i m back!!! i m back! and i m burnt! hu sae phucket is having their rainy season? for the many days that i m dere, the sun is so high up and so strong. phuket's sun is poisonous... m hurting frm mi sunburnt.. ouch.. painz. baby more poor thing. dunno why leg also swollen and it hurts for her to walk. the holidays were great. didn't do much shopping or sight seeing tho but it's fine with me. to me, it's just relaxation and spending quality time with my baby before mi sch reopens. and time really flies cos next tues is my orientation already. jie coming back this sundae... everything is moving ahead of mi.. sooo fast. 5th july coming... mi sch starts... 4th july.. euro cup final.. whoa! neway, soory gals.. didn't get gifts for u guys cos very hectic... sun very hot... onli did shopping at night and i m on a budget tour!! i miss my baby and i miss phuket.. not the sun tho. it wld be good if we can stay dere longer so that our skin can repair and den get a more even tan back. but m still glad i m back!!!! lalalallaa

since i've chosen this, i've got to learn that there's no tmr and there wun be any assurance or confirmation. everything is still so unstable in da future, so why talk about it or why get so bothered about it. when it comes. it comes. make full use of everydae that i have and live it to the fullest, with no regrets. i've got to take each day as it comes. this is good. it makes me learn new things everyday and how to improve myself in each and every little way. neway, spent the whole dae getting my stuff for the trip. she's using a deodourant that's so diff to get. i feel as if it's out of stock.. ahaha, didn't get it in the end, unless i wanna travel out of tampines. m almost done with my packing. dun tink i missed out anything. my bag is so fat now. dunno how to carry it out of the house tmr. m goin thaialnd in like 2 daes time? wun be spending too much time at thailand tho cos m arriving there ard late evening... and leaving there on tues morn. quite sad... but never mind... wld just enjoy each and everydae to the fullest! =) phucket... sun (hopefully), beach and sand... here i cum!

a mondae spent with my mum. we went riverwalk to do facial and buy sum beauty products. mum spent quite sum money dere. den i got a little grumpy with mum when she inisit i go temple and pray. i noes she means well but m tired, i wanna go home as soon as possible. we made a trip down to grandma's place summore. gosh, really wanted to cum home cause dunno y, i was damn tired. felt quite bad for being so grouchy to mum... =( neway, can't wait for thurs, den fri! counting down to da trip manz... mi time of month came todae.. gosh.. dunno whether to count myself lucky or unlucky... but hope it wld end by fri... cos i wanna go suntanning!!! just received a msg frm junior. she sae weaather at phucket not very good.. gloomy.. die... if da weather's gonna be like tt when i m at phucket.. wld die... soo disappointing can. goin out with baby tmr.. =) i can't believe this.. dun used to like soccer but now m a tiny fan of the euro cup.. ahahaha

woah. wad a fulfilling day at home. woke up this morning to wake my baby up, such a lazy pig. tt woman ar, ended taking cab to work, tsk tsk! watched abit of tv, went downstaris to get tuna cos i have bread at home den i started my packing. empty out my whole cupboard to preparefor new clothes. threw away many pairs of jeans, many tank tops etc. basically, threw away many stuff, gotta write out a whole long list of clothes to buy cos mi cupboard is rather empty now, ahaha. haven't let mum inspect the clothes i wanna throw, surely get scolding frm her wan.. den next, went to change mi bedsheet, never did it on my own before. mum is always the one doing it. even tho mi bed is not a queen or king size, it's still quite heavy, took mi quite sum time to get things done. damn tiring. after which, i kinda packed mi table a little, making it neater, throwing away litter which i m so fond of leaving on the table. den cleaned mi floor. got rid of all mi hair on the floor, ahaha, my mum and baby are all gonna be so proud of me. baby asked mi to pack mi things so that everything is neat and tidy before i leave, give mi mum a better impression or sumthing. and now, i m online reading about phuket, gotta noe more about phuket before i go there. need to learn how to bargain and look fierce, ahahaha. m so hardworking! i m leaving for phuket in less than a week, m soo excited! can't wait but i haven't pack too. neway, met up with xcyflawx yesterdae with ys, winnie and mi darling dotter! had lotsa fun! tho dey went to watch harry potter and i didn't. we just ended up splitting. it was great seeing everyone else. feels good! gotta bathe soon, feel a little dirty frm the dust of mi room. =) haven't seen mi baby for 2 daes.. 3 including todae.. miss her.

