someone told me before happiness is usually self-defined. that you know what makes you happy. however, sometimes i feel happiness comes when we least expect it. or happiness can also be things or people that you didn't know could have make you happy. and it only happens at that instant and that moment. even if we were to repeat the things or people, it might not be the same feeling that it first gave us.

and when i slowly begin to realise that and understand it... i really treasure times that make me happy. cos the feeling that i have cannot be repeated and neither do i want it to, cos the feeling will not be the same anyway.

it's that captured moment, captured in my heart. that's where my happiness comes from. accumulated of captured moments that i didn't know exist before that.

there are so many material things i want. right now.. like seriously.... i want...

1. a pair of nice flats to go with my pretty nails
2. to go for the eat my dead skin therapy.. i don't know what's the name of it
3. a good moisturiser
4. a dress for my birthday
5. a very pretty clutch bag

My Levi's itch is itching again. everytime of the year.... =/

money dropping from sky?

i don't know how to describe my current feelings. i hope you understand. somethings have changed but every day is still moving on. no one has stopped living, everyday life is still moving along. we're still very much in love aren't we? i think i need to reassemble the scattered pieces of my life. and make a new picture out of it.

i hate it when plans get screwed. especially in a bad way!

and that's my lovely cousin/godsis on her 5th birthday. she and the birthday bear jie bought for her.

i realised mondays are the best to blog. i love to sit down on a monday morning, recalling the beautiful weekend that just passed then type them out in words. i finally got my jogging shoes during the weekends. i expected it to be difficult but i'm surprised at how efficient we were or rather he were so within minutes of steppin into town, we got it already. so people out there who actually saw my wishlist... jogging shoes are out! that means so is adidas vouchers.... oh... but actually i won;t mind running attire. like shorts and the sleeveness v v comfy singlet looking top. haha... new sports bra is fine too! oh, and did i mention, the running shoes is a gift! my first 21st birthday gift. =)

so we were shopping around town, looking for a small water bag tt he can carry while we jog, one tt can put our ezlink cards, keys and all as well. we just went sports shop over and over again. it's quite interesting cos usually i wun even step foot in there. anyway, dinner was at Big Fish and must i say it again, i really love the place! why did we go there after such a long time. we should really go there more often. No pictures though, i was just enjoying myself too much to hassle myself. haha. the lady boss told me there's a new menu coming up.. interesting. i cannot wait. anyway, this Bigfish treat is on me to celebrate the boy's commissioning. look how long it was already and till now then we go.

We had nice scallops for appetisers. They are just special for the month only. Baby had his swordfish while i stick to pasta. Dessert is normal for him, which is tiramisu and i tired something else other than warm chocolate souffle. Now i wish i hassled myself to take pictures, cos with pictures, i dun ve to describe. oh well.... next time den.

so a lovely sat den a beautiful sunday. movie and dinner. i'm looking forward to tonight though. then i would be seeing him again. haha.. dear boy, i just wanna let you know i love the fact that you plan things for us to do together. love the fact tt we got identical socks, and u intend for us to get similar phones. i'm just like a small girl as i was told often. such stuff really makes me happy. =) all in all, nice weekend. love ya to bits!

finally finished album 1. i developed those pictures a long time ago and bought the album even longer time ago and yet, i recently just finished the album. oh, i failed to mention, the album is all on photos before nic went army. so i need to start on album 2 sooon, photos after nic enter army. mark my words and today's date cos who knows when album 2 will actually literally surface.

cooked a quick dinner for the boy before i rushed down to gm's place for dinner. it's the grandpapa's death anniversary. as usual, our family gathering is always @ gm's place and always with her home cooked food. standard pig intestine soup, her special meatballs etc. this time round got crabs and tom yum soup... and brown rice. wad's with healthy brown rice. anyway, i had a good time. ashley still as cute, and i had a short nice fun time with the cousins. it's been that long... since we laughed and talked face to face.

anyway, life is full of this and that. anyone can fill in whatever this and that may mean to any individual person. i was thinking, everyone has a inner rhythem in their life. as a member of the choir once, i remember the conductor once told us. when u are singing a fast song, u should be counting the rhythem in your heart slow. because if u count it fast, u'll end up singing faster than the music. and vice versa tt applies for slow music. anyway, everyone has their own rhythem. but i feel that if u are naturally a fast person, ur inner rhythem must be slow. or else, how do u get to enjoy life, enjoy the sunset, enjoy long walks and the sound of birds and crickets. what ever it may be.. but sometimes life can be enjoyed in a slow way.

however, u cannot take everything slow in ur life.. u got to find some target or goals and work fast for it as well. u can be slow.. but then if u are, dun let ur inner rhythem be as well. or else.. u will never achieve anything or accomplish anything.

hmmm. i'm less than a year closer to my taipei trip. hopefully cousin do get someone by then. my dream double date can!! on holidays summore!!!!