it seems that i'm becoming more worldly as the months passed. I'm conforming to the society, what it expects of me and conforming to worldly views. I should have been contented being different and living my own life the way I want and not worry about the system of the world, the government structure and least of all, other people's tongues.

It's indeed a very grey morning. I begin to realise how untrained I am to adapt to the big things, how much activity I cannot take in at one time. I can problem solve very well, other people's problems that is, because I can use logic and common sense. Apparently, all these does not apply to myself.

I just want a cup of gong cha to cheer me up. Can i please drink finish and then start thinking about all these? All I want now is to dwell in His presence, to be reassured of His words and to leave everything to Him.

i'm so miserable! and my throat hurts, why is this repeating again and again!!!I really wish i have someone to share with this.

grr.. too much to bear

Life doesn't always go the way we want, that I know. When i'm learning how to slowly pick up step by step, life suddenly gave me alot more challenges. Aren't I supposed to learn one step at a time? or must i force myself to take whatever comes my way?

My inconsistency in things is driving me up the wall, how long will this go on

1 Universe, 9 Planets, 204 Countries,809 Islands, 7 Seas, and I had the Privilege to meet you.