i miss you

i forgot how painful cramps can be. i almost forgot all the aching symptoms that i have before it comes... and it all came back today. i always dream of having a hot water bottle to hug.... forgot how much i need it in the past, and the painful aching feelings all came back today.... nonetheless... my lovelies gave me a wonderful time today. i forgot abt the pain halfway through, and the pain actually left for a while.. but now at night.. in the middle of england v germany match, the pain is back.

board games are so fun... i feel like going back on ladies night.. which is a tues.. not this tues... hmmmm.... some arranging needs to be done. i still think the question about who u wanna get to do a shady business.. how could anyone have thought of me. i'm not tt dark... and meticulous... haha!

i love u girls and my boy... always will.. who else can tolerate me anyway.....

i'm so digging the new dcp world cup tee shirts... but 50 bucks for a tee shirt?? hmmmm.. and a working class girl doesn't have much opportunity to wear one anyway.. but it's sooo cute!

and yes ghana!! you're in!

more than half of the top 16 is out. halfway there.... for me too. i'm a very happy girl recently... at least i know i got nothing to be unhappy about. somehow... something still seem to be missing... oh well.... soccer has made my nights happier... hang in there first and see where i will land.

i think i made my daddy the happiest this entire month. everytime he comes home, the soccer channel is on. every single time.. unlike the past.. he had to fight the tv for it, and since there are 2 women in the house, he obviously don't get his way all the time. except saturday.. the ladies of the house decided to give him one night.. and that's sat. so this whole entire month, he's going to be a happy man.. coming home to soccer everyday.. i know my boy is not like that.. i wonder does he want to come home to cartoon everyday instead. hhahahaa!

so the next match.. ghana and australia... go ghana!

alot of people start to put distance between themselves and other people, be it in a drift away style or interact very little with people is usually cause they are afraid. they are afraid people will see through them. they have things to hide. maybe not in the bad way.. more of maybe they are feeling moody, emotional.. or simply in a i don't give a shit to this world kind of mood so they don't want to be near people, to pretend to enjoy company. they rather be by themselves. and the other kind is they have a true self tt maybe only really close people know. or maybe only they themselves know and no one else know and they are afraid that people outside will find out this secret self... and judge. thus, they rather not interact.

for instance.. a person can start drifting away from a group... and hang out less outside.. keep going home after work/school. u think tt person is in a emotional, moody period.. but it might not be. when people drift away from social group, maybe cause they done something that they are not proud of, they are upset... and they know people will judge.

so why oh why do people judge... that's like a whole separate issue really.

i need a retreat.

the long wait is finally over! i'm very very excited... the world cup is starting in less than 3 hours time. wooots. =) it's going to be a month of sleepless nights but roaring excitement. maybe alot of people might not understand why i'm so excited about it.... even my own boy don't. hahaa... i'm never a girl who likes soccer. what league what league.. i never ever watch.. but i just like world cup.. ask me who i support ar... not any country in particular.. just like to support it match by match.. make some predictions... overall champion.. hmmm.. maybe brazil... any country but SPAIN. haha.. oops.. i got something against them. i wonder why.

i just bought a new laptop.. rubee!! i'm really happy. finally.. the antique can be used for only office purpose. i don't have to carry laptop to and fro. no more heels and heavy load in arms. and if u guys know, i'm a sucker for high heels.. like quite high heels.. cos i think those are the only ones that are pretty.. and so my poor feet suffers with me. ahahaa.

back to world cup.. first match.. host country vs mexico.... i'm thinking it might be a draw.... mabe host can surprise me? i need more people to watch with me.. spread the joy. hahaa...

i'll be back

hello world.... i'm back. am i long forgotten? replaced? in anyway... i'm back. =)

it's been a very meaningful journey for myself in the last 6 months. a journey that i intend to continue walking. somewhere that i see myself walking to without seeing any end to it. yet. haha.... whatever it is, it's good to be back. i should start keeping track of my thoughts, share my beliefs, my nonsense again. i do miss bloggging quite abit where i can rattle and rattle.

i hope people still come here to check on me every once in a while....