it's the c***. it's the h***. it's the f***. nothing is going right.

when did all of these start, i am wondering. guess it's sometime ago when all the bad luck start befalling me. so many knots. i wonder when and how to get them untangled. i wonder who controls the amount of time one person is limited to, whoever it is out there, give me more of it please.

too many things to handle, both inside and outside, emotionally and physically. tummy is not helping, no one is helping. everyone only knows how to make it worse for me.

i'm slowly on my way to self-destruction.