SATC never fails to make me smile, to make me laugh, to make me touched.... the fabulous friendship that the characters share. at the really end of the day, having great friends to stick by you through every major or minor things in your life is the best blessings that one can have. and i'm always always thankful i have these bunch of friends who stick by me... during my grumpy and crazy times. Had one of the loveliest sat with the girls... HUGS. i cannot wait for the next SATC to come out.

Caught my sister's keeper today... and i cried buckets. like seriously.. and it was a really nice coincidence that GV gave out free packets of tissue today at the ticket counter. I'm not too sure if they gave out to only people who's watching my sister's keeper? but according to e boy, they dun give out to everyone... and on top of that, the cover of the tissue is not all that appropriate in the first place.. i mean hello, DARAH? with that scary woman... i told him to tear it away. i just wan the tissue which in the end serve its very good purpose. and ch is right... man has a gift and that is the fact that they know how to suck the tears right back in. it's a really nice show.. i read in the papers the ending is different from the book's? anyone read the book? wad's the ending like?

and so, there are times like tonight that i looked at my blog and realised i've neglected it. totally... and that i really really wanna do something about it. i hereby promise i will try to blog more often... words can be so communicative? some thoughts that i dunno who to tell... and as i type.. it just flows... so yea... i will tlry to blog more often. i'm sure i do have tt small handful of readers out there still.... i think.

anyone know about the show, A Christmas carol? or caughter the trailer? i'm so tickled by it...

"Disney's A Christmas Carol," a multi-sensory thrill ride re-envisioned by Academy Award-winning filmmaker Robert Zemeckis, captures the fantastical essence of the classic Dickens tale in a groundbreaking 3-D motion picture event. Ebenezer Scrooge (Jim Carrey) begins the Christmas holiday with his usual miserly contempt, barking at his faithful clerk (Gary Oldman) and his cheery nephew (Colin Firth). But when the ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and Yet to Come take him on an eye-opening journey revealing truths Old Scrooge is reluctant to face, he must open his heart to undo years of ill will before it's too late.

SCROOGE!! HAHAA.... abit of a private joke... but yea... it's really funny when xin pointed it out to me.

A beautiful weekend yet again. Nothing happens by chance... everything is planned.. Tmr signing the contract. gosh.. nervous yet excited.. yet feel so unreal.. yet yet yet.... oh well.. lemme settle wad i m going to wear first...

i hate nights like this. much more than nights which darkness could swallow me whole or nights which loneliness engulfed me entirely... i really beautiful days that end on such a bitter night! yuck!!

i always seem to make the wrong choice! yuck yuck!

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nothing beats a doting boyfriend and i want to declare it proudly, in anyway i want.

i m a happy girl!! a start of a happy weeekend!

the best type of kisses in the world are kisses on the forehead. at least for me, that's definitely the sweetest type that I like.

these days, I've been living my life in a rush. i rush to work in the morning, cos i dun wanna be there later than 9, not even a min, i rush back tampines on days i have tuition which is at least 3 days a week for this month, cos it's the exam month. I guess weekday are like that, especially for the working pple. I do envy those who are going on holiday like one colleague of mine and friends who are going holiday at the end of the year. i also look forward to this particular sat, where i can spend the whole entire day with the boy. how long has it been since we had one full day tgt.... even though we wun exactly be by ourselves on that day itself... but i m looking forward to starting the day with u and ending it with u.

an apple a day keeps the doctor away. a kiss a day makes my blues away.

im in very good mood today. =) and when i look at my bank account balance and saw that the pay is in.. it simply made my day!

another great weekend spent though the weekend is not exactly over yet. but i know tmr will be just as nice as today.

i did something that i never thought i would. i actually queeue 20 mins or so for nasi lemak!? chin and i went changi village cos i was craving for nasi lemak. went there in the rain.. q in the hot hawker centre and den got a little impatient so i went to sit at some nearby seats while chin continued to q for me. haha... the place is smoky and stuffy... but i keep telling myself determination and perserverence will pay off.. and it did. the nasi lemak rox. maybe it's cos this entire week i have been starving myself, ill-treating my tummy. i will try not to do that next week, esp when i have intensive tuition and all. october will pass by in a flash. i know it will. which reminds me.. i need to go book my dentist appointment sooon. working life makes things not easy at all.

i'm very happy that you took the extra effort. i never thought after this long, the sparks and chemistry that i always talk of can still be flying in the air. no matter what happens, i'll always remember this blissful moment in my life.

if it's my efficiency that caused myself to do the extra work, i would just get upset with myself and frustrated but with myself. but it's not my inefficiency that made me work so late!! n i'm really pissed off about it....

