just finish doing my mask. it was hilarious. i can't talk with mask on then i needed to tell my mum stuff, was playing charade with her.. damn funny lah. i must say, she's pretty good at guessing or maybe, on the other hand, i'm good at acting it out.. =)

never knew packing could be such a chore but it really is. but at least, i'm 3/4 packed. tonight's going to be an early night for me. gotta wake up early tmr.

but before i go to bed, i must blog about today. angel say i might not blog but no way mans, it's such a good day for me too! went out with my dearies today, amelia and angel and boy, could the 3 of us click so well. surprisingly, we had lotsa things to talk about and it seemed like all 3 of us shared a common history. i had real fun. i'm too lazy to type the details, if want details, can go read angel's blog.. it's really detailed.

this week has been a very good one for me. met up with many people. those i miss and wanna see badly. everything feels good. and i'm very happy. thanks to those who met up with me, you've made my week pass so well.

thanks xm for ur mp3. will be reminded of u during the whole trip.. thanks alot alot. and thanks amelia for helping me record the show. u promised!! our friendship's at stake, i love u guys! thanks alot.

i'll miss all of u guys. miss me too, k! if u guys are feeling rich, can call me or drop me a message. i'll be bringing my phone. must take care of urself while i'm away and u guys will always be on my mind. i'll contact u all when i get back. tata~ i'll take care of myself too.. =) *hugs*

areosmith-- i don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

(Chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever

And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this, I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

my cousin's whining for someone to send her off this saturday. i want also! but it's a morning flight and it's a damn early one. flight's at 9 plus, which means we have to get there by 8 plus at least? hmmm... so i can forget about asking anyone to send me off.

many things screw up when it comes to this trip. first it was the cancel of it all, and now, there are other problems, though minor, as well. don't worry, would take lotsa care and i would have to take care of my cousin too! no matter wad, i'm still 4 months older than her, k! ahaha, haven't got down to serious packing yet. have been dragging it on and on. think i'll have to pack on thursday night after i get back from meeting my girlfriend! yay, finally get to meet her. miss tt boon girl soo much.

will i be missed during the one week i'm gone?? *pouts*

2 more days to perth!

i'm finally sick of solitaire, after so long. yay, i'm back to normal. i know everyone thought i was rather wierd to fall in love with solitaire, but i'm normal now. =)

i'm having a relatively hard time packing. just can't decide wad to bring. i feel like just putting in half my wadrobe but that would be too much. but i dun want to overpack or on the other hand, under pack as well. this is where a list would come in handy and being as lazy as i m, just can't bring myself to write one.

thanks all my friends for asking me out or agreeing to go out with me. i thought no one would want to jian xing for me... thank you thank you. i'm happy! =) and i would stay happy. oh and before i forgot, though i'm sure she won't see this but happy 44th monthsary anyway!

5 more days to perth!

a nice weekend spent, but very lack of sleep.

met up with dz on sat. i counted and it's been a year or more since we go out together. so so long. we catch up, laughed and she claims i'm ambitious! i'm not, k! went coffee club and tcc. had lotsa caffeine yet when i wanted to watch a midnight show with my cousin, my body and mind tells me that i need the bed. yes, i'm that tired. and i wonder why but i really want to watch guess who!!

spent the whole sunday with my mum. went for facial and foot rub. feels damn good. there were like 3 people serving me? ahaha, i felt like a princess and even the aunties said i should feel like one. *grins*

my dad just came back from shanghai and we bought lotsa pearls back! ahaha, he even bought pearl powder. in the past, pearl powder is only meant for ge ge (ancient china princess). and everytime he go china, he would not fail to buy me watches. i really appreciate it alot but his taste is just hmmm, rather different from mine? so ya... i'll gladly accept it and try to wear on some occasions, not all. but i try.. hee.

i'm leaving this saturday already. anyone want to help me jian4 xing2. eve doesn't know this word, i had to explain very very long to her... ahahaha. and ar, i'm craving for mah jong, i really am!!!

met chin today after her exams. we were supposed to meet in town to catch a movie and do some shopping but that silly girl called me and say meet at tiong bahru instead because she had to do her name tag. it was supposed to be done like within half an hour or less but because both of us got lost in tiong bahru, it took an hour! and the worst part of it all was that it was raining very heavily. we were like walking rounds and rounds in tiong bahru and me being me, act smart, wanted to take short cut and in the end, we had to walk extra rounds. gosh, with an empty stomach and the rain pouring, i almost fainted on the street!

after that, went town to catch a movie, shopped a while and before we know it, it's time to go home to watch tv. can't help it, 2 tv addicts. it's a chicken day for me today. ate chicken for both lunch and dinner... i'm gonna get some vitamin c into my system. feel that my body system is not as strong as it used to be, very easily get flu and fall sick...

