's worse than that. With a few bucks in the bank and 50 cents in her wallet, she died so un-pecaefully.
To be revived on April's Fool. No joke about that.
Any kind soul who wants to save her can kindly deposit money into her account. interest free, hopefully. Instant revival mans.
Meanwhile, she remains dead on the sofa at home, feeling dead and shitty.
and
she
remains
...
Reason: Flat broke. Don't even have cash to buy a monthly magazine. what's worse than that. With a few bucks in the bank and 50 cents in her wallet, she died so un-pecaefully.
To be revived on April's Fool. No joke about that.
Any kind soul who wants to save her can kindly deposit money into her account. interest free, hopefully. Instant revival mans.
Meanwhile, she remains dead on the sofa at home, feeling dead and shitty.
and
she
remains
...
| Your Element is Metal |
 Your power colors: white, gold, and silver Your energy: contracting Your season: fall You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn). If you see something you want, you go for it. You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down. Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life. |
Sunday, March 19, 2006
the night freak me out again, like how it used to. i guess it's been too long since i last stayed at home at night alone. i forgot how scared i used to be. the feeling came back tonight. exactly how i felt in the past. last time, i remembered when i started thinking too much and start freaking myself out by little noise, i will call chin. make her talk to me till my parents came home... i recall starting the conversation by saying chin chin.. i'm soo scared.. how how how... lol.. and of course. just a opening will freak anyone out. so i made chin worry for a split second then when i told her the reason, she would just start calming me down and all.. lol. poor chin. but tt's why i always call her last time. now, all i can is on the tv loud loud and open the big wooden door, so in anyway... i can run out immediately, if necessary. and not forgetting, toking to my angel darling. it helps quite abit. ok.. i noe i sounded silly. and i bet everyone who reads this is rolling their eyes.. but ya.. i'm scared wad.
here's my boring sunday. slept till ten, had organ lesson and slacked all the way. nothing done, nothing accomplished. i dunno why but my thighs are aching quite abit. could it be cos i walked a bit too much yesterday? but how can it be.. hmmmm.... i feel old. and speaking of old, i do feel old. issit cos i'm like working full time... from 9 to 6. cos i feel tired almost everyday. angel say this is wps. and we're suffering from it. so no life mans, dun u think so? cos ar... the mere mention of gg out late to hevoc a little.. i would be like huh.... no energy or simply too tired. i feel old. where's my youth mans!!!! =/
updated my wish list and food list too. that food list ar.. mainly is for chin one. all our pacts made to each other. she's my official food mate mans. i've led an unhealthy life today mans. ate super unhealthily. lol... but at least i ate. this is the life i eat when i'm alone mans. ahhha.. those were the days... lots of memories for today. being alone at home gets me super emo. just watching this korean show, i simply teared. lol.... gosh.... leona has become a little weakling, hasn't she? well, tv's my only company. so ya.. i had to communicate with it right.. hhhaaa.. i guess it's just quite some time being alone. not tt i dun enjoy it, time to myself and all. even ken hirai's songs bring tearsto my eyes.. woahhh....
just saw zoe tay's watch on tv.. looks good. just saw fann on tv.. sooo pretty! i've been doing some pi work online today too. lol. and as u guys can tell.. i'm seriously bored. since when have u all seen such a long entry? anyway... two weeks of work is down.. left with 4. can't wait to get back to school. am sure eve feels this way too? judging from her blog.. but ar.. the thought of bd just makes me =/ results coming out on 22nd... suckkkyyy...
angel is crapppy and so am i.... 2 bored girls
here's my boring sunday. slept till ten, had organ lesson and slacked all the way. nothing done, nothing accomplished. i dunno why but my thighs are aching quite abit. could it be cos i walked a bit too much yesterday? but how can it be.. hmmmm.... i feel old. and speaking of old, i do feel old. issit cos i'm like working full time... from 9 to 6. cos i feel tired almost everyday. angel say this is wps. and we're suffering from it. so no life mans, dun u think so? cos ar... the mere mention of gg out late to hevoc a little.. i would be like huh.... no energy or simply too tired. i feel old. where's my youth mans!!!! =/
updated my wish list and food list too. that food list ar.. mainly is for chin one. all our pacts made to each other. she's my official food mate mans. i've led an unhealthy life today mans. ate super unhealthily. lol... but at least i ate. this is the life i eat when i'm alone mans. ahhha.. those were the days... lots of memories for today. being alone at home gets me super emo. just watching this korean show, i simply teared. lol.... gosh.... leona has become a little weakling, hasn't she? well, tv's my only company. so ya.. i had to communicate with it right.. hhhaaa.. i guess it's just quite some time being alone. not tt i dun enjoy it, time to myself and all. even ken hirai's songs bring tearsto my eyes.. woahhh....
