the insecurity is scaring me. i dun have people to turn to. and this is the first time i really felt this way..... gosh.. i lost all the drive left in me already. never knew it was this hard. =/

i feel cheated..... =/ i really didn't feel it was wishful thinking on my part but wad could have gone so wrong? just start from scratch again. no problem at all

after quite a number of interviews... i'm back to square 1. or maybe not.... cannot really decide if i should take up a job that i never ever thought of doing but yet, i do see the benefits in it. or should i just do something mundane.... =/ here i am. stuck in my own thoughts and cannot really decide.

i keep doing crazzzy things these days... and i need money.... i'm running low on it. HELP!

do you know japanese cucumber is much crunchier than our normal cucumber. i think i can even get hooked to eating it. just peel off the skin, then take to chew. much healthier snack too.

yes.. i know it's been some time since my last entry. i know i'm being missed. but with two friends in shanghai, not being able to access blogger from there.. maybe no one comes here anymore.. except my angellic friend... who knows who she is.

i've been chilling, relaxing, meetin up with my beloved friends, hanging out and spending so much quality time with my bf, eating, drinking, slacking.... what else have i not done.. AH! i haven't start studying for my cfp. which is pretty late considering how early i always start. job search is a tedious process.. i hate interviews. i hate rejecting people.. i hate wearing those not pretty formal wears that i have. but i have to get a job. and my goal is to do so before my birthday. gosh.. i'm gg to be 22 soon.

have been cooking alot these days... we have JAPANESE day... KOREAN day, with the kimchi and all. we have normal 2 dish one soup day. u would think it's healthy and economical to eat in like tt. HEALTHY YES.. economical NO NO NO! salmon are expensive. and dun think kimchi is cheap either. because u always have to buy in bulk... and den put inside the fridge.. not as if my house got food in the first place. i even have to buy my own eggs to make sushi!

i want a job. but i'm hoping my boy get it first. =)