i know this sounds pretty retarded but maybe to a certain extend, i'm like pumpkin? ok.. this is definitely after effect of reading her blog, after such a long time summore. sweetness mans.... and the way she talks about it... gross and childish once i recovered from this momentarily effect of reading her blog but for now, i think i m like her. when it comes to things she write... but not the mundane stuff la.. just the interesting part tt all of us only read.

on the other hand, i might want to be like that. or i desire to be like that. i guess sometimes, we people just have to tell ourselves when to let it go and when to let it end. but every statement i made to myself, i have a counter argument. it seemed as if these days, i'm in constant argument with myself... heart and mind. but of cos, as usual, heart always win.

i always tell myself. i made the mistake once and i wun make the same mistake again. but by refraining myself for making mistake, i'm still subjected to all these? then wad's the difference? maybe in this way, i will seen as weak-willed blah blah blah.. cannot think of btter words to describe.

i m very strong in every aspect. i m just sentimental i guess. to the extend i will miss my calculator if it misfunctions. i will be upset cos after all, it followed me for quite some time. nothing wrong with being sentimental but dun take advantage of this trait of mine.

exam's round the corner... i need to tok. i need to release... i need someone to listen.. i need some hugsssss....... feeling so dreadful.