let's have some non food related posts. slightly downcasted by my failure to cook decent prawn paste chicken on sunday but i will improve. the boy said that i m far far far from being a chef. and he's not the least bit kind in his words. hmph.

had a pretty nice day today. he finally went to finish up with his applications and all, now just have to wait for applications to be approved.

i just woke up 2 hours earlier than normal.. and i m so darn tired the whole day.... =/

i m already counting down to end of may... while the guys are counting down to ord.

finding the last person who love me enough to buy me a book!

On a saturday night... it's home cooked meal yet again.

Starting off with healthy stuff... fruit salad... there's lettuce.... and strawberries as u can see... cherry tomatoes are alwaysa must. and dried cranberries which we put for a change. not too bad.. a sweet and healthy starters!

My home made pasta yet again. and this time i tried out penne with chicken. that's bacon bits u see on top as well. hmmm.. my pasta sauce ar got lots and lots of room for improvement! hope to do better. the next time i post on pasta will definitely be a item that i m satisfied with.

The spread before us! and notice, we are really getting healthies.. Yakult ar.. we also drink Yakult Light.

And of course, not forgetting desserts! my all time favourite meiji yogurt! i love the mixberry in particular!

i'm supposed to be studying right this minute. but somehow, i don't feel the urge to do it. i feel like screaming, i feel like yelling, i feel like running away. i'm not feeling THAT extreme.. but i feel like i got alot in my mind and due to lack of memory space.. i can't seem to recall the things i have to do abt my life right now.

thurs are such tiring days to study. i can't wait for the weekends. i'm not even talking coherrently.

Boo

i have to say this, Breakout was amazing! Excellent... very nice. i love the dance... and pardon my ignorance or stupidity(according to the boy), i realise why is it call breakout only today. Breaking out of jail... and all the while, i thought they call it breakout cos it's related to break dancing.. which it is.. but not the reason why they call it breakout. okok.. silly me. well.. i love it!!! totally made this day so much nicer!!!! vday with the boy has never been this good.

so that's it for my very special v-day. plus dinner at our lao di fang of course... =) definitely a good day and will be remembered down the road. =)

It's burger day! seriously... it's successful and even the monster gave me 9 marks, out of 10. that's mashed potato at the side, on top of lettuce with two tomatoes at the side.


and ta-da! this is my chicken patty!! it's really successful this time. not hard at all. it's even a little juicy!! lalala... i can make burgers!!! ought to improve on the taste... i find it a tad too bland, though monster said it was fine. i'm happy.


sent off my dearest girlfriend today in the morning. hmmm.. what kind of feeling is that.... a little sad, a little longing, a little this and a little that. all mixed together. but i'm still glad i went. and i will miss her.. for these 6 long months to come. somewhere along the road.. i will definitely feel her absence... den i would get emo and flood her with a long email. haha.. i'm v capable of that. well.. all the best my girl! hugssss!

is it wishful thinking on my part to dream of romance and sweetness once again?

It's Japanese Day! we both agree it's a fattening day though.. haha.

our usual sashimi with kikoman soy sauce plus wasabi.

Our new addition, besides the usual rolls and sashimi that we will have. His favourte Salmon Don... i told him, eh? the seaweed like not much taste ar.. den he sae.. that one for decorative purpose! haha... i decorated the borders with the cucumbers! so cute right!

i lazy to put up the pictures of the sushi rolls, look pretty much the same everytime. with eggs and cucumber and all. but this is the best Japanese Day we ever had, with vinegar in the rice.. with wasabi and nice soy sauce. haha... the level of authencity!

i'm looking forward to V-Day... and dreading the end of Chinese New Year

Whether we are growing older or younger as each day passes, whether we are prolonging our life with the latest medical science or trying to look like we did 20 years ago, death is inevitable. however, on our deathbeds, do we have a great story of our lives to share? was it pure dressing up to the nines, dolling ourselves up, buying the most expensive brands, going to the most happening places, plotting how to make the husbands stay or die, in the case of insurance money, is our life worth any bit to share with people?