just saw zoe tay's watch on tv.. looks good. just saw fann on tv.. sooo pretty! i've been doing some pi work online today too. lol. and as u guys can tell.. i'm seriously bored. since when have u all seen such a long entry? anyway... two weeks of work is down.. left with 4. can't wait to get back to school. am sure eve feels this way too? judging from her blog.. but ar.. the thought of bd just makes me =/ results coming out on 22nd... suckkkyyy...
angel is crapppy and so am i.... 2 bored girls
Thursday, March 16, 2006
cos of some small promise i made, i'm online. and cos i'm online, i've decided to blog for bit. lol... everytime i never blog for a while, i feel missed... with all my loyal readers out there, i feel loved and cared for too!! =)
the second week of my work is coming to an end soon. and i'm slowly blending into the working environment. i've grown to realise even if i like or do not like my work, even if i dread it, slack away, time still passes. time doesn't passes fast or slowly, it's actually more of how u look at it. cos no matter wad u do and wad u think, time just passes. time does its own job and tick away, always in the same rhythm. never changing. it's human mind tt changes, human opinions tt changes. so ya, i've come to terms with that and cos of it... i'm slowly liking wad i do, even though it can get really mundane at times. but nonetheless, time waits for no one. it just passes.
realised things i want are still growing. i'm so going to update my "wants" list sooon. for myself to keep track of. so tired nowadays when i get home.. maybe i'll write them during break time tmr.. so i can type it out in my blog.
went out with yan today. we went to eat Billy Bombers... have been wanting to eat that for quite some time. and it's always only with yan tt i can ve my wish granted. chin too lah.... dun wanna her to feel left out. yan mention too.... with yan.. it's always good foood and i love good food. pampering myself. have been emailing amelia from work these past 2 days. feel so good. mail from outside world. cos i using company's email. lol... and the best part is.. we met coincidentally today after work too.... shall leave out the details.. but looks like our fate and telepathy still working well and strong. and i'm so glad about it. =)
i learnt that familarity is not a good thing. it makes one so weak at times.
the second week of my work is coming to an end soon. and i'm slowly blending into the working environment. i've grown to realise even if i like or do not like my work, even if i dread it, slack away, time still passes. time doesn't passes fast or slowly, it's actually more of how u look at it. cos no matter wad u do and wad u think, time just passes. time does its own job and tick away, always in the same rhythm. never changing. it's human mind tt changes, human opinions tt changes. so ya, i've come to terms with that and cos of it... i'm slowly liking wad i do, even though it can get really mundane at times. but nonetheless, time waits for no one. it just passes.
realised things i want are still growing. i'm so going to update my "wants" list sooon. for myself to keep track of. so tired nowadays when i get home.. maybe i'll write them during break time tmr.. so i can type it out in my blog.
went out with yan today. we went to eat Billy Bombers... have been wanting to eat that for quite some time. and it's always only with yan tt i can ve my wish granted. chin too lah.... dun wanna her to feel left out. yan mention too.... with yan.. it's always good foood and i love good food. pampering myself. have been emailing amelia from work these past 2 days. feel so good. mail from outside world. cos i using company's email. lol... and the best part is.. we met coincidentally today after work too.... shall leave out the details.. but looks like our fate and telepathy still working well and strong. and i'm so glad about it. =)
i learnt that familarity is not a good thing. it makes one so weak at times.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
i just read eve's blog and frankly speaking, i envy her going-to-be busy busy life. i mean this is attachment. somewhere we're supposed to learn and not part time work. part time work i dun mind easy tasks.. but this is attachment. so i guess from my tone, roughly can guess how's first day of work yesterday. and... i'm doing telemarketing. =/
first day of work was tiring. cos had to look at computer for like 2 plus hours? and i dunno why but the computer screen look so big. it's taxing to the eyes. anyway... yesterday was just looking around and getting used to the place. i'm officially starting work on wed. why wed.. cos i'm off today!! we work shifts.. this week, i'm on morning shift and according to them, morning shifts got one weekday off... but sat have to work till 4. my weekday working hours are from 9:30 to 6:20. next week would be afternoon shift. 1 to 9... afternoon shifts would be no social life.. 6 weeks will pass quickly, i hope? with all the calling... i wun want to tok anymore after this 6 weeks... i'm growing to HATE talking to strangers.