wad's wrong? my eyes are dry now but can't be sure if they will be later when i sleep. ever since last night, things seem to be pretty messy and it's affecting me badly. i dunno wad to tink or wad to sae anymore. m sorrie for being so stupid and not tinking before i sae or do anything. i realli dun wan to add any more burden to u. i noe u already have alot to tink about. i just wan to be dere, just to do my part. even if i were to be onli in da shadows... it's fine but things just have to take a turn. can't blame anyone but miself. i stressed her out and it cause a stain between us. dunno how to fix it or whether it shld be fixed... dunno dunno.... aniwae, went out with baby todae. todae's kinda da last dae we meet before we head for thailand. todae's baby's last half dae before the trip to thailand.. mi poor darling is working full shift throughout.. feel quite bad goin out to enjoy without when she's working so hard and so stressed out. we went temple to pray... for baby... and den we went shopping... it was great.. baby bought more than mi when it's supposed to be me doin the shopping!! not fair.. after that.. went over to baby's place.. her mum bought dinner for us.. sooo scary!!! bought soo much stuff just for 3 person (including her dad).. had a fun time.. m missing her... took cab home.. AGAIN. i noe y i ve been so broke... cos of mi cab fares. i hope everything wld be fine. wld be fine.

feeling hot all over... m i running a fever? mum insist she wans to send mi to the airport! how... soo frustrating.... aniwae, went out with mum todae. spent abt 5 hrs plus at the salon... it was so cold in dere. goin out with ys, cf and maybe xiuwen tmr.. going out to shop!! yea.. like finally. sooo sad, it's the 3 of us again... hopefully, this fridae wld be better.. can go out with angel and xiuwen. and amelia.. hmmm, trying to plan a dae with her... apparently, she's very busy.. cannot squeeze out time for me leh. =( amelia, if u are reading this... better cum out with mi alone one of these daes.. i miss u!! m gonna do sum proper shopping tmr man.. but baby sae i cannot spend too much.. bleah! can't take it animore, better go measure mi temp... m realli feeling quite hot...

yippee!!! life is so great at this point of time. ahaha, organ exam finally over, did quite badly.. dun tink i can get my distiction, but i did mi best. aniwae, it's over, over over! yay! i dun care if i dun do well lah.. it's over... ahahah.. and work is FINALLY OVER!! i m free!! m a free girl now!! ahahha... tt is even happier for mi. it's shopping and more shopping.. going out and more going out... felt as if one big burden is finally off my chest! ahahahaa. had a great time @ baby's place last night. wanted to stay up da whole night but we were too tired and had to work todae also. both of us dun wanna go to work todae sooo badly! it's soo nice cuddling baby to sleep.. m missing her already... hoping that mum wld let mi stay over one more night this coming wed but i guess it's too much to ask for yea... better dun take it for granted... shall see first.. yeah!! m soo happy!

scared. scared. scared. feeling all nervous now about my exam later. mummy is a little crazy, she told mi to wear this long skirt to exam... ahahha, bet she wans mi to seduce the examiner yea. m very nervous now, dun dare to practise too much, scared mi fingers wld hurt... i can't wait to get it over and done with... goin baby's hse tonight to stay over and we can go to work together tmr.. yippee... mi baby soo poor thing, next week no off dae at all.. she's gonna be soo tired... m gonna buy sum vitamin pills for her later on. she's falling sick i tink. gosh, i haven't bathed yet! and i m sooo scared!!! wish mi luck!!

woke up this morning dreading tomorrow. tmr is the dae, the dae of my organ exam. everything's stressing mi out. i can't fine mi grade 5 theory cert that i m supposed to bring tmr to take mi grade 6 exam. dun remember taking grade 5 theory exam at all. mum can't remember. onli mi teacher insisted that i did. haik... dun even noe after practising so hard, can take da exam or not. head pain. teacher coming over later, she so sweet, bought mi lunch. dun tink wed was mi last dae of work, i tink i hafta repot on sun. sun den is mi official last dae... y.... m soo sick and tired. finally had a little enjoyment yesterdae. met up with ys and cf and we went k box to sing to our heart's content. it was fun... grandma gave mi sum money when i went over her place yest to look for mi cert. baby asked mi to save the money.. dun anyhow spend. baby, i miss you alot. i dunno when's da last time we actually went out together. i noe we dun haf a chioce and i noe u are trying by coming down to suntec for a while here and dere when i m working. but this dun seem enough cos i realli miss u alot. sorry b for being so not understanding last night. i noe work is piling up for u and it's stressing u up. i shld be dere for u, not adding on to ur burden... sorry. i miss u lots... =(