dis is mi first time that i got tempted to go to a jc after a tok. vj that HOD very good at toking. she make vj sound sooo good and fun that i got tempted. besides the fact that the cut off point is 9, and that i can never ever get that, i realli dun mind goin vj. ahaha, shall go to the opening house first den see how. todae, got reflection. sooo boring. i dun like it when dey dwell on family issues. the frenship part was ok but overall it was boring. that eugene guy quite funny lah... but he abit sissified... =) saw maryanne todae, i m sure it's definitely that maryanne... aniwae, happy birthday, amelia! that girl damn lucki, her frens got her a pair of converse shoes... hahahah, rich frens she got. =)

i'm supposed to be sad todae, i mean with my result but somehow, i dun feel a thing. not sae i m happy or i dun care but i feel devoid of any feelings. not sad, not happy, nothing at all. didn't get back as many papers as i tot i wld get back so todae is not yet dooms dae. maybe it's tmr, maybe's it's wed. mi mind is in a blank. cannot think. didn't had mass practise todae, sumthing cropped up which i dunno wad. i can't believed that wed, we are goin to have amaths paper. i mean we just finished our exams, y must we do another paper. does it help? and ya, xinying and angel having serious flu... take care guys! now not the time to fall ill.

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss you love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

i'm soooo bored todae! eat, slp, watch tv. i even helped to pack the house and of cos packed mi room too. i did everything that cld possibly be done when alone at home. i even tot of playing boardgame alone, soo pathetic. this is one of the time when i wished i have a sibiling.. den maybe wun be sooo bored at home. dreading tomorrow. i wished it wld never cum but one has to face reality no matter what. if i m not wrong, checking eng paper first thing in the morn. if realli checking it first, i wld just die cos fail already, i wun even have the mood to check other papers. soo scared i wld fail english... tmr got mass practise again. what a boring dae i had todae, shld have just went out mi own and shop!!!

had mass practice this morning, need to wake up sooo damn early can. i mean i tot after exams, i can sleep mi life away. ahaha, aniwae, mass practise abit waste time until the end. didn't noe i had to do harmony for the singing... lalala, den went to watch 28 daes later. the scenes are soo gross can.. especially the dig eye part... yuck!!! i wonder how did they film that shot... aniwae, it's NC-16. finally did sumthing while being a 16 yr old teenager legally. waitin for R(a) movie... all of us make a pact liao, once we turn 21.. or izzit 18, den we wld go watch... but cannot bring chinfang along.. she wld get high and later grabbed this man and do on the spot~ LOL! went town after that, walked until legs wanna break and eyes gonna pop and heart soo pain... saw soo many things cannot buy cos i m sooo broke!!!! sooo pathetic... y sum pple soo rich ar... lookin forward to 1 oct

freedom! i finally have a taste of it... it's supposed to be good and relaxed but i don't seem to feel this way.. at all.. amaths paper suck big time todae, i never ever showed mi temper da way i did in sch todae. sorry to those i hurt. aniwae, wanted to go town but realised tt went dere many times this week liao soo decided to change venue... i did enjoy miself lah... but can't help feelin depressed...

chinese is a gone case manz. i just hope i wun fail... praying damn hard tt i wun fail. aniwae, even if i did, i most prob deserve it cos i didn't study very hard for it so it's just mi punishment. tmr last dae of exams, i already start slackin liao lor. tmr got amaths n sci mcq paper. haik, after hearing that thing, i really got no mood to study animore or i m just pure lazy. i very scared and sad now... i tot i tried... sum things are just so unpredictable.

lalala, finally blogged after a longgg time. finally got over mi depression abt my fone, hinted to mi parents that i want a fone but i wld just have to wait and see what dey will do. went town yesterday but it was not a fruitful trip, not at all. town is sooo quiet in the morn, felt sooo unreal. physics paper quite ok yest. it's todae's chem!! i m doomed!! chem sure sure pull mi total results down wan.. quite sad. den went to play bball to destress.. it always work.. felt much better den after tt, went town again ahahha... dis time better, bought a top to reward miself for hard work.. actually wanted to buy bra wan but the one tt i like dun have mi size!!! what the hell rite.. all they have is L or XL, can't they have anything smaller like a M??? already counting down to fridae when i can hevoc! ahaha, but must wait until mi allowance for october... quite broke now.. i m buying comics after comics... become soo addicted to dem liaoz... =)

