this week is supposedly to be my first week back in school but it doesn't even feel that way. mon's class was cancelled, tues ph, wed short day, thurs ph and then tmr is another short day as well. i rather not ve school and one more week of holidays mans. tt would definitely be much much better.

have been reading through my archives, 2 years back and now and realised how much i've grown. how much things have changed but mainly how much i've changed. remembered good times, sweet times and as well as those days of sorrow and "hardship". and because i've read through my archives, i realised one very important thing tt i've been neglecting. one very important fact.

even if it were to take a long time, there's no short cut out of this. if i were to take one year plus that time... doing it the way that it should be done, i see no reason why i'm avoiding this long road now. if t works, it should be done. at least it would definitely be better than a short cut that gets me more twisted as i go along. and not solving anything at the end of the day.

talked to chin last night for a long time. it's been such a long time since we last did it. thanks chin. talking to u always makes me feel better. sharing things with u makes it seem clearer and giving me more confidence on this road tt i would be heading. at least i noe where i'm gg and i've let u noe. this way, i'm not alone.

i'm currently living in a pigsty called my room. it's diff to walk ard in my room due to the mess. i keep saying i want to clean up but apparently.. i'm not doing it. i need a nightlamp too! maybe i should clear this mess during the weekends. i should i should.

i'm hooked onto bleach currently... damn nice!!! =)