i've been focusing so much on how to doll myself up, feeling so upset that i can't look better, envious of what so many women had. i forgot slowly and gradually, i'm neglecting what i have on the inside. at our funerals, do we want people to only remember our big diamonds, fancy cars, great skin, white straight teeth, healthy hair? perfect weight, slender hips? or do we wanna hear stuff like she was a great mother. or daddy would have supported me regardless wad happens or she was a woman of her times, a loss to us. does it still matter how we look if we were leading life to our fullest, defined by ourselves. what do we wanna be? happy on the inside or happy on the outside for all to see. it's a choice we make.

recently, i told amelia to look out for signs when u are making decisions. well.. it's to ease her and after all i m a believer of signs. signs are everywhere and everything is something to inspire or to teach us something. Like if we never lose someone we love, how would we had known that they were important? everyday we wake up alive is a blessing. i'm beginning to love Fridays, despite night classes (esp now that chin dun wanna send me home and i have to take cab but it's not important). it's on fridays when i have time to myself, to soak in the solitude of it all, to appreciate, to reflect. when that time stood still for me, i totally forgot i m a city girl. Life itself truly is amazing and i got to do what i want to do. no hesistation, if i don't do now, when then can i do the things.

John Grisham never fail to amaze with the plot and this twist to the story. once again, i'm mesmerised.

my new shopping motto for the year, and this motto exludes books or comics:

Never be in a rush to get anything, always wait for sale maybe, or just wait till i dun feel like getting it anymore.

i've got so many things to do, from not so important things like sending out my warranty cards, to super important things like mugging for my exams and then on to life and death things. haha... last part was an exaggeration but it's life changing things, like getting a job, starting my career as well as taking up more responsiblities at home, starting from handling my own phone bill. it's right on top of the list.

recently, my dad seemed very addicted to wathcing those very very old dramas, those kind act and sing, very very olden days with all the costumes and chinese instruments playing in the background. we're having this channel for free trial till 12 Jan and somehow, daddy seemed very stuck to it. haha.. it's funny la. musical began such a long time ago. there's this scene that got the both of us cracking up, and mind you, i wasn;t wacthing.. but the tv's on right in front of me.

there's this scene.. this servant girl got beaten up darn badly and was about to die... she could still stand up, stagger abit though and SING... for quite some time. cannot stop laughing until she fall down and die. i was half thinking she would stand and sing again lo. hahaa. not being mean here. i just cannot appreciate it. generation gap?

i feel so sick going to school lately. serious feeling darn sian about it.

there are things i don't want to dwell on, cos i'm still trying to sort out my feelings within. i always thought i'm a very extreme person. someone who knows my feelings straight away and act upon them. when i'm happy, i laugh i bounce, when i m angry, i shout and got very irritated with everyone around me. and when i'm hingry and tired, i get grumpy. however, there are still certain issues that came to me and i don't know how to feel. it's the second time in the year already. i need time to sort out. and then i would know how to feel thus, wad to do about it.

a very nice cny gathering indeed. girly session.. tok tok, laugh laugh. though times like this is rare, cos it's quite impossible to gather everyone at times but with one session like this... i can be contented for at least 6 more mths. no more than that! hahaha....

the future seemed uncertain but we have to make the effort in everything we do. if u want something badly, u got to work towards it. cos i believe everyone is within our reach so as long as we give it all. so with the cny holiday coming to an end.. it's serious mugging time. no more vww, no more shows on tudou and of course less storybooks and comics... study study study.

and just to remind myself one day when i read my archives... i love that boy of mine very much at this point of time. uncertainties are bound to exsit along this road.. but i want to remember now and record it down. seriously.. 3 years ain't easy, especially for me. but i'm glad we stick on... let's just have to see where the future and God has to lead us to den.

nights everyone. love all u girlfriends i have out there! muacks...