sobz. mi fone got confiscated... it is officially taken away frm mi liaoz. initially, lao shi sae surrender your fone den after ur pract exam, we wld return it to u.. den pple hu brought obviously guai guai surrender den jen chu came and look at the fones den sae, sorry, we cannot return. these fones wld be turned in to jo teo directly, and she started nagging abt asking us not to bring fones.. blah blah blah... den lao shi tried to speak up for us, den in the end, she told us, sorrie, she didn't noe. if i noe wun return, i wun surrender can! i feel sooo deprived now. though i got back mi sim card, i dun have a fone... haik, and mi parents like blaming mi, i noe it's mi fault to brin fone to sch but can't dey show more pity towards mi?? kk, i shld be glad i get to get back mi sim card and stop complaining.... pract went well todae, at least i could identify things and no accidents happened... damn scared for amaths tmr... =/

mi and cf on sum tomyam craze todae, ate tomyam for both lunch and dinner. mi throat abit burning now and i m damn broke! went for sum amaths tuition with her. didn't really make full use of my time dere... kk, in short, i wasted my time todae.. tmr got pract and soo suay, i m in shift four!! the worst timing.. must assemble at 12:45 and wld onli finish at 3:15.. sooo waste time can! i better start doin sum amaths, i really very scared i wld fail amaths... everything seems sooo difficult to mi... m aching all over, maybe is because of yest bball game and the many many situps i did... ahaha.. better go start practising my amaths... i dun wanna score single digit....

lit sux!!! i dun tink i will do well for mi julius caesar part... and as usual, got no time to finish mi eassy too!!! grrr... ahaha.. played bball todae after lit again.. 3 on 3, and xinying joined us todae.. soo happi!! we played until quite vigourous and rough.. did alot of running and after like half an hr, i feel soooo hot like my body on fire! really like on fire.. and i glupped down one whole cup of ribena!!! ahahha.. didn't do LAY UP todae.... i still tink i look like clown sooo i tried throwing a 3- pointer... and i did it!!! i m soo proud of miself.. i m improving.. lalala

ahaha, it's lay up!!! not layout... i m super paiseh now~ eh winnie.. dun tell cf, k!! i wld be the laughing stock manz! aniwae.. studied lit todae. y must antony and brutus have such long and lengthy speech... if they didn't, i dun have to memorise quotes until like siao.. mi whole head hurt like hell now. if there's a quote i dun have to tink and can remember straight away, it's " Et tu, Brute? Then fall Ceasar!" ahaha, sumthing like that, i tink that is sooo funny. dere are many many other funny quotes.. dun understand how pple in the past think wan... two men can tok like gay, if they tok like dey do in the past now, pple shure tink dey are gay and not best fren... kk, got to go back and memorise more stuff... =)

emaths was ok todae but i made quite a few careless mistakes... quite upset about it lor. lose marks tt i shldn't lose.. summore it's onli paper one. got lit on wed, haven't started studying, dunno where to star aniwae.. tink i wld burn midnite oil cos tmr no sch... have been slacking since i came home. played bball todae.. ahahha.. asked cf to teach mi layout.. i tink i look like clown lor.. soo paiseh.. like dancing with the ball.. =)

ok. imagine this scenerio: this gurl was left alone at home cos her father went to malaysia and her mum was at work. she decided to cook something to eat because she only ate carrot cake for the whole dae. she remebered her grandma sae fried rice is easy to cook.. fast and easy summore, soo she went to cook sum rice... and it turn out, her rice was soggy-looking.. but she decided not to waste it. furthermore, she had already chopped up sum sausages and crabstick. she prepared egg too. she also remembered her grandma sae can throw everything inside the pan and just fry so she did the same!!!! she tot her rice looked too white sooo she added sum dark soya sauce and it turned out ULTRA black... and her rice was in lumps.. soggy lumps!!! it looked realli mashed up too!! she had to force the lumps down her throat as she dun wanna waste food... but obviously, she threw away alot!

ya, how pathetic rite!! y is that person mi!!! mi first fried rice can!!! i swear i wld never touch rice food for a MTH!!!!

studied chem whole afternoon... dunno whether i eat more or studied more. haik.. i m gettin kinda sick and tired of studying... how can i bear with it until november?? it's impossible manz... feel that dis whole week i have been eatin non stop, i tink i wld ask cf go play bball with mi.. i need sum serious workout or esle mi muscles will turn into fats. tmr tutor cuming.. soooo sianzz. gotta do sum maths papers before she cums. got a msg frm nic todae. quite surprised. it's been sooo long since we last contacted each other... ahaha.. she's still as silly as ever... =)

studied chem whole dae, sooo tiring. realised i mixed up alot of basics and hafta go through dem again...i m getting very sick of facing books liao. dun tink i can tolerate until november... i wld just die half way through manz. i eat alot this week leh... better ask cf cum out n play bball with mi before all mi muscles turn into fats! haik... gotta go back to mi bks... =(

