Our first Gold Class movie together. not his first time though. i'm getting expensive so i should stop pampering myself. but it's a nice experience!

i come to realise every step we take, every place we went marks down bit by bit of our memories together. i suddenly wish i had kept a diary since day one we were together so i can have all the details of how things happen and my thoughts and words then. i look forward to making more memories and doing things together with you. =) it's you and you only. always have been, always will be.

our next impt step together. takes quite some courage, but i'm pretty sure i want to do it. it has always been in the plan.

i'm having very serious cramps. one of the worst ever and and not even my hot milo can help. can u imagine, giving birht is claimed to be 10 times worse than this. my last packet of life saver milo from amelia is depleted. long story abt the milo..... but just that amelia left 3 or 4 packets of milo @ my place from the last time she came.. and everytime i used one packet... is to save my life.. from gastric to hunger. all sorts of reasons.

so anyway, given today that i have all rights to be emo, i thought about some stuff. like of all the reasons i envisioned us to break up, this is one of the reason that i nv thought of and yet when i thought of it, it seemed ironical yet so logical. and this is one valid reason where both of us cannot do anything abt it.. it's the view, the beliefs all the differences, maybe even the lifestyle? and very difficult to compromise as well. so.... oh well.

i need another hot chocolate drink! it's hurting so badly

A very very nice weekend spent. Friday night was the commissioning ball. @ Rasa Sentosa. I like the place there... the environment and all... maybe i can have my wedding @ sentosa! =) nice dinner, nice place, nice date and nice night. no complaints about it at all and i would let the pictures speak for themselves.

Sat was celebration for xin's 21st birthday. now i realise actually my house to Aloha Changi is so near and it's even nearer to Bark Cafe, i seriously must go there and try one day. I would have enjoy and eaten more xin's party but i was feeling so sick and all... with the mild headache and horrible sore throat. seriously, i sound darn husky now. i would like to think it's sexy! haha...

Sunday was angel's birthday party. =) BBQ!!! my all time favourite. but due to my throat and all.. i try to restrain abit and all too. i hate the feeling of not being able to indulge and enjoy my food seriously. when would this bad sore throat go away. i cann't even teach now can.... with my voice like that. i don't wanna go off key when i teach my students.

continue wishing me health! =)

i'm like down with something. i don't know what but definitely down with something. or going to be down with something. my throat feels sore.. my head's splitting apart. and not to mention i wake up every morning feeling my whole body's going to break apart. =/

however, this is the first time in my entire life trying to take such good care of myself. i down pi pa gao daily. eat panadol at night. drink so much herbal tea i pee every half an hour. i even went to the extent to avoid fried foood which is sooo torturous!!!! and i even try to sleep early and rest rest rest. gosh... and it's all for my fabulous weekend ahead!! nothing can go wrong!

i really wanna enjoy.... wish me health!

i'm looking forward to this weekend. 2 parties and a ball to attend. =) but before that, i've 3 more tuitions to go to. =/

always expect the unexpected and just when i learnt how NOT to get my hopes high, i have to deal with disappointment again. i thought i learnt, but looks like there's more homework to be done. and when i look into the future, i see more of such "having-to-learn-how-to-deal-with- disappointment" situations. even the heartiest breakfast couldn't cheer me up for long.

i've been addicted these days. since tues i believe, straight after exams. i haven't been able to do constructive things, not even get myself a cocktail to fulfill my fantasy. oh well, i guess i have to give myself a break once in a while and do all non-constructive things.

however, i still manage to stock up my house on food. since i'm going to stay home alot. i'm still giving tuitions. hmmm, i've settled some re-application of cards. packed a little here and there. these are more or less the constructive things i've done. get a little peeved and bitchy over the weekend. i call that constructive, cos i let some steam and finally i saw the light. actually things can be really simple. when i let it go, and just smile over it. haha.. my boy is very proud of himself and cos he managed to strike up convo with my gfs and initiated convo and managed to make them laugh. haha... it's definitely an achievement in his dictionary and i'm very happy also. it's nice to see him enjoying himself while out with us, instead of complaining to me later he's bored and all.

his commission parade is this sat and boy is eddie right. i am proud of him. it's as if it's my son who is going to be commissioned. ahaha.. life couldn't get any better right now. and it can be even better if i get to do constructive things, like get my cocktail.. or make myself happpier.

i was doubting the true meaning of frienship. esp for someone like me... who after a series of bad falls and bad nights, and turn to gfs everytime when i m in pit and esp when gfs help me up when i was down. to me, friendship is something really important and some aspect that i give great importance and priority to. i m still doubting abt friendship and gfs. maybe it's a give and take. while i wan others to prove some stuff to me, i should be proving stuff to them too. ya, leave the doubt there. i seriously do love all my gfs. this prompts a speech tt i'm thinking of making.. hmmm...

finally caught narnia. not in gold class. i can't seem to get anything out from the timings of gold class. hopefully i still get to use them before expiry. anyway, love it and all i can sae is .. it's been 2 yrs and 4 months... ahaha....

life couldn't get any better. =)

seriously when i stepped out of expo hall 4 today, i swore the air smelt so sweeet. it's sad that i cannot plaster a smile on my face like everyone else, because i am alone. so all i could do is kept the aloof look and pretend i m not bursting from the inside! gosh..... liberty, freedom!! here comes shopping and good foood! i simply simply cannot wait for guilt free fun!!!!!!!

OMG... i m just THAT happy. after coming a month of ordeal, suffering and pain. now i got lotsa things to start doing and i think i better make a list. I M SOOOO EXCITED! things to do, people to hang out with and baby's commissioning!! life couldn't get any better today!

thanks for everyone who stood by me for this coming one mth of preparing for exams and exams. thanks for chin and her wake up msges in the morning to get me up to study though half the time not v successful and thanks for amelia who always remind me to bring jacket, cos i sae people who does that are sweet. thanks thanks thanks!! =)