at least i rewarded myself after a "hard" day of work. went to catch a movie with him. underworld. =) and den bought myself 2 comics. haha..... one comic everyday. i'm so going to be broke. or rather, i'm going broke sooon.
just read nana. felt quite sad. or should i sae felt quite emo. i really thought they would be happily together. really thought the guy was sweet and nice. but why did hearts change. it brings me back to a question. why do hearts change. it's very bei ai, very sad to noe that hearts would change. why is the heart of human so complex? changing without a valid reason. and maybe without any reason at all. why is that people break up just cos someone has a change of heart. what about the other party? questions, questions and more questions. without any answers.
i always believe that 2 persons can only break up without any strings leaving and can still be friends only when 2 persons mutually stop feeling for one another. or rather 2 persons stop loving each other. so even when someone changed of hearts.. or only one party stopped loving, that's not mutual and there's no such thing as friendship between them. and it's so sad, so heart wrenching on the abandoned party.
read a nice line though. a guy was asking another guy why did he not go around looking at other girls or why did he not hua xin. and that guy (who's att) answered, cos he's afraid to lose her (his gf).
okie. told u i was feeling emo. here's the proof.
i will rest well today.. for work tmr. i need a positive work attitude to feel good and do well in work. =)
first day of work was tiring. cos had to look at computer for like 2 plus hours? and i dunno why but the computer screen look so big. it's taxing to the eyes. anyway... yesterday was just looking around and getting used to the place. i'm officially starting work on wed. why wed.. cos i'm off today!! we work shifts.. this week, i'm on morning shift and according to them, morning shifts got one weekday off... but sat have to work till 4. my weekday working hours are from 9:30 to 6:20. next week would be afternoon shift. 1 to 9... afternoon shifts would be no social life.. 6 weeks will pass quickly, i hope? with all the calling... i wun want to tok anymore after this 6 weeks... i'm growing to HATE talking to strangers.
at least i rewarded myself after a "hard" day of work. went to catch a movie with him. underworld. =) and den bought myself 2 comics. haha..... one comic everyday. i'm so going to be broke. or rather, i'm going broke sooon.
just read nana. felt quite sad. or should i sae felt quite emo. i really thought they would be happily together. really thought the guy was sweet and nice. but why did hearts change. it brings me back to a question. why do hearts change. it's very bei ai, very sad to noe that hearts would change. why is the heart of human so complex? changing without a valid reason. and maybe without any reason at all. why is that people break up just cos someone has a change of heart. what about the other party? questions, questions and more questions. without any answers.
i always believe that 2 persons can only break up without any strings leaving and can still be friends only when 2 persons mutually stop feeling for one another. or rather 2 persons stop loving each other. so even when someone changed of hearts.. or only one party stopped loving, that's not mutual and there's no such thing as friendship between them. and it's so sad, so heart wrenching on the abandoned party.
read a nice line though. a guy was asking another guy why did he not go around looking at other girls or why did he not hua xin. and that guy (who's att) answered, cos he's afraid to lose her (his gf).
okie. told u i was feeling emo. here's the proof.
i will rest well today.. for work tmr. i need a positive work attitude to feel good and do well in work. =)
Sunday, March 05, 2006
just came back from watching bai yun gang 2006. come to think of it.. i've been a loyal supporter of the bai yun gang for 3 years already. think i deserve to be in the alumni as well? or they ought to thank me as well? even if not so, think deserve a flower from my girlfriend?? but she only give her friend!! and if it's not worse.. she had to choose to give african daisy.. one of my favourite.. the orange one!! hmphh...... bad girl and when xin's around.. i'm obviously not impt to her anymore... openly flirt with xin can!! lol...
but it's okie. cos i love xin too!! there's no way i can defy her or sae no to her and it's been such a long time since i practically laughed the whole night. she's just so damn funny can.. giggles and tickles me alot alot. hugssss.. really wish she could come tmr cycling as well. not as if i dun ALREADY have great company. but the more the merrier wad.
and all of them claimed tt i'm so off today. everything doesn't match, from inside to outside. and ar, the stupid wind had to be so strong today tt i keep having to press down my skirt to prevent it from flying up. it's a chore..... and chin, boon, and xin ve to keep protecting me fro mthe wind. lol.. tt really tickles me as well. watched big mama with angel and chin today. laughed too. it's laughing day mans!!!
great day spent all in all. =) i'm all smiles. can't wait for 26 march. our next singing session... =) and right now.. can't wait for tmr... it's cycling day!!! =)
i miss u lots...
