it's the start of registration. i realised that i'm venturing on a safe mode and not a daring to try type of mode. i just want to get things done but not atempting to make things better. dun think this should be the attitude but it's too late to change some stuff that i thought can make things better anyway.

my 2 girlfriends came my place to chill today. funny i use the word chill when half the time, they're suffering in the heat of my house. didn't do anything much. just sat ard, chit chat a little and watched tv. if only they could stay over.

felt utterly and hopelessly useless. i dun like the person i am right now. i ate cup noodles for dinner. so much for being healthy... i'm slipping back into my old pathetic lifestyle.

i told myself that i should put a stop to this. so no more anticipation and no more hoping. i'm a practical person and i will stay this way.

quite a few events happened that i dunno how to add another atomic bomb on top of it all. i really want to tell you but i guess.. this is not the right time....