i slowly realised whenever i am happy, i tend to forget people around me, forgot what makes me happy, forgot it was people who made me happy and become obnoxious. this is very bad because i say things i dun mean that way, and i care very little how others feel. whenever tt happens, i act like such a brat and start to do things and say things which i terribly regret after that.

i forgot it was people who made me who i become today. i m so heartless, cos i forgot to show people appreciative gestures, i forgot to tell people thank you and i forgot what's the most basic thing to do to keep r/s between people workable.

i m starting to dislike myself. if ever one day i were to die friendless.... i know why.