slight more than a week since holidays started. my mood hasn't got better. worse? i hope not and i don't want to admit it either. not to myself or anyone. i just dun wanna think that a precious holiday will be ruined by bad feelings. i just want to enjoy myself during holidays. is that too much to even ask for?

today's sunday. rest and relax. i'm gg to plan out a nice week ahead. notice.. i have to keep saying i just want.. i'm gg to. why do i feel like i'm just trying to convice myself.

urrggg...... i hate this.