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felt much better after a pot of clam chowder... and yes, that's my dinner. i'm just worried abt tmr. how to finish the load of REPEATED WORK!!!!!!!!

arggg!!! clam chowder is not enough!!!!!

it's thursday and i am looking forward to friday cos i know it will end nicely. then a nice weekend will be spent with family, friends and my boy. though more time will be spent away from the boy but nvm, we'll make use of friday night after work.

work does get mundane on some days, but i'm getting used to it. i wun sae i hate it, in fact i'm ok to it to a certain extent. it opens me and show me what i might like and what i might not. time is on my side as of now and i'm going to make the best out of it and plan something for myself.

one big problem and that's money. it's not coming in faster than i would have like it to. i wanna change and revamp my whole wadrobe, the working clothes section. dunno where to start from and where to get the money from. grrrr.... but nonetheless......

i love weekends! =)

i have a love hate affair with public holidays. i love the fact that it gives me a longer weekend spent with the boy but i hate the fact that i go back to alot of piled up work waiting for me. haha... it's only singapore's public holidays, not other countries' that's why we have the piled up amount of work to do when we get back. i guess the long holiday is to prepare us for one of the busiest morning ever and the most rushed through lunch since i started work. o well... busy is good in a way also la, times flies.

i'm so glad the boy stays near where i stay. there's always a quick dinner together, taking the same bus home together. such short periods of time totally end my day on a happy note. it makes the day more bearable and it makes me dread tmr lesser as well.

do u noe soyjoy is really very nice. i take a bar with me to work nowadays, cos in case i get hungry in the afternoon or something. it's really v tasty, very much to my surprise. it's a tad too ex though. 1.85 for one.. tt's close to 2 dollars for at most 5 bites! maybe i should switch to quaker? or uncle toby... but soyjoy is really nice!!!! hahaa

how fast the past 3 days pass and here i m preparing for work tmr already. this is what working life is about yea? but at least i know i have a fruitful and nice weekend to look forward to every week. just that this coming week will be grandma's bdae celebration then watching a play on sunday too. katong laksa still on?

when i was at kino the other day, this book caught my attention. the title is how to spend less or something along that line. i flipped to the introduction page and the author said, if u picked up this book, it more or less show u know u are spending out of ur line and that u want to do something about it. haha.. yes i know, i need to save. big time.... i should really start organising my finances somehow, and save. no more nice foood for me, which is goood cos i am going to go on a diet, i am trying!!!!! =/

motivation, encouragement, love and care are all things i thrive on.

the man just don't get it. best slogan ever.

i love long weekends, i love sweet and nice weekends. i really do. but i hate the nagging feling somewhere at the back of my head telling me it's going to end soon or that work and sian-sation is waiting ahead of me.

and some silly boy just dun get any hints i gave him, and i tell u it's very obvious ones. i didn't even bother trying subtle ones!

it's a really goood day, a good start to the long weekend. maybe cos i started work, weekend seems more precious, sweeter? i m not entirely sure. maybe it's the alpha that i m attending, making the weekend feel so good? i really don't know. but i'm still smiling in front of the com now.

i had a really good day, good foood, good company and ended it on a sweet note. we had so much fun with 'The Ugly Truth", it really amazes me how long i've spent with this guy of mine and yet looking forward to more. God works in amazing way.... i don't doubt, i just wait and trust and on days like this, he simply brings me to cloud 9 and let me linger on.

i'm really happy. a nice weekend to compensate a decision made. =)

I don't know if I'd made the wrong choice. It's too early to tell. Maybe it's the fact that circumstances keep working against my favour.

Woke up at 5 to study and yet I don't feel like I'm ready, or rather I should say I don't feel refreshed and alert enough to be ready for the paper later. I'll do my best, all right but I can't wait to jump into bed at a super early time tonight already.

I just need a energy boost, somewhere, somehow to get me through this. Weekends therapy might help or maybe after 2 weeks or so, everything would have more or less settled.

i don't know... i can't think straight.

I read something today which made me deeply moved. Maybe at this point of time, it's still abit too complex for someone like myself to comprehend. but i'm going to remind myself, esp in times of needs that God always has a plan for us somehow.

