m having a very bad time. m growing fatter and fatter each day and my skin is getting dryer and dryer. looking more and more haggard like a freaking drug addict. m not appealing.. lost mi appeal and charm... ahaha, not sae i have alot to begin with. now, even worse, hu the hell would look at mi! gosh!!! dun feel good... =( went to school todae for stats and marketing. last stats tutorial, we had an open book online ca... scored a 100 for it.. good, at least that's a confirmed 5 marks for me. after that tragedy of failing mi first ca. not good in sch. wad's wrong with people. if u are not happy with thigs, jusr spill it out, why cause people to think and ponder, wonder what in da hell did they do wrong. moods were dampened. people can't stop thinking, they just think and not talk at all... it makes things awkward. maybe i m not in da situation.. tt's why i can sae things soo easily now, but what is actually wrong?i dunno and i dun have the time to go ponder these things now. tot todae is da last marketing lecture but no, she had to drop a big and fat bomb that got all of us soo pissed off with her... we have to wake up early thurs morn to go attend her lecture on wad? direct marketing... freak... had organ lesson todae, like after a long long time... went to eat dinner with dad.. and came back and do mi powerpoint, wanted to make it pretty, but i guess it's not pretty... i put in da effort... i dunno wad else can i do about it liao.... haik.. =( gotta go type out mi notes already. time for some mini revision.

the feeling is coming back and I don't like it one little bit. you won't like it too. what the hell is wrong with me!? i should have known, I should have known. things were just not tt beautiful and it never will be. I m back to square one.. leona, walk on.. please walk on and move on!!! and stop deceiving yourself... everything is soo fucked up. =(