i know i will get retribution for sure. there will be a day when i have to pay it all back. what i suffered out there, i shouldn't have brought it home. the environment out there has somehow shapen what I am now but this doesn't mean people at home deserve it. I am sorry but I have my pride. One fine day when all of these is over, I will regret. I know for sure. Everyone thinks I'm doted and pampered. This I won't deny but the things I really want are those that i can never have. Whatever it is, i await my retribution.