after going through everything this whole week, the ups and downs, i realised i don't want to lose you at all. there's so many things in my bedroom that reminds me of you.. the frame, the pictures, the rose, the card and most importantly, the bears. these are not something that can be easily removed or forgotten and same goes for all the memories we share.

these are visual memories, and there's also those other memories in the head type. every single thing u did for me.. every single thing you didn't do. but i'm not perfect as well. i'm sure inside u must be thinking there are things that i did or did not do. sensitive over areas tt didn't require and insensitive to how u might have felt.

but putting these all aside, let's put ourselves to the test, keeping in mind wad's to be done better and wad's not to be done. maybe it's all on my part... but i wan to give it a shot. i wan to give it my best shot.

nobody say we cannot pull ourselves up after we fall. no one say we have to continuosly wear guards to protect ourselves in case we fall. and instead of removing the guard after some time, we wear more and more. nobody say tt falling is definitely avoidable but learning how to stand up and be strong is one big lesson in life. nobody sae, shadow has to follow u for life... there's always the light out there.

gf told me that one live happier and longer with a positive mindset. longer i dun care.. but i wan to be happier. i wan to find the leona i used to knoe and not see someone i dun like and dun even recognise in the mirror every morning, getting uglier and uglier....

this is my life. a pledge. hahaha....