fatigue has taken over almost 3/4 of me. looks like it's gonna be an early night. indulging myself with food, letting all evil temptations overpowered me.

i wonder, how can someone still befriend a person who betrayed u not once, not twice, but countless. u mean there's still trust in between? either u're very stupid or u're very lonely. if not, why!? friends are not suppose to do that to you, not in a million years. otherwise, they're not even worthy to be ur friend.

the month of july draws near and i'm craving for shopping once again. or rather, feasting, enjoying and have a good time. but before all these, i've got to start on my projects. mind u, it's START.

fatigue has totally taken over me.

After reading through the discussion forum, I feel that people are just throwing in information leh. They didn't follow what is expected of them so even though we consolidate the info, i feel that the ones we can use are limited. don't ask me why am i blogging this... i paiseh to post there mah. cannot possibly ask me to tell them to post relevant things.

anyway to my 2 frens: just consolidate those tt u need. dun consolidate all. it's a waste of time and effort to do so. we will hit the required pages. can de. just do the part tt we assigned to each other last week, using relevant info there and plus those u can find ur own and i'm sure it wld be ok. ok, dal? don't consolidate all! everyone just do their part!

i find it extremely easier to blog it out and hopefully, u guys would read it. very lazy to tell u guys face to face. it's like i have an idea tonight, den i must wait till tmr. so i rather u read on ur own.

next thing is the temple. i found 3 temples to go though. which one u guys want. let's settle on one asap so that i can call them to arrange something.

I thought that summarising coporate banking would be easy but no, there's like so many terms that I don't understand. I try to minimise the things that i add to my summary, but I'm afraid it's not enough. dal dal, how!?

angel darling, here's a food for thought: when u finish ur exams on wed, and u want to celebrate but cannot find anyone. do give me a call. that's if u want. no obligations. i do understand if u wanna go home and sleep till u drop. =)

and dal dal, last message for you. I'm dead serious about the flea market thingy. and i'm gonna sell clothes. wad u think. think we wld be profitable? think we wld have customers? my mum raised both hands and agree tt i shld do it.

Bon Jovi-- I'll be there for you

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love in suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now i'm praying to god you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words i swear to you
When you breathe i want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and i'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
How they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But i can't buy back yesterday

And baby you know my hands are dirty
But i wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drink, i'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words i swear to you
When you breathe i want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and i'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

And i wan't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish i'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words i swear to you
When you breathe i want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and i'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

It's mega shopping day for me today. the day started as early as ten in the morning then mum and i headed to parkway to begin our day.

woah, parkway parade. it feels like i haven't stepped in there for years. recalled how often i went there in the past. many things have changed and 'cos today's sunday, it's very very packed, something that i absolutely hate alot.

i thought diamond was a woman's best friend, but boy, was i wrong. i forgot the most best friend of a woman-- shoes! i've got to blog this down. I am amazed by that mother of mine, at the same time irritated. both of us stepped into this shoe shop together. it took me only 15 minutes to pick out the shoes i want, so i left my mum to pick her shoes. i waited and waited in the shop, till i got bored. so i decided to wait outside the shop. and while i wait, there are many men waiting outside too. i waited and waited and she's still trying and choosing. so i decided to walk around parkway first and when i got back, she's still trying! i can't believe it. she practically tired all the shoes there twice and look at the mirror at least 3 times for each pair! gosh. this is not the worse. finally, she decided to pay. and when she walk out of the shop, she went right into the shop next to it, selling shoes too. she tried tried tried. i waited and waited. i decided to look at other things and the next thing i know, she's back into the first shoe shop, trying again!!! i absolutely cannot believe it. and then she wanted to change the shoes she initially bought. so everyone, do ur maths. how many pairs did she buy for herself? ONE ONLY!!! and she took more than 2 hours. I literally almost fell asleep.

took bus back to tampines 'cos i spotted a top from esprit and parkway didn't have. we continued our shopping at tampines. quite pleasant and i upgraded my diamond ring. from 0.05 carat. it's now 1 carat. =) okok, at least today was fruitful. anyway, angel, if u're reading this, just wanna tell u i love the earrings u bought for me and regarding the skirt, it's no big problem at all. we've grown up, have better taste. =) i'm so glad u like it and i'm so glad ur bdae celebration turned out so well. =)

hmmm, a note though, i did not do any research for ecm and doubt i wld have the energy to do it tonight. paiseh...

