i dun understand why she must always do this type of things to make me worry. WHY!? grrr....

i m in a foul mood. mala will definitely cheer me up. yes, thank you very much for reminding me my puny and tiny social circle. something tt makes me so sad....

GRRRRR>>>>>

my yummy dinner! kembangan mee sua plus oyster egg!! =)

the 3 hour long king kong movie is being aired on scv, hbo channel. seriously when i watch it again, i couldn;t een last 3 mins and i will change channel. i couldn't sit and watch tt 3 hours long movie ever again. it's seriously boring and draggy know. and everytime i think this way, i will laugh at myself back then. why was it at tt point of time in 2005, i could sit still and watch tt movie? and share popcorn and drinks with the one beside me?!

haha.... amusing. seriously. we agreed half the time we are just enjoying the proximity and pretending to enjoy the show. it cracks it up everytime i think about it.

i m so bloated now. and tt's the results of being greedy.

we've checked in two years in this relationship. some people might say two years is short, some people might say it's long. well, to me, it's been a pretty eventful and meaningful two years. it's not short, but it's not long as compare to the many years we want to continue spending time with each other. in these 2 years, we've taught each other many things. and we learnt how to treasure and cherish each other. haha... i'm all alone on this special day with a beautiful bouquet of flowers at my side. but i know in the many years to come, i won't be.

Happy anniversary, my lover boy!

one fine sunday night, chin and i prepared ingredients to make won tons.

the triangular ones are the normal ones. try to be funny by making the round shape ones.

chin fying the won tons

TA-DA!!! end products!

here are some pictures we took for our pre-celebrated second year anniversary at Big Fish.

My all-time favourite warm chocolate souffle. doesn't look nice on the pic but it's deliciously yummy!

and the dinner ended with a kiss!

Some ghostly pictures we took while waiting for the bus.

and ta da!! my new nike dunks. aren't they pretty!?????

i had a pretty weird yet funny dream 2 nights back. it's funny to think back about it but i was scared awake then. i dreamt i bought won ton mee for my mum to eat. i was holding it when suddenly this piglet came charging at me and used his mouth to tear the packet of wonton mee out from my hands. it was furiously using its mouth to open the plastic container of wonton mee when i was trying to run away. when i turn back to take a look, it was charging at me again! (maybe cos he cannot open up the packet of wonton mee??) and as i was standing with feet apart, it stuck its head in between my legs! yuck.. i felt the pig's head and i shocked myself awake! scary...

and before this pig dream, i vaguely remember i dreamt baby and i went to gold class cinema to watch movie but dunno why, it was a horror movie and i dunno why we only got one seat so end up i have to sit on his lap. weird... a friday night that i didn't sleep much and ended so tired, and on sat night, i concussed close to 10 hours till this morning.

i'm actually feeling pretty sucky a few hours before the boy booked in, but with the cooling weather, and the 20 mins or so walk home, i kind of reorganised my thoughts and felt slightly better. not good, but not so foul like hours ago. and no, this has nothing to do with him booking in or him at all. it's just i look at my week that's about to start, i just kind of feel a sense of dread.

i don't like planning only week by week. i don't like the feeling of not being able to plan beyond a week. i don't like not being able to see what's going to happen after one week. basically, i don't like my life tt cannot see beyond a week. however, i tell myself, this is the life tt i need, not necessarily what i want, but definitely what i need. i need the income, i need to study. and i need to leave at least one and a half days of my weekends for the boy. and also, i need to feel some pressure and some stress in my life. the past half years of my so called academic life has been too easy. and it should not be the way. i also tell myself i need this. to learn how to cope with stress, to learn how to manage time etc.

so overall, this is something i need to do. of course, the easy life of slacking has to go. maybe tt's why i feel sucky. but it's time i learn how to start working hard for what i want and learn how to prioritise and manage my time properly. i believe i will emerge a stronger and better person. but right now, let me dwell a little how sucky this really feels.

today, very suddenly and abruptly, this beeper sounded really loud in my head. and since then, my head has been in a throbbing pain. i suddenly realise i don't have alot of time left before my first academic year ends and on top of that, the next mock that i really wan to go for and do well is next month. and though i don;t have the exam schedule yet, i got a feeling two papers fall on the same day, i think everything's piling on top of me. i cannot breathe!

while i was in class today, i started keying in figures into the calulator. i calculate roughly one week how much time i have.. minus tuition. minus sleep and minus weekends. minus travelling. i forgot what figure i came out with but i know i wasn't happy with what i saw. i think time's slipping away, running out and yet i'm still nowhere near. darn it! shit... overload overload.... i can already feel the amount of work piling up on top of me. and tuition... darn. shouldn't have took up a new one.. but the money.... i need. ARGGGGGHHHHH.... i wun have life very soon.

finally, it's down to the last day. 10 days so hard to get by... but one day is much much harder than ten days. so near yet so far!!!

sighhhhsssss

i started out the day with a dread. seriously, i don't like wednesday. but so funny, i have two friends who specially sms me to remind me about gg school today or should i say encourage me to go school. so i went and i was rewarded. the lecturer surprisingly volunteer extra help for me? and i think it's a one to one. and i was extra rewarded. finally got the type of tuition i want. but scary mans, two boys..... one boy already make me headache.. now two boys summore... =/

but i thank God for ending my wed in such a lovely way. it makes me look forward to friday even more.. to share this joy with my baby. lalalalalala

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"You are alert and your life is full of love. You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blosoom. You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it."