anyway, eve!! is the message in your blog for me?

me and chin on the train after a long tiring hour at tiong bahru 

i woke up early this morning to learn about the sad life of beethoven. but, the sad part is that i have to wake up early for my organ lesson. it totally slip off my mind last night that i have lesson today, otherwise, i would have slept early last night. oh wells.

since i've learnt some interesting facts this morning, shall share it with u guys. beethoven was born into a family where his father is a spendthrift and a drunkard. his mother i think is the sickly type one. den he got 2 younger brothers so he have to take care of them. when his father is drunk, temper will be bad and will tend to hit him. when he was in his twenties, he was struck partially deaf by his father. now think of it this way, a guy born into this kinda family and hit deaf by your own father, yet emerged as a musician. how hard life must be for him. history stated that he was a musician with a very bad temper. his temper, his angust to this world can be heard through his music. how fascinating that through music, one can actually learn so much about the composer's attitude and life. after exams, i've to concentrate on my theory exam already. but i'm not dreading it. in fact, i'm looking forward to learning the history of those composers and their music though it can get quite boring, with the different music periods in history.

once in a while like this, i find myself drawn into music. maybe tt's why my teacher sae i'm actually quite talented in it though i take up music not because of my passion for it, but rather an obligation. it's not an obligation that i take willingly. it's one where i will fulfill it even though i dun like it much and everyone who knows me should know that if i dun like something, i go all out to show it but ya, it's a promise to finish my music diploma and i will work hard.

talked to cy last night. it's been such a long time. know him for 5 years already yet we haven't met. started some issues on different views about guys and girls. guys can actually go play around so as long as they only have the one and only girl in their heart? their attitude is so as long as i love you, i can fool around? why is that when u have someone already, and u noe tt she's the one, u're still on a look out? issit just human nature not to be contented or just guys being guys? hmmm... on the other hand, there are also guys that go all out for the girls they like. giving in their all. i know of this friend who just broke up with his gf, cos he was too nice. or maybe simply the girl just dun love him as much as he does. maybe girls just dun like nice guys? but i think it's not that, all of us should look for someone to give us as much as we give. even if the degree of giving differs, it shouldn't be alot. like this, den both parties can be happy. that person might not be the one u love most but is the one who's gg to settle down with u. and as a person grow older, passion is no longer a factor.

anyway, i've got to study hard for econs. really dun like econs. i only like the teacher. lolx. i've got many things to do after exams, in preparation for perth. =)

it's been so long since i last paint the town red. i miss my shopping, my coffee outings, my late night movie with my cousin, i miss everyone out there that i haven't met in some time! and i'm deprived of all of you. lolx.

have been somewhat busy rotting at home, well it was supposed to be studying at home but somehow, i'm just not a consistent person to study. tv is a number one big distraction, den it's my computer. u will be surprised but i'm so hooked onto solitaire. and tt's why computers are so attractive nowadays. and lastly, it's the food. my fridge is filled with food to distract me every now and then. once in so blue a moon then my fridge would be stocked up.. ahaha.. i'm not complaining but this is crazy. i'm like getting fatter. you guys would surely disagree with me but it's a fact! i'm the one looking at the mirror when i bathe so u guys can't argue this point.

tmr's accounts paper. it kinda freaked me out. dun have the usual confidence i have. dunno why. just feel very uncertain. about everything, in fact.

it's amazing how much tv could cheer me up, but at the same time, get me highly addicted to it. so should i love or hate it more? it's so annoying, when i'm preparing for my exams, all the nice shows start. one hr after another, darn it!

i'm already going to prepare writing on my whiteboard, monday to friday all the shows that can't be missed, maybe i wun be so bored during the holidays after all. stayed at home, tv-ing all the way, save money too. weekends are not included because i definitely must go out!

today's paper sux. i dun even want to elaborate but okok, there's nothing i can say to console someone who either pons lectures or sleep through it. tutorial also dun wanna do properly.. but all these is going to change! if i get to pass all modules, i promise i would be a good student from year 2 onwards. god, please help me? i promise, i promise... =)

exams are such a dread. when would it be over? i want to enjoy without guilt.

You should be dating a Leo.
23 July - 22 August
This mate is honest and loyal, with a sunny
disposition. Though this lion has the tendency
to be arrogant, sulky or smug, he/she is
unrestrained in bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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you came after a long time and brought me much pain. i don't know if i should be glad you came. you made me lose all my concentration i should have to study. it's so painful...

