evelyn.. need help from u. never see u online leh.. ask u ar.. u noe the pantene some serum tt can help to straighten hair.. tt one better or the silky straight. silky straight is sunsilk i think. which of these 2 products better??

a cold day and a cold night. for a whiny girl wanting more attention...

the fun is over!

merry christmas! merry merry christmas. i've got to say.. this is one christmas i will never forget. it's been great. time spent with everyone seem sooo little. tooo little. but i really had a great week. thanks guys!

any other animes that i can catch after ouran high school... recommend!

Let the pictures speak for themselves... Happy 11th month, my boy

our annual christmas party never fail to bring a smile to my face and warm up my heart. the bond we still share is so heartwarming that even till now, i'm still buzzing with a blessed feeling. this is call xin fu. i feel sooo blessed. with good friends... with close bonds.. with everyone around me i'm a luckyyy luckkky girl.. and like what boon said, this is fu qi!

woke up to a cold morning and went central for yakun breakfast. even though it's cold, that boy's x'mas gift warmed me up. don't see i complain he dunno how to give me surprise... and that i noe wad is he gg to get me already or the fact that he never even wrap up the present blah blah blah... but upon seeing the bear, i still feel very happy. i'm in a goood moood?? but i seriously feel very blessed. after so many years rejected love, rejected x'mas (apart from our annual x'mas party), i truly feel loved and appreciated. this me to you bear has so much meaning i feel. maybe other couples have their own version of stories but to me.. me to u bear is the first gift i ever received from my boy. it's one that carrys a hot water bottle. he said he bought me that to keep me warm since i get cold so easily. angel.. still remember last year.. when we keep saying this kinda bear shouldn't buy for ourselves? cos then it would be me to myself bear. how one year pass soo fast yea? furthermore.. when i look at this bigger m2u bear... still wrapped with a muffler, keeping me warm and a huggable size.. i noticed this bear has really small eyes. lol... meaning. if anyone caught it. small eyes. i cannot emphasise enough. that day he just mentioned, of all types of teddy.. even forever frens bear, i had to like the most expensive type. oh well.... it's the bear tt i like.. not the price. all in all... thanks dear.

went to yan's hse for our annual x'mas party. it's the usuals.. pasta.. salad... this time no clam chowder though. the only diff we have each year is the wine we drink and our dessert. had fondue.. wooooo.. pretttyyy! maybe i'll consider getting one myself.. cos it looks pretty. good for parties. after the very sumptous meal.. gift exchange. somehow i feel that this year's gift exchange is so meaningful. it's like angel and mortal.. and i'm angel's angel!!! and xin's my angel. somehow, i feel that though everyone wants diff gifts but every gift need some preparation or effort into getting them. nothing is easy.. the buying.. choosing and wrapping. it's all the tots and i can really feel it. especially my darling xinxin... love u lots. the bowl, chopsticks and spoon is sooo coool and cute. love it! =) anyway, angel, i hope u like wad i got u. =)

at the end of the day when i took the bus back, i always read the x'mas cards they made or write. this is the part that really touches me. this year, i really feel guilty for not writing or making one. i will do it next yr. first new yr resolution. those words.. those blessings i get from u guys, it totally ended my day so well. i love all of u so so much!!!

MUACKS!!! welcome back amelia!!!

ok.. i m bored. this explains two entries in a day. but actually, i'm not bored today. today is just a nice slacky and sleepy day. when i stepped out of the house today, i had the sunshine over rain feel. finally, i get to see some sunlight. i mean it's a drastic comparison from yesterday, where i almost thought i would have to swim or get blown away. but anyway, finally hit the gym today. i feel so guilty for procrastinating it for 2 days... wonder when will i go again next... baby said this week is hols week.. eat as much as i can, next week den start but no. i paid good bucks.

caught curse of the golden flower today. jay chou looked so out of place in the movie.. overall.. serious movie... artistic??? need a little depth thinking... so not a holiday flick. but nvm, i enjoyed the company.

can't wait for the weekends to come!

sometimes, i just want people to ask me for my opinions. even if it means that they've already made up their mind about it. i feel that this shows that they care about what i think and even if my opinion differ from theirs, i don't expect them to follow my opinions... i just want to feel my opinions matter to them.

it's all about how i feel again.

bon voyage dear amelia.... have a safe trip. will be looking out for news... just in case.

parta at little india.... steamboat at night and a nice game of chocopoly.... if only i have hot cocoa to go with... life will be perfecctt...

a beautiful monday, clouded with a rainy scene. heavy rain a moment and then gone. cold weather and i'm only drapped in teeshirt and shorts. good weather i would say, but i dun like the heavy rain part. got caught in the rain a little since this morning and due to extreme tiredness, i just went ahead to sleep.

caught deja vu last night. the show's pretty decent. but being in the holiday mood and season, dun really wan a show that requires much thinking. and furthermore, not at night. we wanted a late night movie.. but the latest we can get is 930 at night... and only lasted 2 hours. so after the movie, we went to macs and sat through out and talk cock. nice feeling, decent company. reached home around 6 plus in the morning. result is no gym cos simply cannot go with such a worn out body and not enough sleep.

and why not enough sleeep? unlike my boy who has the whole day to sleep. met my frens this afternoon and headed to ikea. first time to tampines ikea. nice place.. but everytime without fail whenever i go ikea, i've got an urge to want to design my own house. want to buy new house. ikea is sooo cooool lah. nv fail to amaze me with their stuff. i wannna buy stuff for my dream house. i wanna design my dream house!!! haha.. after which, we headed back to my house. totally tired.

