"to like someone is a thing. to be with someone is another thing. it's not the same"

"i think liking someone is something great. it is something magical"

"i just do it cos there's so much emotions in me that i got to release it"

Firstly, these would be something someone irresponsible, impractical and impossible to sae. because firstly, why wouldn't u want to be with someone u love? and secondly... this is reality. not some fairytale story. loving someone is magical... but we are in reality.. we tok about responsibilities and there's other people involved too. that's something i definitely learnt. to be with someone, to love someone... is not abt just two person. it involves so many other people as well. it involes responsibility and there's always a need to account to other people. how other people feel.. wad other wants.

of course.. the perfect r/s is not to care and go ahead.. but tt's not practical.. tt's almost impossible. and lastly... to do something just cos u feel like doing.. tt's.... =/ lots emotions in me.... fidning a way to let out only.

thursday are always a drag to me since week one. it's week 5 of school and thursdays are still a drag to me. but guess wad people out there... when i opened my blog and saw 10 tags.. i definteily felt so much better. really!!! so i m given recognition to amelia... angel and joel. shall i knight u guys? ahahah... here's one to LADY AMELIA... one to LADY ANGEL and last one to SIR JOEL. what will i do without u regular taggers.. my thursdays will kll me.

ahahah.. enough of recognition. here's something to u amelia.. i should be toking to u more online.. cos we haven't met up since forever... however.. quite busy with stuff. i dun tok much to people on msn.. unless it's WEE WEE hours.... really wee into the night.. den i can spare some time.. really. so i m sorry for all the times tt u had to initiate the conversations. please do keep it htere and strong.. i need it... and i will reciprocate. tell u wad.. when next month come.. i will cook a meal of home cooked food for u, k. dun think u tried my chinese food before right? next month.. will book u. =)

next week's going to be the last week of school before elearning and before the CA week. ahahha.. a tiny break and after tt.. it's projects and studying all the way. i can't wait to graduate but yet.. am scared of wad i m gg to venture out to do. haik.. life has always been a breeze.. tt i ffeel tt i m finally stepping out on my own. =/ BRACE UP, leona!!! no negative feelings

"et tu brute, then fall caesar!"

this is the only thing i remembered since sec 4. ahaha.. to think we almost memorise the whole book, all the quotes and all.. and end up, i only remember this one sentence.

i nv think caesar is a bad guy. slightly more tyranny... but i nv felt tt he was bad. tt's why when his last parting words were those above. i really felt sad for him. to think he trusted his fren.

the point of saying all these is cos.. i think the whole story is made nice by mrs low. she explored and made us understand each character... =)

it's amazing how third party's words are sometimes so much more accurate than my own feelings. i always thought my feelings portrayed what i need and exactly how i feel. but no... i can be so wrong.

it's like when i start grumbling at this, moaning at that, complaining about this and that. but little do i noe what i ve is already the best for me. cos maybe this thing has always been ard, beside me but i dunno how to appreciate it. always complaining it's not good enough. always grumbling and wanting better excitement out there. but i can really be so wrong.

what i need is defintiely not wad i want. i must learn how to stick to wad i need. and solely wad i need. cos it will only be the best.

i'm so glad i have u ard. i really do. =) thanx for making me feel better today. =)

one of those nights, i refuse to sleep even when my eyes threaten to close. listening to songs and looking at people's blogs and pictures...

why did i even allow myself to always indulge in these emotions. how easy it is to leave footprints in people's life. and how diff it is to remove these footprints....

When we want to remember something or some special event, we take pictures. we want to be able to keep these as memories or look back at them and used them to evoke back happy memories. this is wad people do to keep memories. but there are many other type of memories tt dun ve pictures yet i wun want to lose those memories. i wonder if one day i were to lost these memories, apart from those tt i can still use pictures to remember, wad would i do. how would i grow.

i want to remember how gm used to tie my hair every morning when i was still in pre school. i remember in order to make it very neat, she will pull my hair very hard. haha.. i'm not being a sadist here but i want to remember how pampered and loved i feel from her.

i want to remember how much punishment i got from my teachers since young cos i tok too much. how embarrassing, how humilating some punishments may be. i still remember there was this once, she dun wanna give me my tea. and it was my fav porridge on a tues. we had diff tea items for diff days. i'm a talker since way young.. chatter and chatter. in primary 2.. teachers wrote i sae i m vocal but should concentrate on my studies. aa sae... vocal is being nice. tt's called talkative.

i want to remember how happy i was when chen lao shi gave me special treatment in pri school i want to remember how happy i was to ve joanne as my best fren. i wanna remember how childish i was in pri school to write nasty remarks about amelia and sarah cos i tot they were toking bad about me. and the whole big hoo haa tt followed. i wan to remember how i was being ostracised (issit spelled this way?) during recess and how i cried so bad to mummy and wad mummy did for me. i want to remember hanging out with the so called cool group thereafter. i wanan remember how they always joke abt me and cheekuey man. i wanna remember how good pri school foood taste. curry mee. hor fun.. chilli meatball.. fishball..

when i had to leave primary school, i went ijtp all by myself or so i tot. i want to remember how i made frens with angel. cos we were signing up for choir auditions. how we made fun of elaine fresh cooker. i want to remember how mrs low said maybe i should join chess club. and i asked for a second chance then got into choir. i want to remember esp sec 2. how suspend was formed. how we practised at yan's hse. how we sang and won the ferro roche( speeld this way?) and then was asked to sing during mooncake festival. tt was one of the mooncake festival i wun forget as well. and the song we composed. i wanan rememebr how lays was formed.. how i love the maths teacher. which i cannot remember her name but i noe she v pretty and i loved her. and wanna do well for her.

this is only a small part of my life.. there are so many other things i wanna keep and etached into my head. and i dun wanna lose them. cos if without them, i wun be able to grow and mature to who i m today.

