what's happening to everyone around me? nothing feels the same anymore. maybe i shld just stop thinking... it's not doin me any good. y bother abt the future? i wasn't so bothered in da past and i was happy, so y not now? if loving u makes mi can't see what's ahead and wad's beside me, i m already long blind... if u wanna sae it, just do, y hide? i m facing alot of issues right at this point. not only do i hafta face u, i've got other people to face as wel, other annoying people... why can't people be honest... if they got sumthing to ask, just do it.. if they got sumthing to sae, just sae it.... i tink i noe wad to do already. since i m not getting it, i dun wanna try animore.. make miself so damn freaking miserable.. no point.... things wear out... get thinner... pretence and lies.... cheating and betrayal..... rough time.... i actualli miss last year... where mi onli obstacle was o levels. it may be tough but it was harmless. i have enemies everywhere, i dunno hu to trust. only child since young.. being with sumone helps alot.... playmate, frens.. without them, i wld be lonely, since when was it that loneliness is eating into me bit by bit.. bit by bit... till da dae i die.... i dun trust anymore.. i dunno how to... if i were to continue this step into mu career. tink i wld die. i m just not cut out for it. maybe i realli do belong sumwhere... but i wanna be strong... i wanna be strong... no more tears for mi.. cos a tough one never cries.. wad cld be worse than having no money and no trust.... nothing... nothing at all... freaking bad dae... freaking bad mood