Initial D!!! 

Movie: Initial D
Rating: 4.5 stars out of 5

This is an amazing movie by Andrew Lau and Alan Mak, the miracle duo behind the hugely successful Infernal Affairs trilogy. The story derives from the comic initial d back in 1995, where it was a hit in town. Starring Jay Chou, Edison Chen, Antony Wong. What can I say? It totally blew me off.

Story starts from 18 years old, Takumi (Jay Chou) who has been delivering tofu for his father for 5 years every morning in his father's Toyota AE86 up the hill. Even without himself realising it, he has perfected the art of drifting. He never intends to race but only did so once when his father nudged him to. However, one particular incident drew the competitve genes out of him and it's one damn amazingly exciting race.

The racing scenes were did so well, it totally captured every audience's attention. Every turn made by the cars in the scene, the crowd would drew in a sharp breath. One could literally feel everyone stop their breathing when the cars were racing on the twists and turns of the hill. The emotional part of the show was kept neat and short.

Ok, maybe I'm baised 'cos i'm a Jay Chou fan but he simply took my breath away. The bored look when he was driving was totally captivating. Though it was commented that his acting skills were only average, every little action such as raising of his eyebrows were deemed so cute to me. Even nearing the end of the show where he cried, it totally tugged at my chest.

A strong cast with a good plot. Definitely worth the rating. A must-watch show of the town.

recurring dreams haunt me for these past few nights. they woke me up at a certain time of the night every night, sometimes not only once. it's taking away my concentration and level of energy in the day.

i wonder what are they and what do they mean. what is it that's happening or disturbing me in the day that makes these recurring dreams not go away... i wonder...

hmm...

A Lot Like Love 

Amanda Peet and Ashton Kutcher-- good chemistry on screen 

Movie: A Lot Like Love
Rating: 3 stars out of 5

Another one of those happily ever after love comedy, and is one that's quite ordinary i would say. This movie traces back to 7 years ago when Oliver (Ashton Kutcher) and Emily (Amanda Peet) met on a place from LA to New York. With different ways of life and culture, they claimed that the both of them can't be more wrong for each other.

Through the years, life brings them back together time and again, both struggling through different partners, careers and break ups. However, time seemed to be making a fool of them and they still fail to notice that what they have between them is a lot like love.

It took them nearly 7 years to realise that they're actually very much in love with each other. What's attracting about this movie is definitely the cast. Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet makes a great pair on screen. They brought the characters to life and there's no denying how adorable Ashton Kutcher is. Good humour they inject too, i would say.

Not a must-catch show, but if you're a great fan of Ashton Kutcher, you can't miss this. And also if you're in for a sweet love comedy, this is one I would recommend too.

don't even squint to read.

what u said was right. everything of it.

so as long as it still haunts me, there's no way i can be happy. i'm just going round and round this vicious cycle, and not making progress. you're absolutely right about everything. i just refuse to admit it.

but i dun like to lose. i dun like to be hit right on so i've got my way to win this round. i hope my way works because everytime i start, i can't finish it.

i just hope "people" will make it easier for me. i don't deserve this, do i? or maybe i do. after all, i'm evil, and am getting my retribution. tt's my belief.

mum said everyone needs to have a rest day at least. tt's why she always gives my dad a day per week to rest and accompany her.

i agree that everyone needs at least a day per week to rest. but i already have the weekends, so why am i still eating into my weekdays. i'm not supposed to do so.

actions are driven by emotions. i don't like what i'm feeling now at all. it's pure selfishness. i know it but i can't help it.

Batman Begins! 

my favourite guy in the movie 

Movie: Batman begins
Rating: 3 stars out of 5

Another super hero type of movie. Only this time, Bruce Wayne (Christian Bale) doesn't have supernatural power like those of spiderman's or superman's. Upon witnessing both his parents' murder, he travels around the world and fight for justice, creating fear in those who prey on the weak and fearful. He returns to his home, Gotham and created a figure: Batman, a masked figure to fight against the evil that threatens to ruin the whole city. Together with his strength, intellect and high technology, a hero is created.

Action part and sound effects of the movie is pretty good, i would say. The beginning of this show is a little bored but if u stick till the end, you won't regret it.

