this has got to be the worst weekend since a very long time, well technically, i really did have lots of fun on sat with my love but i had to deal with one disappointment after another all in a span of the last 24 hours.

of course, my love was being very very sweet and nice to me throughout and it really helped. I just wished time would stand still and i dun have to go out and face it. can i hide for a weeek and get some other people to deal with it?? gosh....

this is what happens to building a r/s and trust.

i'm overwhelmed with thankfulness that i have such a nice and happy childhood and that i don't have absent parents. This meant alot to me as a only child and that they took the time to attend all functions, events or whatever performance i have. i still remember when i was younger and had to go take my theory exams, these are usually held in schools, different schools around singapore. I made my mum wait for me and make her promise that i will see her when i come out of the room. ahahha.. those were the days.

even if they made mistakes in parenting here and there... this is one thing i have to applaud them for and one good role model that i can look up towards. i hope to be there for my child next time... rain or shine

i feel so ignored these days and misunderstood these days