oppressed, defendless.

i hate this. i hate u. i really do. i'm never good enough. dunno issit for u or for others to see. i'm never good enough for u to praise. i'm never good enough to u for others to see. i'm not good enough for toehrs to see. i dun even understand why should i have to put on an act. just so tt others would see how good am i. i did one thing.. u never notice.. and u tok about the rest. no matter wad i do... it goes un noticed and i hear the same old song again. so is now even if i d or not.. i still have to see ur un satisfied face. who's not getting a life.. who's not getting good relationship with others. why does it always have to be u right and i wrong. why issit tt u have to always look at me and show me tt un satisfied face. i never felt this for a long time already. but i'm tired. u dun even noe the whole picture. and yet u can come out with ur own version? wad the... u ve ur own version... so do i. u think i'm horrid.. so do i thin kabout u. why do u always have to do this to me. wad's wrong with u. no.. or should i sae.. wad's wrong with me.. i'm not good enough issit? u need someone better?? i'm so tired of u'.

í'm so tired of this house and this family... i'm tired.