ahaha.. no big, bright round moon tonite... i heard the moon can onli be seen after 1 am... quite a cold nite. went to this restaurant to celebrate gm's bdae... ahaha.. saw dexter.. he's gettin cuter and cuter liao.. he can speak very well leh.. i tink he's onli 2 plus.. not even three. he attends speech and drama class one.. guess next time i shld send mi child to attend speech and drama class.. ahaha.. went on a hugeee shopping spree at NTUC... mi pa, ma and i just went into ntuc and all three of us seperated to do our own shopping and den we met and put all our stuff at the counter... ahahah.. sooo fun.. i m surprised the bill didn't hit 100 bucks. mi ma sae we wld do this kinda shoppin once a mth.. =) gm's bdae cab is durian wan.. the response was quite bad.. ohhh.. i carried dexter!!! he can kiss very well... hee hee... he kiss pple on the cheek got loud sound wan... kawaii! aniwae.. happy bdae grandma!!

sandra: happy mooncake festival, gugu. hope u can remain as beautiful as chang er

sooo sweet of her ritez.. wad a nice nephew i have... or izzit niece??? hee hee

ma's on leave again. every time she's at home, i just can't seem to concentrate in my studies... i told her tt and she said that i m just giving miself excuses... haiya.. wadever she sae lah... didn't study alot this week... feelin damn guilty now... tink i hafta stay up late tonite to do sum serious studying... just packed mi cupboard.. got rid of alot of old clothes.. hint to mi ma that old clothes dun go, new ones wun cum.. ahaha.. tonite is grandma's bdae... doin to celebrate... oh.. tonight's moon wld be ultra round and bright cos it's mooncake festival.. i wan to hold lantern lor but no one wants to buy for mi!! grrr..

was in a very grumpy mood this morning. first, had to wake up ultra earli to go buy present... cos todae's yansing's bdae den we haven't got present yet... den is like after i meet chinfang.. totally had no clue wad to buy... and we were in sum kind of financial difficulties too. both of us quite broke at this time of the mth.. ya.. i noe it's onli the 10th.. but i m alreadi quite broke... den we had to pay of 5 person share... grrr.. mi legs were tired of walking and i didn't want to waste time sooo i ran round like mad to look for pressies. luckily i was with cf.. who can tolerate mi temper and anger.. i was grumbling non stop, soo irritating... ahahha.. but in the end.. cf's lameness crack mi up. she can be soo lame... i cannot stay angry for long with her ard... bought yansing two apples.. ahahha.. dey symbolises youth and health, k! oh.. bought her a top too and a card... we wanted to deliver the present to her hse but she's not at home... called her and she said she was in orchard and sooo we took train down to orchard to deliver the pressie to her... she was touched... =) though i m broke.. bought 12 jang nara's pix cards... kk. i m mad but i can't help it... ahahha.. she's cuteee!!

HAPPY BDAE YANSING, MY EVER SO CHERISED FRIEND!

mi ma bought this tub of ice cream yesterday night.. it's the walls selections-- nuts abt coffee and by todae.. it's oreadi half gone... thnx to the princess of this house!! oh no... i m goin to grow fat!! i realli cannot stop eating.. every mouth that i eat.. i feel guilty but i can't stop eating more... urgggg... how!!?? that ice cream is realli irresistable.. lucki it's not chocolate.. or else by todae.. the whole tub is gone! touched on physics todae.. quite lazy... study half way.. den walk to the kitchen to look for food.. one bad thing abt stayin @ home to study.. i eat more.... haven't buy yansing her actual present.. die! tmr is her bdae.. tmr den i go find the present and deliver to her hse... but i still can't tink of anything meaningful to get her.. soo she can remember us forever... remember mi!!! ahahhaa

went to celebrate yansing's bdae todae. she gave us a treat and mi, obviously sooo sweet, went round and find a bdae cake for her before i go meet dem... the weather was very hot and i ran ard lookin for her cake... but luckily.. she's very very touched and she said the cake was nice.. ahaha... very rare yansing wld tink the things i choose are nice.. yay!!! ahahha.. den after the lunch.. cf begged mi to go town with her cos she meeting phoebe to pass sumthing to her and obviously, i m such a nice soul so i decided to pei her... found lotsa nice stuff there.. bought jang nara's picture card!! she's soooo cute~~ can't wait tonite's bright girl's success.... she's sooo funny and cute inside that show!! lalala~ todae totally paiseh miself... i was in the q to buy things den i tot the wallet @ the counter was mine and i took it.. den suddenly, dis man put his hands on top of mine.. i got a huge shock.. and realised the wallet that i attempted to take is that man's wallet.. sooo paiseh... i apologised non stop and ran out the shop after paying.. cf cannot stop laughin todae.. she tinks i m super funny... ahahha....