"You like adventure. You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reversed. "

my results from some fengshui horoscope thingy.... haha

i cannot skip class tmr. i cannot skip class tmr. i cannot skip class tmr. now, there u have it. i really cannot skip class tmr. it will be a trigger to unfortunate events from happening, like more skipping of classes. so i cannot skip class tmr. and like i keep sayin, i have a responsibility as a student so i cannot skip class tmr.

i'm so happy baby messages me every now and then. i wonder will his friends make him pay for part of the bill when he gets back. hopefully tmr will end quicky and friday will come fast. i miss the boy alot.

i had a relatively good weekend. quality time spent with people i want to spend time with. had a lovely time yesterday, riding bike and van, that's like a bus. all cravings satisifed. my kembangan mee sua, quail eggs and pasta. i would have love to eat vongole instead though but never mind, the big guy in brunei promised me big fish! yummmmy.... kemabangan mee sua is superb!! so is coin prata set!!! yummiiesss!! all the naggings and scoldings, embarrassments is nothing compared to what i got in return!!

i think time pass quite fast, before we knoe it, school starts. yes yes yes, all of us dread the start of school but do we have a choice? i wanted to revise before attending classes but laziness got in the way. every year without fail, i dun feel the anxious-ness kicking in about not studying or not putting in enough effort until after cny. between new year and cny, i still can kid myself or tell myself tt the yr is still young, it is only beginning. i still got time, and i should enjoy and relax more. den den den, only after cny, i start to panic. not enough time, regret big time, yet still as lazy as ever! gosh... old habits are hard to kick yea?

but i'm still as happy as i was on new year's day!! does tt count for something? i hope this happiness i found in within is something tt's going to stay in me for as long as it ccan stay. or is this just something sweet i m getting for something bad's tt going to come??

lalalala.... i love my friends, i love foood!! i hate the fats on my body though. i wanna slim down slim down. need a new pair of runnin shoes. i made my own salad today. niccceee... =)

i am suffering from serious cold turkey.... craving so strong i don't know what to do. my mee suaaaa.. i want my kembangan mee suaaa!!

quail eggs too!! pasta too!!! can i have all 3!!??? craving craving!!!

this was taken exactly one week ago. on social night last week. i adore this picture. niceeeeee

i'm very happy to receive messages from the baby. be it just one short message that i cannot reply to. still i know i'm in his heart and mind somewhere. just like he's in mine. okok, pardon my words. but i'm very happy. i know ten days will pass very fast. i just wish it will be faster. but i m happy. truly happy. i enjoy being happy. hee.. updated my resolution list in my blog.

anyway, i was thinking. if i'm a rich girl, i would travel all over the world to try all the cusines. try how diff country prepare the seafood. i'm not that into red meat so i prefer seafood. if i were someone who don't have responsibilities and burdens and someone really confident in what i set out to do, i would earn enough money to travel round the world learning how to cook different cusines. and once i've finished my cash, i will work more and travel more.

but because i'm who i m now. someone with responsibilites i have to fulfil. someone who needs to be around and someone who needs to account to people around me. too much stuff tt i cannot just throw away and go off. so i can only dream. i dream of opening my own seafood bistro in the future. i like to see people eat and enjoy my food. to feel good after eating and seek comfort in my food.

hopefully, somewhere in the future, it can really happen. but i still want tt car and house.... so tt i can start a family.

pizzahut.. 2 for 22 bucks... tempting.. but fattening

Today is 1st Jan 2008. The last few days of 2007 has been great. spent quality time with the baby. but sadly, today's also the day that he flew to Brunei. oh well, here's the start to my road of independence. dear God, please grant me the patience and strength to wait for the return of the baby. some thoughts i had, i realised that behind the big man, there's still a need for some feminity. cos every big man started out from a boy and when u are a boy, there's mummy. someone you need, someone who care for u, someone who take care of u, every small details. so right now, behind tt big man, though i cannot try to outsmart him, but i must always know when to provide answers, when to show support, when to be understanding. it's amazing, how man and woman fit each other in such a fine way. i think it's a very beautiful thing.

so.. one more week to school reopen. lots of things i have in mind for myself. lots of things i plan for myself in the year of 2008. i'm really aniticpating what will be in store for me. and what will turn out of me.

oh, btw, does anyone know where i can download videos to watch? i realise places like youtube and crunchyroll can ony watch from the site, don't know anywhere can download and watch. if you know, leave me a msg. thanks!

have a great year ahead everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR!