haven't been very happy lately. i dunno where my unhappiness comes from. all i noe is i sleep without a smile... i forgot my dreams when i wake up, i wake up knowing i'm back with all the problems. i dun like to run away. but i dunno where to start solving from. i feel so lost. without a sense of direction. i become tired easily... i become dissatisfied with alot of things, i become irritated easily. memories of the past got evoked. how i disliked them. how i really dun like them. the way they behave. the way they treat girls like shit. how they take it for granted. but those were really how i felt in the past.. and now, i feel the same again.

it's so difficult being happy. maybe... my only source of happiness is to be with my friends. at least... we dun hide our feelings from each other. it's happy from within..

oh well.... random entry.