Christopher Nolan's Batman Begins might not have a cast that would attract the crowd, but having the plot and the history of this action hero is good enough.

why do we fall?
'cos we got to learn how to pick ourselves up

classic line but it moved me greatly.

i'm intoxicated. didn't know lilies smell so good. indulging myself in the sweetness of friendship, coffee and freedom. the feeling of control and being in charge is running in my blood now. and it never tasted better.

before today, lost myself in a mist. didn't noe any purpose, didn't noe wad i represented. didn't noe anything at all. felt so lost. but now i noe. i noe wad makes me happy, i noe how to make myself contented and i intend to let myself savour this sweetness for as long as possible. to make my way out of this maze makes me learn yet another thing about myself. it's amazing. yes, i'm on cloud nine.

to those who love me for who i am, to see beyond all my weakness, not judging me and yet still love me. to see the leona that even i thought was lost, i really appreciate it. u guys deserve nothing less than my love and laughter... and i truly thank you guys for sticking around. =)

lillies reall smell so great. smells like happiness.

i'm saturated. 4 hours of concentration. 4 hours of organ theory straight. fiery sparks were flying across at the end of this 4 hours. nonetheless, i'm not as prepared as i want to be.

have not been sleeping early these days and it shows. =/

my enthusiasm died as surprisingly fast as it began. i was just sitting there and suddenly, i'm wondering why am i even here in the first place. something that i used to ridicule at 5 years ago in secondary school, yet i'm in it today. gosh.

how could i forget that i'm impatient as it is. it's not the game that i despise or the people. it's the fact that there's no way it can keep me sitted thrice, twice or even once a week. it's just not me to do such thing. dun get me wrong. i like the game but defintiely not as a hobby. i'm not a quiet person who thinks of how to plan, attack or defend.

ya, those who have forseen it coming, go ahead and congratulate urself. u guys know me even better than i do myself. anyway, it's an experience, am glad i learn something at least.

to digress, once again, reality hit me hard. my life is not as glam as it may seem after all. as much as i wanna think of myself that way, reality sinks deep in. i guess, the goal in my life has been planned ever since the day i learnt of the harsh reality that we call-- life.

when things go wrong, everyone would want a fresh new sheet of paper to begin with. having a brand new beginning.

every problem has its root. deal with it.

a resolution is resolved to nothing if whatever tt's said ends up unaccomplished. it's simply empty talk.

i wun avoid it anymore.

made a fundamental mistake today. wanted to buy garlic but i can't tell the diff between garlic and onion. so in the end, i bought onion instead. i only found out it was onion when i start cutting it, and my eyes teared very badly. u're not supposed to tear when u cut garlic. so i figured it was onion.

no wonder my hand doesn't stink tt much now. hee

i dare to proclaim, i'm not someone who ticks off easily.

but what you did really pissed the living hell out of me especially when i saw it glistening in her eyes.

fuck~

my feelings for the past few days went into a emotional turmoil of a roller coaster. i've experienced extreme loneliness waiting for loved ones to return. I've discovered feelings that i never thought i had.

when i dun ask, it doesn't mean i dun care. i'm simply too proud to admit it.

behaved like a little housewife today, rushing home after buying grocery to cook for the one man i love in my life right now. thought i was late, but he was even later. till now, he's not yet home to eat the dinner i cooked for him. tried this the last time but it failed. but i'm not someone who dun learn from mistakes, so this time round, it's good! another feeling i've never experienced before today. cooking and waiting for someone returning home to eat. it feels good.

i only want to learn of good feelings. maybe the word family still means alot to me. how much... i think i roughly know already.

nothing very great that i wanna point out about school. if i have to admit, it hasn't been good at all. oh well, i'm just too sick of it to bother anymore.

when u step on a lion's tail, be prepared. u may need to duck for safety.
when u hurt a lion's pride or ego, revenge comes in all types of form.
remember that a lion never forgets a grudge... mind my words.

three freaking bastards irritated me today. if u guys out there think women are weak, you need more education because obviously, you don't know what are u setting ur feet on.

dun wish to say anymore and spoil the nice feeling tt i'm currently experiencing. hope he likes wad i cooked. =)

just came home from the airport. went there to send my dear angel off. wanted her to help me buy perfume form duty free.. but forgot to pass her money.. girl, jia you wor. u'll be missed! woke up to an empty house this morning.. can't seem to put into words feelings that i felt.