It's coming into mind september already. i sometimes remind myself of a struggling person, maybe in waters. There's a log nearby and all i have to do is reach out to it and i can be saved, at least temporary. but yet, i refused to do so, i'm still trying to wait for an airplane to come, or even a boat, anything but that log. however, that log after so long, is still there... and i'm still waiting in vain. what am i looking for actually. i find it too tiring to go think, figure out or analyse. i want to do something for myself. something i can proudly declare the results of my determination.

somehow, i do feel good. despite of everything else in my life. i really do feel good. these few days.. i keep day dreaming, of somewhere in the future in about 5 yrs time. usual silly me. oh well....

i'm really angry with myself for the lack of discipline. i'm getting lazier and it's not benefiting me in anyway. why can't i do something about it.

help!!!!!

this weekend HAS TO BE PUT TO GOOOD USE!

i hate myself for being so weak and vulnerable. i hate myself for caring so much. the old saying is so true. the one who cares more loses most. being selfish seems like a better way out of this mess. i hate this feeling inside me. i hate it... time is on my side... and i hate it. i know what having time can do to me. i hate it. yucks.. everything sucks. big time!

love, hope and faith.... is all being put to test. and hope is plunging way down.

i have to say this is one of the best birthdays i had ever have. and strangely, this is not because of what i did or gifts i receive, but cos of all the well wishes i got from many people. people i know and people i've not seen for quite some time. it's really very endearing. how simple happiness can be. it's just very nice to know my friends care and i feel so so so loved!

but i still need to give an update how my birthday went right? hahaa.. am sure some people out there are curious, maybe, maybe not. just a record of it for myself to read it in the future den.

i waited for chef Tan to come over my place to cook me lunch.. seeing him busy in the kitchen... washing up the dishes, cooking the meal for me and making cosmopolitan for me, can't help but smile. den it was The Proposal, movie at downtown east den we took bus down to parkway parade... met nic's mum and ate dinner together. den after dinner, nic and i walked from parkway parade all the way down to ice cream chef to get one cup of ice cream. it's not the ice cream that made me smile and feel blissfully happy.. is the walk. i love taking long walks with my dear one, though i feel bad when i see perspiration forming on his forehead and neck.

finally we cabbed home and i have chin spending the last few minutes of my birthday with me. am i allowed to be so happy on a single day? i feel something bad would come my way somehow?? like job finding will be futile and all? (i'm trying not to think of money and job search issue the whole day) but true happiness is all i feel today..

i learnt that without expecting alot.... u actually receive so much more... Thank you everyone who played a part for my birthday and all the well wishes!! thankkkk uuuuuu

i'm terribly terribly upset. it's not working out.... i feel suffocated. i dun get respect for my privacy, for things i want to do, what i wear, who i want to hang out with and the list goes on. I know this shouldn't go on, someone has to do something about it.

it all boils back down to the same old stuff. i hate this place call.....

it's been a very long day. and i came home with blisters. at least 3 big ones. i even had to wear socks at home cos when my blistered foot touched the floor, it's very very painful.

one saddening interview.... and though i was exposed to this side of the world but it was a very very disappointing one. i think i was more disappointed with myself more than anything.

well.. the happy thing is i get to eat chix ballotine from Miss Clarity. and i get to meet my all time fav girl.

den tuition.....

den back home... with the v v v v sore legs.. wonder how i m gg to manage with heels tmr

It's time to sit down, collect my thoughts properly and then plan and decide what's the next step I should take. There are things to be done, people to be met. Time for the list to be put to use again. I have a rough direction now but certain things still can't be rushed. That I know...

Now that my dearest friend is back... the more i should organise and collect my thoughts properly. I want to accomplish and complete some tasks or take on new ones, I wouldn't mind that too. Anyway... I know this is pretty old stuff but i cannot seem to be able to find it anywhere. Anyone knows where I can get a cup cover? I have cups and I wanna drink my tea hot, but i don't have cup cover at home, don't know where to get it from either. pls tell me if anyone knows. best if can buy one set, the cup and cover one set.

time to be a regular blogger again!

seriously.... it's not as easy as time goes by. i always thought being in a r/s is only about 2 parties, den gradually, i learnt that it is not but does it have to be this bad? why am i so trapped in between? i wanan be neutral.. yet i wanna have a stand?

i think everything can be solved once i get a job? i really hope so? i feel so sad now.... this is my life? gosh..... i totally lost it.