Favourites
favourite colour: White
favourite food: Fish beehoon
favourite song: All Fish Leong's songs
favourite movie: Click
favourite sport: Jogging
favourite day of the week: Friday
favourite season: Autumn
favourite ice-cream: Ben & Jerry's marcha mellow

Currents
current mood: Light-hearted, happy
current taste: Prawn noodles
current clothes: Looney tune shirt and shorts
current deskstop: Some xp default wallpaper
current toenail: No colour
current time: 14.12
current surroundings: TV and clicking of the mouse
current annoyances: BD and future.. work or uni
current thoughts: have to go fight evil monk.. sians

First
first best friends: Joanne Chua
first crush: The pair of twins who live above gm
first movie: Jurassic Park
first lie: Something about coming home late in pri sch
first music: cannot remember

Lasts:
last cigarette: none
last drink(alcohol): beer
last car ride: when edwin drove me and eve to acs
last crush: should be nic
last movie: John Tucker must Die
last phone call: From my boy
last CD played: Jay's latest


Have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: no
have you ever broken the law: littering and stealing when young
have you ever been arrested: by the provision shop lady
have you ever skinny-dipped: no
have you ever been on tv: yes.. that dreadful chi variety tt i was commented fat
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: this ans has to be no

5 things you are wearing: White T shirt, Blue short, pink undies, black scrunchie and brown hair pin
4 things you done today: Brush teeth, eat, play jx2 and watch tv.
3 things you can hear right now: Clicking of mouse, tv and the fan
1 thing that you do when you're bored: play jx2

i wonder where's 2?

the first tuesday after school started. it started with knowing about temperaments and ended with psychology. so much of understanding human behaviours and also understanding how my mind works. in the near future, i will be able to understand myself better, know how my temperaments work. with other people around. how i can get myself better, how i can blend in with people. how i can make relationships work. i hope to gain alot out of this. and certainly the part about knowing myself.

gonna get busy. i can see it. everywhere is bumpy and hurting. i got ulcer.. i got papercut. hurting here and there... knocking everywhere i go. gosh.. wad a klutz i am. i dun like this... grrrrrrrrrr

why issit that they can be happily ever after. it irks me like crazy. this is so unfair. let me die in my own self pity...

dead

feel free to use my tagboard as a chatroom. two things. first can liven up my tagboard.. second i also can read wad are u two talking about mah. ruina sounds familiar.. ve i seen her name sumwhere. in angel's blog? or somewhere else.

school's starting tmr. no more lingzhier for me. maybe a while at night. but i dun think i would ve the time. sad to sae.. never do much on my fyp also. people who read this.. shhhh and dun tell anyone, k. =/ a good thing is i finally managed to slot in gym timings. things are starting to get on track and the train's going off already. i guess with school starting, maybe i can blog more. cos no more lingzhier wad. i will miss her.... ahahaha.... there's still sat night though..

this time round with school starting, i dun ve the urge to buy new bag or any new stuff for school. feeling so broke that got no mood to go shopping or whatsoever. siansss.. when is october coming. tmr's amelia t's bdae!!!! angel.. if u read this.. remember to wish her, k!

it's been quite some time since i last slept early. think tonight will be the night. i will leave the girl there to mine the whole entire night and see wad she gets in the morning. anyway.. kong.. u are getting more and more addictive i reckon. seriously.. somebody stop her. at least i ve self disipline.. right right!!! so amelia.. ve u figured out who's kong. angel.. u started playing already?? i can be ur shifu. apart from the virtual world one.

sometimes out of the blue.. i ve some questions tt always dun ve an answer. like in our neighbourhood, when there's a whole nest of red ants being disturbed and there's a large group of them on the street.. who is the one tt clears them away? cleaner?? road sweeper? if it is.. how do they do it? is really a large nest of red ants.


so about my photo taking.. we can always start soon.. like our usual fridays. but i m feeling fat and ugly.. so.. hmmmm.... nonetheless.. hols coming to an endd.... grrr. =/

wad's the best way not to spend any money? the right answer is to stay home and play game so tt's wad i ve been doing. unhealthy sitting down the whole day. till my legs and back ache.. but wad to do, i'm cashless mans. i can only resort to doing this. entertaining with money saved. really detest this kind of feeling. yuck...

