we are living in a extremely confusing world. who are you supposed to trust? anyway, I am way past the trust issue, it doesn't bother me anymore. I should not doubt myself and simply trust. I mean who else to trust but yourself. so what happens when your good friend trusts someone you have your doubts about? hmmm... best not to open your mouth and to watch the situation as it unfolds... i might be wrong but then again, i totally trust myself. and relationship between people... what ties people together, what makes them turn their back on them the next day? It can be quite scary if you think about it isn't it.... anyway, i guess i've found the few people that i can depend on. don't think i want to open up to anyone other than them, i mean it's the new me here... the one who has break through everything and come to this point. =) quite stressed up today. many things undone, don't know how to do... don't know how to get on... don't know where i spend all the time.. dunno why i so lazy.. sometimes on this type of day, just want someone on the other line that i can grumble and complain to... but i guess the new me is alone.. not in a bad way.. but independent.. am sure i can get it settled so no worries... so i figure the most simple way to get things done is to do and do.... tired just sleep... awake, just do everything that has to be done, why stop and think.. time won't wait.. and no one would too. the whole world is still moving on.. and i don't see why i should be different...

if you want to do something, do not be afraid, just go ahead. you might be surprised.