it took just merely few words of yours to break me, to get mi devastated, plunging into the deepest and darkess pit of depression. is this love? on the other hand, it took merely a few words to get mi standing back again, to see the light in things. is this love? crying over and over again for something I dun even know whether wld happen or not, is this love? tossing and turing in my bed, was tired initially but sumhow just cannot sleep after ur silence, is this love? will u tell mi wad does ur silence means? wad do u wan? wad do u wan me to do? to like u so much so much, to have ur every action and words affect mi so much, i noe i have step in already. i've got no turning back, dun turn me away, dun hurt me, m just as fragile. i noe everyone might think i m silly, m stupid and i can't blame them for saying it but this is love.. rite?i chose this myself... aniwae, sorry to those hu worried for me. sorrie to those hu cared and also to mi neighbours... ha

jie went back to australia yesterday, went to send her off. won't be seeing her till 6 months later. it's a beautiful saturday and i stayed at home cos nobody asked mi out. quite sad hor, but never mind, i completed all my homework, not a very big achievement but at least it's sumthing. now, all i have to do is revise mi work, esp econs... gotta catch up a little cos i have been rather blur in class... dun really get wad da lecturer sae leh. and mi FOM too.... dere's quite sum stuff for mi to do but sumhow, mi mind is constantly drifted to mi darling. haven't see her for 2 days already and i miss her... feel like goin to her house to stay but m tired of coming out with excuses here and dere... gosh, y can't mi mum be a little more lenient. maybe one night, i wld just sneak out of mi house and never come back! ahaha, wad a silly tot of mine. aniwae, it's been 2 weeks since sch started, so far so good but i noe with a blink of the eye, tests and projects wld start piling up already... ahahha, so better relax now as much as possible. found myself a job... quite good pay and dey are willing to take mi even tho i can only work on firday.... yay.. =) baby just called mi.. sae she goin out...

You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)


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just read amelia's blog. wondering how come she can type so much. ahaha, tt girl ar, must be very excited to get a blog, tt's why. oh, m i quite mean to sae that. never mind lah, wad are 9 yrs frens for right, amelia. aniwae, she is so annoying. msg her sae i wanna tok to her on da fone and she never reply. meanie. she's not the only one tho, that xiuwen ar, was msging her one dae and ask if she wanna chat with me on da fone and she never reply too. how cum ar? no one wans to tok to me on the fone? ahahha. aniwae, dis is my second week of sch. how did i pass my long weekend. well, went out with cf and ys on fridae and we watch mean girls, ate lips. baby was quite angry with me for eating lips tho. i noe m quite broke already yet i m spening like no one's prob. ate lips twice for that week. summore keep saying i wanna go lips with baby yet i keep going there with my frens. sorry dear, i really better hafta start saving soon. look at todae's date and i m quite broke already. sat went town again to support charmaine, her sch doin sum charity thingy there. went there and donate all mi coins. it's been a long time since i saw that girl... changed quite alot... nice to meet up and pls hor, charmaine.. u still owe all of us a bbq!! ahahaha, i live so close to u, dun pretend ar. after that, headed down to pasir ris downtown east cos is little ashley's bdae party!! gosh... that sweet little thing. when i reached dere, there were soo many kids there playing. realised i really grew older liao. it's no longer my era. felt so out of place, like go dere and eat only leh. summore, deborah didn't go and debbie came late!! gosh! soo lonely for like 2 hrs plus... spent da whole of sundae with my darling baby. stayed over at her place the night before. guess she was really tired cos she fell asleep halfway thru watching. reminds mi alot of deborah. we used to watch vcd together and she wld always fall aslp first. helped mi darling to pack bit bit of the hse and also to set up her com. quite tiring.. ate a late breakfast.. watched vcd... the night before, she bought quite a number of vcds... and den laze ard at her place. we love doing that.. just lazing ard and apparently, time passes very fast when the both of us laze ard. we went ikea in the evening to have a look at coat stand!! she wants to get one for herself and for her parents... we went achorpoint to get sum stuff for her mum and baby met her fren who is workin at haagen dazs. we got free ice cream to eat... gosh.. it's delicious... i can't even use words to describe... but it's realli very very nice.... ahahha den went hawker centre and eat dinner. baby sae she dun wanna go hawker centre and eat animore.. next time must packet the food.. she saes it makes her clothes and her hair stinks. ahhaha.. i m fine with it.. who is the princess here lor! wen back her place to cath abit of the nkf show den went home after that. it's da first time i actually took a train home frm her place.. realli save quite alot lor... ahahha. finally about todae... very tired dis morning when i woke up... almost had to drag miself off the bed.. luckily last night, i already msged xuanming and told him to msg mi in case i fail to wake up. sch is ok... ec was fun.. my accounts tutorial was done well and i m proud of miself and den it's the itab... tt's sooo sian!! very bored.. fell asleep during that lesson... neway... got a new camera fone... for my bdae frm mi parents... =) m tired typing...

