everyone gives in to temptation at times. I am no exception. and i paid a great price for it. there are marks to prove it but whatever that's outside would heal. i am not sure about the inside and believe me, i don't care anymore. if this is what everyone wants to see on the outsider, then so be it. i can give it to them. it is easier to be a crowd pleaser, at least you know what to do. nothing can be tougher than dealing with yourself. no wonder there's da old saying. your greatest enemy is nobody but yourself... seriously... nothing can hurt me more than myself... and maybe it's down to one sentence. i don't care anymore. it doesn't matter whatever happens... this is fated. this is my goddamn pathetic life.