jang nara is sooooo cute!!! i noe she's not very pretty but she's damn cute... just watched finish my love patzzi, very very very nice wor... i m goin to support her frm now onwards.. another of her show--bright girl's success cumin up on channel 8... everyone must watch kk... not onli can she act.. she can sing too.. lalala... she's sooo cute and her smile can kill.. full of sunshine.. oh.. just realised that every korean love sure got one bad woman!!! tat big bad woman ar... realli can make u feel like punchin or even killin her... such a bitch... kk... finally watched finish the show, can go back to studying... yest watched vcd whole afternoon soo end up hafta study @ nite unil 6 am... den dis morn almost wanted to kill mi mother... how can anyone be as irritting???? aniwae... jang nara can cheer mi up... sooo ya, tink i will catch sum slp now... damn tired!

i m so not goin to do well for geog can. how can anyone be so dumb like mi to mix up wave-cut platform and beach... i mean tt's like 6 marks gone liao?? and to tink i studied more of physical geog. i tink the physical geog questions are so hard. dere's not one questions i can answer totally so i hafta do 3 human geog to compensate. i m not confident of doin well at all... arhhh!!! dis sux.. i didn't do well for lit. didn't do well for geog... and i most prob wun do well for lit.. i mean.. i never did well for lit... haik... went to eat long johns silver just now den after that. got this huge craving for tomyam soup so i asked chinfang go eat with mi.. ahaha.. made a pact with her that we wld go ard singapore trying tomyam soup... came home @ ard 4 plus... read abit of comics and slept till 6 plus... luckily, dere's one week of hols before the other papers cum.. i must study hard!!!

chinfang got her new hamster todae. i didn't even go near it and when phoebe pong brought it close to mi, i threaten to jump down the building... ahaha, but obviously mi frens can't wait for mi to jump off the building. when we were at tp central, chinfang ask mi help her hold the container for a while. i dun dare to put mi fingers at the holes where that hamster breathe and i did a very nautti thing. i shook the container and the hamsterflew ard in the container.. okok.. sae i m mean, cruel, brutal... mi frens caught mi red-handed and gave mi a lecturing. i denied but obviously, dey saw liaoz... aniwae, met this guy at the interchange and he conned us to hearing his speech.. he said he wld make it short and sweet and he ACT CUTE!!!! what the help.. he ask us buy sum stupid 3d pencil holder and after he finished, he was like, u all can all share one... thank you and he act sweet.. pls.. i m sweeter than him. i tried to tell him we dun wan.. he chose to ignore mi... grrr... =( waste mi money can...

ss didn't went well todae. i tink i screwed it up liao. at first, i was hopin i wld do well but now i m hopin for a pass. at least let mi get better grades than mid yr den i wld noe at least mi efforts have paid off. dere's no way i can sae still can depend on lit cos i noe i can't. our whole klass all cannot depend on lit. looks like everyone is praying hard that dey will do well for geog but for mi, geog is like beyond mi limits wan but i will do mi best. i promised mrs tan i wld soo i better. tomorrow is english. english not so bad. i always feel that eng is supposed to be in you and if u dun haf it, means u dun haf it wan. ahaha, but i wld still go read thru the many many formats. den i wld touch on geog todae. just woke up frm mi nap. stupid ma of mine call and call. bought home-made noodles just now, plannin to cook for miself again. aniwae, yest's pasta was yum yum.. mi ss papers.... sobzzz...

i studied. took breaks here and dere. i dunno wad's enough and wad's not. i m afraid of the questions tt's cuming out tmr. wad if i dunno how to ans. tt wld imply mi efforts these daes have gone to waste. haik, i let mi imaginations run wild again... didn't go to sch todae, wonder how dey've done. tmr after ss papers, goin to eat with cf and she ask mi go shop hamster's cage, food and stuff with her, not interested in animals at all but since cf has asked, i wun reject. ahaha... aniwae, cookin mi own dinner later. sum pple wld be damn proud of mi. i m makin pasta and soup.... miself...

feeling kinda tired now... studied till 3 plus last nite. i wanted to study till morn but i realised it's very diff. not because i feel like slping.. i mean i got coffee so i m not afraid but rather, i m afriad of the unseen. if u guys noe wad i mean. u noe ar, study soo late, alone, u tend to tink alot and ur imagination will run wild... sooo ya. if i wasn't freaked out yest, i wld have studied longer.. i m kinda picking out topics to study now. i dun tink i can finish all sec 3 and sec 4 topics sooo i have to pick topics that i tink wld cum out. i m sooo tired... ss really sux... y do i care what the government is doin or abt how we come abt frm 1960s??? aniwae, tmr dun haf physics practical prelims for mi so i get to stay up late to study summore tonite. hopefully, tonite i wld be braver cos i seriously want to complete mi ss. feelin quite stressed now... tryin to destess miself but nothing seems to work?? grrrr.....