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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my mum's evil. one can after another of pringles storing at my place. bars and bars of chocolates. basically, alot of snacks for me to study with and gosh, i can feel the fats in me. i can't afford to stay at home anymore because by doing so, i'll just grow fatter and fatter and i'll turn into a pig even before i go perth.

didn't study at all today. guilt. i'm simply too lazy. allowing myself to slip into relax mode once mob is finished. looks like tonight is going to be a tough night. i can't sleep le. got to at least do some mugging, like starting on my econs.

sometimes i wonder, what's wrong with humans. never satisfied with wad they have but constantly looking for newer advertures and challenges. they rather go after something so difficult to lay their hands on than make do with wad they have around them. wierd.

lots of flashbacks today. i guessed it has to do with the fact that at 4am last night, i came across this little sketchbook that was given to me by my dearest one and only darling gf. lots of memories especially about xcyflawx (did i get it right?). and also the fact that she called me today and we chatted alot. about present, about past. =) i know i was supposed to be studying but oh well, a little digression won't hurt.

remember all the little fairy tales we wrote? it started off with xinying's one, then it was chinfang's and then boon wrote one for me too. hilarious and crappy stuff but nonetheless, a very important part of all our memories. all of us dreamed of having a prince charming, sweeping us off our feet. everyone wants different type of guys and no one would ever forget tt my gf actually wants guys with lots muscles like the rock. basically, in those days, we dreamt of perfect relationship, perfect guy, perfect wedding. and ya, like i said, it's only a dream and will always be.

guess by now, everyone should experience or come across due to people around us that dreams ultimately are not reality. how many of us can get a prince charming and have a perfect relationship and get married to the one we loved the most? the probability (yes, i've been doing stats) is so small. so many of us out there wants to be love and if that's the case, who's going to love those that wants to be loved. there got to be give and take. no relationship is flawless. we must learn to accept those flaws and make the best out of it. but this can only be done with 2 persons. it takes two hands to clap you see. so what if one party wants to accept but the other party doesn't, it still comes back to nothing. even if u want to give so much, no one wants to take it, end up, u'll get hurt even more. is it worth it? love makes us behave like fools. all of us and i'm not an exception. but it's the degree of our stupidity. are we hopelessly stupid and refuse to walk towards the light when it's just right in front of us? or we can be a little silly, stumbling and falling but ultimately, walking out of this darkness. it's all in the mind, and it's all up to us.

so all my girlfriends out there, be it when it comes to relationships or other adversities, stay strong! when i'm down, i always remind myself tt i'm not alone. and because we are all friends, in fact very good friends and with me around, i ensure u that you are definitely not alone. dun sae you've given up the world because tt means u've given me up.. and i'll be =( but i'm always here, at the entrance of this dark passage, be it long and tiring or whatsoever, waiting to give u a hug and tell u, it's over and i'm still here, i've never given u up. i love u guys, i really do. u guys made my life seems so beautiful, i thank god every now and then about it, and i want u guys to see it the way i do. cry when u have to, i'll lend u a shoulder but remember behind every storm, there's always rainbow. i'm not trying to be a optimist here but i really care about all of u guys' happiness from the bottom of my heart.

=) ya, back to my studies. it's a long digression.

here are a few equations i formed today:

chocolates + potato chips = fat
proper meal + snacks = fat (squared)
mugging + snacks = exams

thus, exams = turning into a fat pig! (plus i had 2 proper meals = fat! (cubed)

i just couldn't stop eating today, which is very bad. anyway, i have alot of problems interpreting answers for the spss question of stats. any help?? eve, i would love to help you, but u not using casio calculator.

today marks the beginning of this beautiful weekend i'm going to have ahead. no late outings though because have to mug but nonetheless, leona is a happy girl. everyone seems to be having no motivation to study. it's not tt i have tons of it but what i really lack of energy. still feeling a little sick, with the flu and sore throat. have to be on medication. and like study must have a box of tissue beside me. hee.

i know this might be no big deal to many households out there but it really makes me happy. i have food at home. food like tons of snacks and my mum actually cook lunch and dinner for me before she left for work. with food at home, i have no worries that i would go hungry. it feels really good to serach for food knowing there's going to be alot rather than searching for food in an empty kitchen. =)

i'm going to recover asap. have to. don't want to bring flu bugs over to perth and same to u too, cousin. recover soon! =) i'm in love with solitaire, can't seem to stop playing. and ya, amelia, guess we fantasied too much last night. i mean if we are practical enough, so what if anything happened, it's not in our boundary to do anything. there's no way our paths and her path would cross. no way... ahahha, time to wake up and go study!! ahahha

so everyone, jia you and study hard! =) i shall continue with my countdown:

21 more days to perth!
47 more days to xm going korea