after the trip to ariport and seeing what i saw, can't help feeling a little sad. for others and for myself as well. ya, where was the " no self pity" rule.. and it didn't help that i came home to an empty house as well. well, nothing unusual happened but seeing the attitude of some people really makes me feel sad. and when i reflect upon myself, i didn't feel any better.

i don't know why i did what i did. it was the most stupid thing anyone could have done and i've made this mistake not once, not twice, it became countless yet i fell for it this time again. what was i expecting or waiting... all assumptions are yet again wrong and somethings just refused to stay where they were supposed to be. they chose to worsen my day when it is already very bad, casuing this great sense of emptiness i felt.

just like the house, a metaphor. tt's exactly how i feel right now.

You need security.
There has been many changes in your life and
you have had to live in an unstable
environment. This has lead you to be suspicious
and always on guard. Your mind has a hard time
to unwind and this could lead to you having
sleeping problems, since you think too much.
People are a category you don't give much trust
at, and find yourself to be a better secret
keeper than they could ever be. Because in your
changing world you have learnt that you only
have yourself in all times.

What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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You are a Princess, accustomed to only the
best. Elegant and poised, you believe in High
Standards, and like your standards to be met.
You are gracious and kind, to those you find
deserving; but woe betide anyone who does not
meet your standards, you would dismiss them
with a casual wave of your hand. Not only do
you set high standards for others, you set them
for yourself also, and sometimes find yourself
struggling to meet them. Most of your life you
have gained what you wanted, probably an only
or youngest child, you put you first. However,
saying that, you are not entirely
self-centred,it's simply you've learnt to put
yourself first. When moved, you are capable of
empathy and kindness, and would willingly do
your best to help others; but your life so far
has taught you, that you must come first. You
are also well learned.

At your best, you are
kind, gracious, noble and focused; at your
worst you are selfish, dismissive and stubborn.
If you don't agree with something, you would
nod your head graciously, and refuse to be
swayed.

You are special, and everyone should
know that.


Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!)
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Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.

What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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here's to dal and eve(if you girls get to read this):

movie on wed? mr and mrs smith. really want to watch that. den dinner. kaes?

my fondue 

our dinner- chicken sandwich and clam chowder 

leona's special salad 

had a nice, cosy, homey day with yan and chin today. we cooked, we ate, we talked and had lotsa fun at my house. shall let the pictures do the talking.

somehow feel that this blog doesn't suit me. it's nice. but doesn't suit my mood now leh. no offenses angel dear... =)

thanks so much dearie. love u lots. you saved my life. and by the way, must give u spanking. my blk is 365! how could u forget. ahaha, but anyway, thanks so so much. i'll give the blog u made 8/10. =)

just finished doing your blog darling.. hope you like it..
spend alot of time looking for the skin.. very scared u don't like lehh.. if don't like tell me kaes?? i change for you =)
hehe..dont like really must say kaes?? hehe.
lalala... think you sleeping now.. oinks.
sleep tite!!! and goodnite!!
angel was here~

ps: you never tell ppl what blk.. hehe.. blk 653!!

there's something wrong with my blog. this skin is for temporary. if u see tagboard out of place. wait a few minutes for it to load properly.

i did my first major grocery shopping for the family today and spent a total of $50.25. mummy haven't see the bill yet and i seriously wonder what she would say. she only gave me 100 bucks for the month and within second day into the month, i spent half of my family's grocery money. oh no, this goes to show ar, next time, my partner cannot give me very little for the family grocery, won't last. haha~

i didn't buy everything for myself only, k.. if tt's wad u guys out there are thinking. i got buy lotsa things for the FAMILY. it was a total of 5 big bags but i managed to carry all of them out of the shopping centre. am very proud of myself. =) *pats on the shoulder*

had mushroom soup and salad for dinner. i made my salad very pretty. wanted to take a picture of it one, cos dal wld definitely sae i shld take a picture of it if it's really so pretty, but my digi cam ran out of battery. wad a coincidence. so only i can admire my own salad. daddy saw it too though.

am a happy girl tonight. made my own dinner and did the grocery so all those bugging issues and problems, i hope to leave them to tmr. anyway, just a little note: am making fondue tmr. anyone interested? please drop by tampines st. 34. hahaha~