but it's nice to hang out with my friends. =)

the day i'm waiting for has finally arrived!! it's the holidays... a seasonal holidays! must plan a nice holiday ahead... time for work and time for play. i think after the new year... it will be mostly work. so i only have 2 weeks for fun!!! =) x'mas mood is really getting to me mans. jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way.

lalalalalalalalalala~~~ more parties please. i wanna party.... how come no one organises parties for me!!! why must always i organise!!! party party party. i've got lots to sae... but lazy to type....

r/s between people.. be it friendship or just interpersonal r/s can be som complicated sometimes.

whatever i'm doing now, i'm not enjoying the process. too much hiccups on the way and failed product. =/ wad a sleepy, cold wednesday. seriously, somehow my house seemed really cold on weds. i always have to wear jacket cos the living room seemed so cold. this is like a stark contrast from what people always sae about my hse. but brrrrrrrr.......... am really cold.

quite excited about cruise but didn't get to go in the end. of all probs i anticipate... like no money.. mum dun allow, no vacancies.. but it has to be expiry date of passport. ok.. think if amelia reads it, she will most probably feel as dui as i am. so i shall cut the sad story short.

looking ahad, i m rather anticipating x'mas coming. when i was young, x'mas didn;t matter so much. i dun remember really partying or celebrating. it's just a 25 dec and a day where mum buys present for me. that's where all my monopoly sets come from by the way. but as i grow up, x'mas had a meaning to me. x'mas was a sad day to me. i didn't like x'mas. i hated it. i blamed this particular festive day that makes me weep. i hate the memories attached to them. and all the lightings doesn't cheer me up. couples on the street didn't make my mood better either. all in all, i hated x'mas. ok.. i was being subjective. up till this year, x'mas meant something to me. i no longer shunned x'mas. i no longer weep on x'mas. i no longer feel down on x'mas anymore. and in fact, i'm really looking forward to it. to the extend, i'm even alowing myself to go church this x'mas. suddenly had the mood to go. i have so many things to be thankful for. that i ve dedicated x'mas for church. =)

the coldness is really getting to me. really want to go grad ball.. but dun think can get enough people.. =/

never knew starch is so difficult to make.

star awards is definitely something not to be missed. so entertaining.. so funny at certain parts.. got pretty girls to ooogle at. michelle chia is drop dead gorgeous!!! woaaah.... !!! hahaha.... i've been smiling at the tv since 6??? and where is the person i watched star awards since... i dun remember since when.. but it's been so long. and on this day.. 2006, she decided to give it a miss. 'm gg to die of excitement level. okok.... only she ever understands the thrill and laughter we share for star awards. so to many many people out there, or ratjer majority.. i'm crazy. but u understand right.. YOU!!! YOU YOU YOU!

yes yes, i'm high. ask me why.. i dunno. maybe cos i slept at only 7am this morning? i would ve been higher if money was at stake during the mj game. won... had 2 sessions. one on sat afternoon, which i won. and another session after 12 midnight, i won too!! lalala.... my boy and i won. i'm so surprised he won. seriously... he was like giving out money in the beginning. haha. but we won. and den again... if we really used money.. might not win.

life can be so fulfilling and happy at times. i wish i will remain like tt for a long time.. or at least till the year ends. i want to be in good mood till 2006 ends. 2006 has been beautiful. i still ve frens which i kept for so long.. and not intending to let go anyway. i have my boy... =) i have everything and everyone that i ought to be thankful for. it's really important to know how to be blessed and thankful. with that in mind, life can be so beautiful!

xmas is coming.. and i'm already in the moood. i wanna PARTTYYY!!! PARTTYYYY!!!!! i wan to sing, dance and enjoy myself!!!! LALALA

things can be so difficult at times. sometimes, it's within my reach, and at other times, it seem so far away. i don't know what i want. in terms of darkness and light, i feel that i've seen more darkness than light. i'm just a confused soul who thinks she knows what she wants. den at the end fo the day, with everything that she got, she still end up unsatisfied. then i ask again. what exactly do i want.

to digress about how shitty i feel right now... i wannn xmas songs!!! i wan to feel the xmas atmosphere. but i dun have much xmas songs. wanna fill a bit of these songs into my mp3.. to get the mood. holidays are drawing near.. and let me emphasise again.. my holidays are on !8!!! which is one and a half week more... no dates till den. and please.. make my holidays meaningful. i dun wanna spend the last of 2006.. thinking how pathetic or how dark i've became. maybe i need a stranger.. someone whom i can trust enough to tok.. but not close enough to reveal my tots to others.

amelia.... ur cruise is tempting.. but ur kl.. nono.. 18 to 21 right??? i hv a party on 20 or 21 leh.

i wan a fruitful holidays... a meaningful one. wish i could go for some self-discovery camp all over again. i'm sure i will find back the thing or the light i want.

ok... i'm confirm unfriendly if both my best buds say so. grrr.... why!!! i always thought i'm friendly and warm.. no??? no!!??? no!!??? unfriendly not sumone one yan meh!!??? HUH!!!!

i'm still sick. went to the gym this morning. almost died. panting and panting.. my breath cannot catch up. even the instructor could tell i wasn't feeling well. but i'm glad at least i sweat it out.

anyway.. my ever dearest cousin is back from australia!!!! she said she was coming back on the 4th! but she came back on thurs night. lalalala.... and she bought me a pretty handbag. =) MUACKSSS!!!

things are going on fine. except my stupid flu. this auntie on the train today so bad. i coughed and she actually shield herself by using newspaper.. den when i coughed again, she took her newspaper and fan herself. haiya.. i noe la. i dun like people to cough on the train... now i noe how it feels. =/