=) still craving so much for tt salmon!!

firstly, must give credits to joel. thanks alot for helping me with the archives and the width of this thing. though cover the beautiful face behind.. but i would still prefer a wider width. thanks thanks thanks and a million times.

forgot to discuss with mummy the issue again. i'm hopinh she will allow me to take it but i m not pinning too much. financial wise ar... haik.

nana is nice.. i liek the last part. i cannot sae wad issit here.. cos angel haven;t read, but it's nice.. i m glad so and so... blah blah blah... i wanna be like her too.

watched rob-b-hood. cuttess.. the little baby especially. facing a little prob now.. anyone noes how to add archives to the blog. it seemed as if ever since my lappie went for a brainwash, i got affected as well. i cannot seem to remember lotsa stuff.. why ar. so brothers and sisters out there.. i need help!!!! i dunno wad's the thing to add into template for archives!!!

i really enjoyed this year's mooncake festival. hope u guys out there too. =)

it was empress dowager's birthday yesterday. went to eat at riverwalk hotel. or some river something hotel. the food i should say not good. service also. and it's expensive! but i enjoy this kind of big family gatherings. can laugh and chat. the kids.. or rather the little army of kids playing and playing. had fun but defintiely not a satisfying meal.

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i watched the proposal show tonight and up till now, i'm still in the sweet mode stage. wooo.. the girl is so daring. i envy her daring-ness. and her courage to love. i remember telling my friends last time i always wanted a hong hong lie lie thunder and lightning type of r/s. i guess did it, over it already. love to the max... did many crazy things. no regrets at least. this is how i want my r/s to be. with no regrets. tt's the first impt criteria. but to ve the courage to propose in public.. as a female.. woah. tt's really woah. that girl is so cute. she sae it has always been her dream to propose to him. tt's soo sweeetttt.. sooo sweeetttt. i feel so sweetened. i feel so sweeet... hong hong lie lie. ya. i nv wanted to be plain and nv wanted to be unspecial. this is how i am. and this is how i want to be till the day i ve 2 legs in the coffin. this reminds me a little of nana. her courage in things she do and in love. i need to be courageous. to fight for things i want and want to love. woaaaah... i feeel sooo swweeettttt.... i ve been smiling since 830 to now mans.

anyway, point being. it's time to let free. and let go. let wild and let loose. i wanna do things i like and things tt will make me happy. i wan to do things wadever they may be. so i will not live in regrets. live is not short but not long either. live to the fullest!!!! so do i sound like some advertisement? ahahha... but even so, i will not join talentime. i will not be laughing stock for many people out there! i noe u guys cannot wait to laugh rightttt.

the usual thing tt happen in my daily routine. knocking or bumping myself against non-living things... just hurt my third finger. ouuuccch. i m amazed how i do it. seriously i am. i cannot wait for friday!!! friday firday friday!!!!

firstly... sincerely speaking from the bottom of my heart.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA. so sorry tt i did not remember at 12 midnight. but still.. i wished u!!! i will make it up to u sometime sooon. dun be angry with me, k.. and dun disown me, k??? =)

today... HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY!!! want to buy tt boy something but dunno wad. how should i spend tmr.. putting bd one side of course. lol.. i'm procrastinating. i noe it and yet i still do it. something i dislike caused me not to want to do it or like it. but it's all mental attitude and it can be changed. i know what's my biggest problem to work on for pschology class already. i wanna change n alter my mental attitude. i like bd.. i wan to work!!!! i wnt to work for it. till the end of this last sem in school.

seriously, the most bugging problems i ve in mind is after graduation. study first? work first. if study... do i even qualify for a uni. even if i so lucky, do qualify.. study wad. den next, working, work as wad. quite interested in being a secretary. it's like pop.. suddenly this thing just come into my head. and i'm quite hot about it. maybe it will die off.. i dunno. my future.. is a blank. black blank.

i like to see my week planned out nicely. this way, i can anticipate anything. good changes in between is ok.. but not bad ones. they spoil my week like anything. i also say i want to grow up quic. to get out of the hse, to earn my income. to start out on my own. to only ve myself to listen to and not the naggings of my mum. maybe it's a sign like how i always believe? for me to be able to catch tt show on tv and tell myself never to rush into any stage of my life. the bad thing about life is it can never be repeated but the good thing is tt it doesn;t ve to be repeated if we lead it well. i thank god that whenever i m lost or very stubborn into a thought tt i neglect everyone ard me, he always show me some signs. oh well.. i will want to think it's his works. it's signs. he noes i believe in signs. =)

so.. happy meal tmr? happy is wad matters. right?