things are more or less in place now. it just needs some direction and planning and also some organisation

and dal.. i really did spend my life savings.. 99.99999%

hey hey hey... here's my entry once again. am sorry to keep u all waiting and waiting.. really sorry. ok.. shall update on wad i have been doing these days. or rather most of this holiday tt's gg to end in a week's time.

well.. i admit i ve been neglecting this blog. all i do when i oome online is to play games. been pretty hooked to this new game.. yea.. angel is right. my pretty lingzhier. ve been playing all night.. cos in the day is my boy's time. laptop has been down since the first week of the holidays.. but now, it's finally repaired. have been using his laptop this whole holidays tt it felt wierd using back my own laptop. the difference in screen. the size and all.. my laptop is soo soo puny as compared to his. i feel so funny.. staring at a much smaller screen. and i mean.. it really seems like a much much smaller screen. but all's well and fine. my laptop is repaired. just ttt all pictures gone.. hey girls.. let's go take more pics. i need more memories!!! i need i need... and also lost some collage tt i did.. cos no more pictures. and also my music. and also some wallpaper. alot alot alot!!! grr... but i'm happy my lappie's fine and working. tt's impt.

so.. i've signed up for a gym as well. with my life savings. no exaggeration with that. seriously, it's life savings. once again.. pls donate to the leona funds. it's depletinggggg..... =/

ate grouper today. we cooked. since soo logn since we ate homecooked. sick of promfet so we decided to try grouper. big.. thick and ex. ahahha.. we are supposed to be saving money but wad the... it's sunday. sunday shall now be named as splurging and enjoying day. the rest all eat bread!!!

happy with my little update?? last week of holidays.. date me out mans.. or no more. =)

back to gmae

thanks girls for ur concern. this past week of so called holidays have really been tough on me, for some strange reason. cannot really enjoy. date me out please... bring some enjoyment to my life before the school starts. think i might suffer from serious depression without something happy now.

daddy like little boy like tt.. went supermarket and spent 80 bucks. i didn't actually see it but mum claims tt he keeps throwing things into the basket. keep taking.. thought tt was pretty cute. but mummy very angry.. cos end up. she is the one who paid the 80 bucks. den ar, daddy got fine 30 bucks. mummy got even angrier cos she sae he ratehr pay gov than split the ntuc bill with her.

it's about money again right....

as the only child, i'm given the attention that i didn't know i desire. as i grew up, the attention i was always given seems to come so naturally that i didn't know i actually desire them. now that it is taken away from me, i realised how much i so desire. when i was young, i wilfully think that how can anything else be more important than me. than wad i want. than who i want. and yes.. of course, so naturally, what i want and who i want comes to me.

i never know that how selfish this kind of thought is until i fell in love. cos something tt i thought always come so naturally, which is something i so desire, is so hard to get. why am i brought up this way. in this environment with people sheltering me all the way that i dun even know that falling is pain and unbearable. and how to pick myself up. but of course, i learnt. i finally did. so naturally once again. i thought i've become stronger and much better than before. at least i noe falling hurts but i also noe how to pick myself up. i thought nothing can beat me again. i mean even if it does, i will noe how to handle it.

but... i guess upbringing goes right into the roots way deeper than anyone can think of. cos i'm being so protected once that i forgot there's many other ways of hurting besides falling. there's silence, there's abandoned, forgotten, loneliness. so many other feelings, so many ways of getting to me. i'm supposed to learn one by one.. how to get up from one by one. one single one by one. every single one.

whose fault is it here. i want to noe. but after getting answer.. where do i proceed from then... so lost. so sucky.

slight more than a week since holidays started. my mood hasn't got better. worse? i hope not and i don't want to admit it either. not to myself or anyone. i just dun wanna think that a precious holiday will be ruined by bad feelings. i just want to enjoy myself during holidays. is that too much to even ask for?

today's sunday. rest and relax. i'm gg to plan out a nice week ahead. notice.. i have to keep saying i just want.. i'm gg to. why do i feel like i'm just trying to convice myself.

urrggg...... i hate this.