lots of mixed emotions as i woke up this morning, packed my newly-appointed "study table" and my bag to get ready for school. somehow, not even new stationery could cheer me up. i used to adore first days of school, cos i would definitely get a new bag for it, new stationery, new clothes sometimes too. maybe i'm not as excited this time round, cos i dun ve a new bag? but well, it could be the results that created immense pressure on me even before school officially starts. i know i can do it when i put my heart to it, it's just that i'm not sure my perserverence can hang in there till the next exams.

and as i try to relax, ripping cds into the the laptop that has just reformatted, i start to think about people's relationships with one another. as new friendship starts to bloom, does that mean the old ones are wilting? and even if the old ones are not wilting and dying away, are we putting in enough effort to make it stay alive or are we taking it for granted that it will always bloom for us as and when we want to. is it that difficult to juggle new and old stuff @ the same time? i'm beginning to think maybe it's not difficult to balance it but one of it is definitely priority over the other whether we want to admit or not. and we play different roles to different people's lifes as well. we'll be happy for the new friendship but if i were to belong to old friendship, i'll feel sad about it.

and now, as i carry a injured lower back, and a sore throat, i'll have to prepare more positivities as i step into my new school year.