i've thought it over. possession is not everything. to overcome loneliness and to maintain situation is difficult but there are people who can do it, i am sure. the difference between us is getting more and more clear and the time i'm getting inured is getting more and more, deeper and deeper each time. our objectives are different and it's clearly shown. i can't get u over my side and i m trying too hard to get over to ur side till i neglected things which are more important at this point of time. sumtimes i wonder, wad i want is really simple, can't u even do it for me... i guess tt's where the wound gets deeper from. different view, different mindsets, different goals and different lifes. it is difficult to cross a wide vally, the first step to take is alwasy very hesistating, whether to or not and this is where one gets hurt but once over the big valley, things wld be more in place, at ease. once this stage is over, i would be fine. i haven't grew from then till now. i thought i have and like usual, i m always wrong. when can i make a judgement on my own that's right... the judgement day is not here yet, might never come. sumtimes, i go to extreme just to avoid human. human are so scary. they warm your hearts as fast qas they cold it. they are two-faced and they tok behind u. they hide things from u and tell of u to others? maybe it's wrong of me to make that decision i did 2 years ago, wondering if i continue to be wad i was in da past, maybe life wld be better, at least i wun get hurt so easily if i dun open up as much. life is a miracle but to put human in life is a mistake. they spoil ur life as fast as they create happiness. i tot i was living in bliss, boy was i so wrong. why m i always wrong. god created mi to judge wrongly and make mistakes one after another? when would i learn. u are no different from the rest. at the end of the day, u are just like the rest. i like opening new books, but i can't finish the main content den i wld jump to ending cos ending is always good... or so i thought. i like new beginnings and maybe i should give miself one and tt's where i wld finally grow up. new beginnings= new me. no point being nice, no one appreciates cos human are just so ugly in nature... new beginnings= new life.