i woke up early this morning to learn about the sad life of beethoven. but, the sad part is that i have to wake up early for my organ lesson. it totally slip off my mind last night that i have lesson today, otherwise, i would have slept early last night. oh wells.

since i've learnt some interesting facts this morning, shall share it with u guys. beethoven was born into a family where his father is a spendthrift and a drunkard. his mother i think is the sickly type one. den he got 2 younger brothers so he have to take care of them. when his father is drunk, temper will be bad and will tend to hit him. when he was in his twenties, he was struck partially deaf by his father. now think of it this way, a guy born into this kinda family and hit deaf by your own father, yet emerged as a musician. how hard life must be for him. history stated that he was a musician with a very bad temper. his temper, his angust to this world can be heard through his music. how fascinating that through music, one can actually learn so much about the composer's attitude and life. after exams, i've to concentrate on my theory exam already. but i'm not dreading it. in fact, i'm looking forward to learning the history of those composers and their music though it can get quite boring, with the different music periods in history.

once in a while like this, i find myself drawn into music. maybe tt's why my teacher sae i'm actually quite talented in it though i take up music not because of my passion for it, but rather an obligation. it's not an obligation that i take willingly. it's one where i will fulfill it even though i dun like it much and everyone who knows me should know that if i dun like something, i go all out to show it but ya, it's a promise to finish my music diploma and i will work hard.

talked to cy last night. it's been such a long time. know him for 5 years already yet we haven't met. started some issues on different views about guys and girls. guys can actually go play around so as long as they only have the one and only girl in their heart? their attitude is so as long as i love you, i can fool around? why is that when u have someone already, and u noe tt she's the one, u're still on a look out? issit just human nature not to be contented or just guys being guys? hmmm... on the other hand, there are also guys that go all out for the girls they like. giving in their all. i know of this friend who just broke up with his gf, cos he was too nice. or maybe simply the girl just dun love him as much as he does. maybe girls just dun like nice guys? but i think it's not that, all of us should look for someone to give us as much as we give. even if the degree of giving differs, it shouldn't be alot. like this, den both parties can be happy. that person might not be the one u love most but is the one who's gg to settle down with u. and as a person grow older, passion is no longer a factor.

anyway, i've got to study hard for econs. really dun like econs. i only like the teacher. lolx. i've got many things to do after exams, in preparation for perth. =)