to those who are coming on sat... the nor hiang is ready!!! i'm so proud of myself! i know u guys will love me for it!

and OMG ANGEL!!!! i just read ur tag!! OMG OMG OMG!!! she's only a yr older than us right???? got pictures!??? ask her out la!! you closer to her right!!?? OMG OMG OMG!!!! OMG!!! got any links?? any blogs for me to read!??? OMG!!!

vday is coming and yes, my date is chin. this yr is a special year. cos i allow baby to slack on all the celebrations.. vday... how many days.. monthly affairs... all these he can slack abit or celebrate earlier.. but next yr... hee hee hee...... he will just die. i will always remember first vday... tt necklace gave in the cinema just when the show is abt to start. cassanova i remember. gosh, so dark, suddenly give me a package, like HOW TO SEE??? SO DARK CAN. and then pretend say wanan go toilet... but went down to get a bouqet of flowers for me. he pre-ordered i remember. SWEETNESS. then met up with some friends at pac coffee den went esplanade. those days still got go esplanade. nowadays... tt's luxury. no more! den den no dinner.. but cup noodles back home. classic. i will never forget. last yr.. hmmm. no flowers i remember.. how we celebrate. cannot really remember.. must pull out archives man! lol... first times are always the easiest to remember!

"your every word and endless promises.... how do i not love u more?"

a nice and sweet weekend spent. the long weekend just come and go in a blink of an eye. i cannot believe it but it's monday already and i have two tuitions later with 2 hrs in between to kill. wasn't it just yesterday mum, dad and i went to shop for the ingredients for the new year eve's steamboat reunion dinner? gosh.. the way time flies, it scares me.

thurs and fri were spent visiting. nothing much. every year without fail the visiting on second day will bore me. first day still not so bad. but everyone go like so many places on first two days, i add up two days worth of houses i go to and it's 3. tt's all! i notice a trend. everyone has psp. if not psp, they have nintendo ds and some even have gameboy to kill time. i think i need to invest in one next year. then i wun be so bored.

luckily, they boy came over on friday night. to keep me company and we spent time all the way till he booked in. his family dunno why so big, so much visiting to do. sat was spend on movie and our own mini steamboat reunion. the only regret was he didn't bring his vodka! steamboat plus liquor.. not a bad combi. sun was spend at yum cha. we wanted to go red star cos dear keep saying how nice how nice. oh wah.. the q was how nice how nice too. freaking long. dad was in a rush so he didn't want to q. den we went yum cha. alright but i think it's a little ex. oh, the reason why we go eat dim sum together was cos it's mum's bdae! so it's me, the boy, mum and dad. after which dear and i went funan, looking for his stuff and came home awaiting for book in.

i really enjoyed this weekend! one of the best. looking forward to this sat. steamboat at my place! and is anyone free this valentine's day? sad to say, but i'm free... =/

maybe i really need the break. not physically, but mentally. i've got to find my passion and my enthu back. i think and hope i can manage.

this cny better be good. cos i really need the break.

these days, i kept asking myself the same question again and again. how have i grown so far? then everytime i gave myself the same answers, no, i haven't grown at all. how am i different from the girl i was 3 years back? why am i still walking in circles. why haven't i grown stronger or more independent. i don't get it. issit that i don't try? but no, i did. i know i did. so why haven't i show progress.

why issit that silence still makes me insecured? why issit that neglect still makes me scared? why issit that when phone calls/smses not returned, the thought of being abandoned and thrown away haunts me. i keep living in the black hole that i dug for myself 3 years back. again and again.

oh well... happiness is that difficult to have. happiness just doesn't belong to me.

i dun understand why she must always do this type of things to make me worry. WHY!? grrr....

i m in a foul mood. mala will definitely cheer me up. yes, thank you very much for reminding me my puny and tiny social circle. something tt makes me so sad....

GRRRRR>>>>>

my yummy dinner! kembangan mee sua plus oyster egg!! =)

the 3 hour long king kong movie is being aired on scv, hbo channel. seriously when i watch it again, i couldn;t een last 3 mins and i will change channel. i couldn't sit and watch tt 3 hours long movie ever again. it's seriously boring and draggy know. and everytime i think this way, i will laugh at myself back then. why was it at tt point of time in 2005, i could sit still and watch tt movie? and share popcorn and drinks with the one beside me?!

haha.... amusing. seriously. we agreed half the time we are just enjoying the proximity and pretending to enjoy the show. it cracks it up everytime i think about it.

i m so bloated now. and tt's the results of being greedy.

we've checked in two years in this relationship. some people might say two years is short, some people might say it's long. well, to me, it's been a pretty eventful and meaningful two years. it's not short, but it's not long as compare to the many years we want to continue spending time with each other. in these 2 years, we've taught each other many things. and we learnt how to treasure and cherish each other. haha... i'm all alone on this special day with a beautiful bouquet of flowers at my side. but i know in the many years to come, i won't be.

Happy anniversary, my lover boy!

one fine sunday night, chin and i prepared ingredients to make won tons.

the triangular ones are the normal ones. try to be funny by making the round shape ones.

chin fying the won tons

TA-DA!!! end products!

here are some pictures we took for our pre-celebrated second year anniversary at Big Fish.

My all-time favourite warm chocolate souffle. doesn't look nice on the pic but it's deliciously yummy!

and the dinner ended with a kiss!

