i had one of the best weekend as long as i remembered. and long weekends are defined total undivided time together with my boy. without any activities of socializing. haha! i know how it sounds, but at times we really need this another long weekend is defined as friday, sat and sun. nowadays, we don't get fridays together as much as we would liked to. anyway, this is a once in a while thingy, next week, it's back to activities and socializing.

we did have a mini hiccups during this long weekend, but it didn't change anything. this is still the perfect weekend. lazing around. runnng a half marathon and cooking dinner, which is something we haven't been doing for a long time.

now that we got seriously planning and talking about budgeting, i realised how stressful this is all going to be. how can i tide it through? 

Dating is playing games, but engagement, or betrothal, means we are now committing to truth. We are choosing to reveal more of ourselves so we can see each other wholly and love each other in wholesome ways.

The outcome of a good engagement is marriage, when, as Adam and Eve discovered, we find ways to be "naked and not ashamed" before each other. This is more than just undressing; it is the psychological honesty that allows us to meet one another in truth, peering into each other's souls without embarrassment or threat of one of us walking away.

There may be times when too much honesty harms a good relationship, but it is hard to know how secrets can be part of a healthy relationship. God does not turn away from us when the secrets of our hearts are brought into the healing light of divine grace. Nor should we turn from those who trust us with the intimacy of private faults, disappointments, needs and dreams. As Jesus reminds us in this brief parable about a lamp, "Whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is concealed is meant to be brought out into the open." Especially in marriage.

These are times when i am so glad the bible is really and truly a life manual. 

i don't have discipline. zero. nothing. i don't have the discipline to exercise, i don't have the discipline to not drink cold water even for 3 months. i don't have the discipline to finish what i start. i don't have nothing!!!!! makes me sick.

i am getting a little out of control. my accounts are in a mess... God, save me. please.