it's been such a long time since i last blogged. myabe it wasn't tt long after all. not much things happened, m still me stuck at work. feeling as if i didn't spent quality time with my baby and also all mi frens out dere. haven't been updating dem and haven't let dem update mi abt their lives. actualli looking forward to the 6th of june cos it's the last dae tt i wld work but m extending it, dun ask mi y, it's all due to the root of all evil-- money. and it's also cos of mi organ exam on the 5th. teacher has requested mi to take off daes a few daes before 5th... and in order to make up for those off daes, m extending mi last dae of work to maybe until the 10th? =( very tired. everything's so boring and so down. everything's so demoralising like wad cf said. 17 yrs old... is this how we wanna spend our time before we start sch. cf wans to quit but she feels bad abt leaving mi there. i told her i wld be fine yet sub consciously, m making her feel bad.. wad's wrong with mi. i just can't stand loneliness yea? wad's wrong with mi.. i m the one hu wants the money.. y m i making cf suffer... m just selfish... i noe tt... m not a saint... can't go ard making everyone happy when i m not feelin tt good miself... work is terrible.. exams are coming.. it's horrible... dun even noe whether i wld pass, waste of money and time if i dun. make mayne pple disappointed if i dun esp mi teacher and baby. teacher sae if i do well, she wld allow mi to skip da next grade.. baby sae if i do well, she wld give mi a BIG treat and a movie.. very attractive... maybe it's just not in mi. i m not interested in music right frm the start... have been dragging on for ten over yrs... =( wad happened to mi dream of completing music before i m 20? wad happened to all mi dreams.. everything's realli not goin well for mi... used to have frens ard mi supporting mi. mi frens are all busy now... m shure dey give mi moral support but it's just not the same... just read finish everyone's blog.. hmmm.. wad can i sae.. m soo un updated...