Some ghostly pictures we took while waiting for the bus.

and ta da!! my new nike dunks. aren't they pretty!?????

i had a pretty weird yet funny dream 2 nights back. it's funny to think back about it but i was scared awake then. i dreamt i bought won ton mee for my mum to eat. i was holding it when suddenly this piglet came charging at me and used his mouth to tear the packet of wonton mee out from my hands. it was furiously using its mouth to open the plastic container of wonton mee when i was trying to run away. when i turn back to take a look, it was charging at me again! (maybe cos he cannot open up the packet of wonton mee??) and as i was standing with feet apart, it stuck its head in between my legs! yuck.. i felt the pig's head and i shocked myself awake! scary...

and before this pig dream, i vaguely remember i dreamt baby and i went to gold class cinema to watch movie but dunno why, it was a horror movie and i dunno why we only got one seat so end up i have to sit on his lap. weird... a friday night that i didn't sleep much and ended so tired, and on sat night, i concussed close to 10 hours till this morning.

i'm actually feeling pretty sucky a few hours before the boy booked in, but with the cooling weather, and the 20 mins or so walk home, i kind of reorganised my thoughts and felt slightly better. not good, but not so foul like hours ago. and no, this has nothing to do with him booking in or him at all. it's just i look at my week that's about to start, i just kind of feel a sense of dread.

i don't like planning only week by week. i don't like the feeling of not being able to plan beyond a week. i don't like not being able to see what's going to happen after one week. basically, i don't like my life tt cannot see beyond a week. however, i tell myself, this is the life tt i need, not necessarily what i want, but definitely what i need. i need the income, i need to study. and i need to leave at least one and a half days of my weekends for the boy. and also, i need to feel some pressure and some stress in my life. the past half years of my so called academic life has been too easy. and it should not be the way. i also tell myself i need this. to learn how to cope with stress, to learn how to manage time etc.

so overall, this is something i need to do. of course, the easy life of slacking has to go. maybe tt's why i feel sucky. but it's time i learn how to start working hard for what i want and learn how to prioritise and manage my time properly. i believe i will emerge a stronger and better person. but right now, let me dwell a little how sucky this really feels.

today, very suddenly and abruptly, this beeper sounded really loud in my head. and since then, my head has been in a throbbing pain. i suddenly realise i don't have alot of time left before my first academic year ends and on top of that, the next mock that i really wan to go for and do well is next month. and though i don;t have the exam schedule yet, i got a feeling two papers fall on the same day, i think everything's piling on top of me. i cannot breathe!

while i was in class today, i started keying in figures into the calulator. i calculate roughly one week how much time i have.. minus tuition. minus sleep and minus weekends. minus travelling. i forgot what figure i came out with but i know i wasn't happy with what i saw. i think time's slipping away, running out and yet i'm still nowhere near. darn it! shit... overload overload.... i can already feel the amount of work piling up on top of me. and tuition... darn. shouldn't have took up a new one.. but the money.... i need. ARGGGGGHHHHH.... i wun have life very soon.

finally, it's down to the last day. 10 days so hard to get by... but one day is much much harder than ten days. so near yet so far!!!

sighhhhsssss

i started out the day with a dread. seriously, i don't like wednesday. but so funny, i have two friends who specially sms me to remind me about gg school today or should i say encourage me to go school. so i went and i was rewarded. the lecturer surprisingly volunteer extra help for me? and i think it's a one to one. and i was extra rewarded. finally got the type of tuition i want. but scary mans, two boys..... one boy already make me headache.. now two boys summore... =/

but i thank God for ending my wed in such a lovely way. it makes me look forward to friday even more.. to share this joy with my baby. lalalalalala

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"You are alert and your life is full of love. You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blosoom. You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it."

"You like adventure. You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reversed. "

my results from some fengshui horoscope thingy.... haha

i cannot skip class tmr. i cannot skip class tmr. i cannot skip class tmr. now, there u have it. i really cannot skip class tmr. it will be a trigger to unfortunate events from happening, like more skipping of classes. so i cannot skip class tmr. and like i keep sayin, i have a responsibility as a student so i cannot skip class tmr.

i'm so happy baby messages me every now and then. i wonder will his friends make him pay for part of the bill when he gets back. hopefully tmr will end quicky and friday will come fast. i miss the boy alot.

i had a relatively good weekend. quality time spent with people i want to spend time with. had a lovely time yesterday, riding bike and van, that's like a bus. all cravings satisifed. my kembangan mee sua, quail eggs and pasta. i would have love to eat vongole instead though but never mind, the big guy in brunei promised me big fish! yummmmy.... kemabangan mee sua is superb!! so is coin prata set!!! yummiiesss!! all the naggings and scoldings, embarrassments is nothing compared to what i got in return!!

i think time pass quite fast, before we knoe it, school starts. yes yes yes, all of us dread the start of school but do we have a choice? i wanted to revise before attending classes but laziness got in the way. every year without fail, i dun feel the anxious-ness kicking in about not studying or not putting in enough effort until after cny. between new year and cny, i still can kid myself or tell myself tt the yr is still young, it is only beginning. i still got time, and i should enjoy and relax more. den den den, only after cny, i start to panic. not enough time, regret big time, yet still as lazy as ever! gosh... old habits are hard to kick yea?

but i'm still as happy as i was on new year's day!! does tt count for something? i hope this happiness i found in within is something tt's going to stay in me for as long as it ccan stay. or is this just something sweet i m getting for something bad's tt going to come??

lalalala.... i love my friends, i love foood!! i hate the fats on my body though. i wanna slim down slim down. need a new pair of runnin shoes. i made my own salad today. niccceee... =)

i am suffering from serious cold turkey.... craving so strong i don't know what to do. my mee suaaaa.. i want my kembangan mee suaaa!!

quail eggs too!! pasta too!!! can i have all 3!!??? craving craving!!!

this was taken exactly one week ago. on social night last week. i adore this picture. niceeeeee