but it's okie. cos i love xin too!! there's no way i can defy her or sae no to her and it's been such a long time since i practically laughed the whole night. she's just so damn funny can.. giggles and tickles me alot alot. hugssss.. really wish she could come tmr cycling as well. not as if i dun ALREADY have great company. but the more the merrier wad.
and all of them claimed tt i'm so off today. everything doesn't match, from inside to outside. and ar, the stupid wind had to be so strong today tt i keep having to press down my skirt to prevent it from flying up. it's a chore..... and chin, boon, and xin ve to keep protecting me fro mthe wind. lol.. tt really tickles me as well. watched big mama with angel and chin today. laughed too. it's laughing day mans!!!
great day spent all in all. =) i'm all smiles. can't wait for 26 march. our next singing session... =) and right now.. can't wait for tmr... it's cycling day!!! =)
i miss u lots...
Thursday, March 02, 2006
i'm feeling very shitty at this hour, right at this moment. don't ask me why. if i knew, i would know how to solve it. but whatever it is, i am feeling real bad now. am in a total bad shape. i know i felt it all wrong. i know it. i really did. but what irks me is that i dun knoe what i can do to dissolve this all-wrong type of feel. freak.. this is so sucky. it's all wrong. everything is. what is it exactly. i dunno.. but it's wrong... yuuucccckkkk... i so hate this feeling. i so hate me right now. god... show me the light can. i dunno how long i can stay sane. seriously.
and it seriously does not help when certain things occured. i dun wanna mention it here cos i dun think it's fault of any parties. i really dun. it's just so hurtful.... and it gets me even more down. it hurts even more when u knew how i feel about such stuff. you knew. of all people. but no worries.... i'm not blaming anyone here and i'm ot bearing grudges. really. it's me. it's me and myself. i think the problem lies deeply with me. maybe i need isolation? to prevent myself from irritating any human being. or to prevent myself to making any more trouble for myself. this feeling sux.
I HATE THIS PERSON WHO HAPPENS TO BEAR MY NAME RIGHT NOW! she's so not herself.
i want seoul garden!!!!!
and it seriously does not help when certain things occured. i dun wanna mention it here cos i dun think it's fault of any parties. i really dun. it's just so hurtful.... and it gets me even more down. it hurts even more when u knew how i feel about such stuff. you knew. of all people. but no worries.... i'm not blaming anyone here and i'm ot bearing grudges. really. it's me. it's me and myself. i think the problem lies deeply with me. maybe i need isolation? to prevent myself from irritating any human being. or to prevent myself to making any more trouble for myself. this feeling sux.
I HATE THIS PERSON WHO HAPPENS TO BEAR MY NAME RIGHT NOW! she's so not herself.
i want seoul garden!!!!!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i tend to respond to my readers so since i have a loyal reader's request, i will gladly do it. =) anyway dal... do u remember u told me this thing that u read somewhere that this woman got pregnant and she don't even know it until she went to the toilet? where did u read it from? suddenly remembered it. and feeling curious.
it's the first of the month and i'm hoping the rest of my month would be good too. februaury has been not so good to a certain extend... except the fact that we got together. basically, the whole of semester 2 is pretty sucky. can't wait for tmr to be over cos tmr marks the end of exams! like finally.... not as if i put in alot of effort.. but'i feel so exhausted. i really dunno why. o drained out... so no energy. grrr....
eating tuna now and waiting for him to cook breakfast for me. he owed it to me. have been playing dai dee very often.. and he's losing very often too. i feel like i'm forcing him to do it.. but no choice la.. if never play dai dee... bet i'll never get to eat breakfast from him. haha.. owe me so many things. i wonder when's the fragrance coming.... hmmmm...
dal.. enough??? study hard everyone.. last day!!!!! and to those who's taking their a level reults.. good luck!!!! all the best... =)
it's the first of the month and i'm hoping the rest of my month would be good too. februaury has been not so good to a certain extend... except the fact that we got together. basically, the whole of semester 2 is pretty sucky. can't wait for tmr to be over cos tmr marks the end of exams! like finally.... not as if i put in alot of effort.. but'i feel so exhausted. i really dunno why. o drained out... so no energy. grrr....
eating tuna now and waiting for him to cook breakfast for me. he owed it to me. have been playing dai dee very often.. and he's losing very often too. i feel like i'm forcing him to do it.. but no choice la.. if never play dai dee... bet i'll never get to eat breakfast from him. haha.. owe me so many things. i wonder when's the fragrance coming.... hmmmm...
dal.. enough??? study hard everyone.. last day!!!!! and to those who's taking their a level reults.. good luck!!!! all the best... =)
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