one week has passed. one week of school life. lucky me, i've got no school tmr. got my cca settled, joined environmental club.. ahahha.. keep the earth clean and green and i also join mentoring club... i need the cca points so no chioce hafta join sumthing. got sum textbooks.. sooo ex.. mi heart quite pain. met baby for the past 3 daes after school, came home quite late every night so no time to actualli consolidate my notes and read them. spent quite a bomb on taxi fares but she was sweet last night, she sent mi home. i kinda miss her cos i didn't see her todae. her course kinda ended already and she's back at work. she ar, cannot make it for a 9 to 5 job.. she gets even more tired everydae and she simply can't wake up on time every morning. hafta keep taking cabs. yaya! tmr no school, m goin out with ys and cf, waitin for dem to finish their sch den going to watch mean girls... baby want to watch tt show too but too bad, she owes mi spiderman!! i m CRAVING for that show can! we are gonna watch it this sundae.. ahahha..sooo far soo good.. life is not too bad.. i can't ask for much. baby's bdae is cuming.. in about a mth plus time.. wad shld i get.. hmmm....

woah... it's already my second day at school. everything's fine for the moment excpet our hols are shorter and dere wun be aby more sub paper if i do fail mi exams. i gotta do well for every CA cos dey weigh quite alot in my final grade. baby having course these two days so we went out yesterday and today. fun.. it's always fun being with my girl. went over to her hse yesterday and she cooked seafood pasta... we are soooo damn bloated after the meal, we had mushroom soup too and one big balck pepper chicken.. gosh... we had to waste food and really very very full!! ahaha, baby's pasta is very nice.. tho i dun realli like to admit it ot her... lalala.. and today, we went to watch around da world in 80 daes.. ahahha.. free tix.. tt's y. it's not too bad.. excpet, both of us dun really like jackie chan... niwae... after movei.. we went kopitiam and eat.. den realised i left mi precious file with all mt notes back at mos at ps.. where we watch movie... we walked all da way back to get it.. soo sorry baby.. i promise to be more careful next time.. tmr got early dae.. end at 3.. baby gonna cum pick mi again like wad she did todae.. sooo sweet... we are gonna eat lucnch in my school first den go visit frankie... next week cannot meet her soo often animore.... gotta do sum serious sch work already... m missing her.. =)

m in school now, using the com. slacking away waiting for the 1pm lecture to start... soo tired.. meeting baby later. wondering how is she doin ih her class.. ahaha...

woah. time really pass very fast. so much things have happened after i came back and now, 3 more daes and i m starting school already. jie is back... welcum back. i realli miss her, her cooking and her just being ard in singapore. sumhow, nothing much have changed between us, everything just felt like she has been all the while in singapore and tt we just met up after a long time. deb too. it's been such a long time since we had night feast. i missed it. like how we started in da past. little packets of snacks frm provision shop. always eatin finish. now, big packets... go supermarket buy summore... and we always have remaining food. ahaha, those were the time. i bet if mi aunt sees this, she wld just faint.niway, orientation is finally over. the 3 daes of orientation tt i did not really look forward to is finally over. first day, we played games and like get to noe u session mainly. nothing much. got to noe mi klassmates a little more here and dere. den cos da first dae was so sian, i pon orientation da next dae and went out with my cousins.. ahhaha. yesterday was flag dae... and can u believe it.. sae already also paiseh myself only.. i onlu managed to have $6.70 in my tin. ahahha.. i was lazy... slagged ard in paya lebar. neway, not all my fault.. da location wasn't good to sell flag, k! tho one of mi klassmates managed to get a total of 90 bucks plus plus..ahahah.. yaya.. i m just lazy.. i hate selling flags! after flag selling, went out with baby. actually, tot can meet her earlier but i was held up in school.. grr... dey make everyone sit dere while dey count da money.. quite a waste of time yea. went out with baby and she bought mi a school bag and a pair of jeans... and slippers too!! ahahha... actually, she only promised to get mi a pair of jeans and she ended up getting more.. lalalla.. still got 2 more daes to relax before school starts. out of nowhere, i suddenly feel quite stressed up. dunno why also leh. school starting, i wan to do well. scared i can't make frens... ys not in da same klass as mi... hmmm.. i guess this is the time for mi to be independent... learn to depend on no one but urself.