zombified, once again.

from 12 midnight to 9 in the morning. and after that, only 3 hours of sleep. i'm not deprived of bed or tired or wadsoever, i'm just feeling pretty stony. my brain has switched off. i don't feel like doing anything at all. and this worries me a little. my e-learning work is still stagnant there. i haven't touched it since like... when??

had organ lesson in the afternoon.. den headed down to golden mile tower for steamboat. it was a nice, short and cheap dinner. =)

my tummy aches... it's a on and off feeling. i wonder if it's the spicy noodles i had last night after extreme hunger or is it the cockles i had just now. whichever it is, it's not helping my mood =. i don't feel like doing work even more.

came across mona lisa smile this afternoon... a pang of emotion welled up into me. i'm getting used to it. this kind of things do happen recently, especially when the dreaded day draws near. i'm really afriad. feelings and emotions, much less actions are so hard to control at time. i realised i've been trying to keep myself occupied all the times these day, not a moment that i can spend too long thinking. it's working well... or so i see. in fact, last night session was conducted with a minor and very very small intention. however, that was uncalled for anyway. still...

it's amazing how flowers can brighten up a woman's day? i dun think it's somehing u guys can understand. =)