woke up at 4:30 am and studied till now, i haven't finish, but i'm feeling drained and saturated already. what i should be doing now is to read everything once true... try to get it cram into that puny brain of mine and float into the examinations hall, get that paper done and come out a free woman at 1pm.

and after that, everything is just going to be a breeze, literally, breeze, sun, sand, food and lots more. but right now, i'm very very far away from that breeze!

i'm learning how to appreciate it more now. it's not the same anymore, when in the past, i come back after a paper, and plopped down and play games watch show all the way. now with this laggy computer of my dad's.... =( entertainment zero. not even a proper msn

i freaking need a laptop!!!

and i'm feeling so sucky abt the situation. when there's nothing i can do. i hate sensitivity. i'm boiling, filling up with grrrr.... i wanna eat CAKES, SASHIMI, FOOD FOOOD FOOOD!!!!!

Cheers to more than half the ordeal survived and i'm still mentally sane. Cheers to 3 down, 2 to go. Cheers to the end and what awaits after it.

sometimes, trust is not a very easy to thing to do. cos u get disappointed after you trust. maybe that one person doesn't care as much as you do. otherwise, why the disappointment. the promise never came... oh well.. i'm glad i know now.

on a scale of 0 (IT idiot) to 10 (IT Geek), i would say i am a 2? so how the hell am i supposed to memorise the terms and technologies, understand them, put them in my storage system up there and vomit them up in the cold and freezing expo tmr!

and tmr is a race against time.. with less than 24 hours to prepare for the next paper on wed morning as early as 10, i'm so so so screwed. bye bye sleeping beauty and hello to panda. i can't wait for fri!! and sat!!!! and ultimately the 27th!! the most AWAITED DAY... 1300 is the time. the Alleluia time!

i'm tired... grouchy and going bonkers. but i'm still reading that textbook of mine. luckily for more.. i would have macs for breakfast tmr.. on the courtesy of someone special! though not a fan of macs, but it definitely has the power of cheering me up.

i'm sure the absence will make the heart fonder. times have changed but the hearts haven't. situations are different now but the people haven't. maybe they would, but it's equally likely, maybe they wouldn't. I've learn yet another life's most valuable lesson. we fall, we cry, we pick ourselves up and learn. who say we won't fall back on the same spot yet again, but that doesn't stop us from picking ourselves up and learn. everything happens for a reason and nothing will be wasted or go in vain.

i'm in love with strawberries. maybe it's red? but i especiailly love my strawberry moisturiser!! smells yummy and nice!! good foood plus strawberry smell makes me happy. i'm that easily contented at time actually. and if u guys notice.. my preference changes all the time. it's all about how updated u are with me.. i'm always in a phase of things!! it's like the classic example.. what's my favourite colour? of course... i'm sure i'm still loved by everyone who knows me despite of who i am.

this is going to be a very very packed week. of isolation and of mugging and of deprivation. till the next time i blog then

disappointment swept me in waves. one hit after another. never relenting on me. i feel so drained and tired already. but the race is only halfway through..

没有你的每一天 (徐婕兒)

回家的路總是很遠 話少得很可憐
一個人的晚餐 都是孤單的滋味
看見身邊重复上演 屬於我們的畫面
選擇逃避的眼 怎麼還是會流淚

愛著你的每一天 你就是我的世界
那時候還以為 我就愛這一遍
没有你的每一天 快樂離我好遙遠
心已隨你走了 還能用什麼感覺

我捨不得睜開眼睛 害怕身邊没有你
也許在夢境裡 是我們最近的距離
想念你温熱的手心 冷風裡把我握緊
當冬天又來臨 這温度該怎麼延續

謝謝你曾經愛過我 給我最美的經過
但生命最愛被剝奪 未來的路該怎麼走

there are good days just like today and very bad days as recent as yesterdays. i'm lost.... is there more to aniticpate? or should i be prepared for the worst.

i don't like how stagnant it can get

and evelyn.. it's really us that are not fated to eat wings or drumlets. i ordered that day tgt with pizza.. it came almost immediately.. although there are alot of pple in the restaurant.