pretty girl. pretty voice. pretty song

I read somewhere today:

Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like the company is cutting back the payroll and you don't know if you may be next, and dinner as if you had just lost your job.

Interesting.

And I am home alone... again! Mum went Chiangmai 2 days after dad went Bangkok. Dad would be back on tues or wed then there will be someone at home at least. wish i had a sister, it would be nice to have someone around without parents cos mummy almost drained me each and everytime we go into a long conversation.

It has been one roller coaster ride for me since Friday. Everything doesn't seem right since then. Nothing anyone says make sense, nothing i do is right, nothing i do makes me feel right again. it is call spiraling. i need to get out of this before it hurts someone. someone told me i am escaping. running away from doing the things i need to do instead of solving the problem.

time to find a new hobby... like gym!! i will definitely sign up for a gym soon. i need to face it head on.

Dear God, give me the strength i need.

suddenly, i crave solitude more than anything. i wanna be invisible.

how pretentious this world is. i totally subscribe to the theory that behind everyone's face they show to public, there is a hidden secret. not so much of a secret secret. but a hidden frustration, a hidden side that they don't want other to know. it could be due to things they are ashamed of and it could also be things that they don't wanna explain, don't wanna be judged or criticized.

all pented up. one day it will burst. there is simply that much we can handle.

i received my first sealed with a crest envelope today.



My friend's wedding! My first friend's wedding!! haha.. i would love to show everyone wad is inside but because she has not distribute her cards yet so i have to be discreet! anyway, i realised now my cards already all say 'leona and nicholas', next time will be it mr and mrs tan. no more leona?? haha



I realised laziness is really my biggest downfall! i decided to really seriously, properly do research and properly start packing my room and do planning.

this weekend has been hectic. we were going for gatherings, helping out and simply just out alot and slept very little. don't get me wrong, we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly, just that if every weekend is like that, we will be super pre-occupied with everyone's matters other than our own stuff. and after a long day still must come back and listen to my mother blab and blab and blab. haik....

Psalm 46:1-3

1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, 3 though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging

Psalm 46:10

10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth

This helps in situations like this. =) I can smile again despite the mess i am in

life had been pretty hectic for me lately. I'm usually tired and lazy at the end of the day. I have tons of work to do when i reach home, one thick book to read and videos to make. But i'm tired each time i come home that i simply don't feel like doing anything.

when is daylight coming to me? i am in 24/7 nightfall.

wedding planning is not as fun as i thought it will be. haha! so many choices. can i have like 10 weddings with 10 different places and themes. but i only want one husband. please let me fix the date first!!

i want a wedding like that in singapore! don't tell me i can only get it if i go overseas

and it's the new spring menu at Sushi tei! Finally!!



Something new that the boy tried:


and the real thing looks similar to the picture. i really that that baby sardine thing taste like our silver fish.


And we tried this! it's really huge. now i know they never cheat in dragon roll!


haha! all the sushi tei language coming out. haha.. seriously , i thought i was sick of sushi tei already. but apparently, i still love it. not to the extend one week eat 2,3 times. but i will definitely go back soon.

i'm getting really excited about how things are going to turn out. I need all the prayers!

i just came back from Batam from my team's monthly meeting. we have been wanting to go overseas for a meeting the longest time. like change the environment and at the same time a retreat and team bonding. as long as i remember, we have been talking about it for 2 years and never once did it. but now finally, we did it!! haha


Batam- the land of Ayam Penyet!


the view from our balcony


了了 and my pedicure. pretty!!


the clear blue sea!


the game that entertained us till 2am plus batam time, which is 3am in singapore time. Topple is the game


giant mug root beer! only @ a & w


=)

I am home alone for tonight and tues night. It is daddy's birthday tmr and so my mum decided to do a sweet short holiday to Genting with him from tonight and will be back on wed.

i love having the house to myself in the day, that is if i am even at home in the day, with my super hectic schedule lately. but i don't like having the house to myself at night. it's not that i m afriad or anything, cos i know i don't have to fear. i guess being an only child always craves to have people around. and being alone is way bottom of my list. thankfully, i am going for a company meeting trip to batam. we have always said we wanna have a quarterly retreat and we finally did it! so at least one night i don't have to be alone. my colleague jokingly asked, next time nic reservice how? i thinking, come back to 娘家? provided mummy allows. haha!

i have not pack, have not done my household chores. i should be packing and all. i think wake up earlier tmr to pack or something. i will catch up on some drama. since i have been so busy the past week

i am seriously considering about hiring a part time pa or secretary. when i am so busy running around with appointments and seminars, this and that, i still have to go handle paper work, minor details, i am so tired! so much trips up and down for small matters when i could have used them for more important stuff.

i m so tired!!!!!