Do you know that there's going to be a Monopoly Competition coming soon in Singapore? 4-5 April. As quite a big fan of Monopoly, i'm kinda quite excited about it. but i'm all alone in this enthusiasm. So it's hard to feel like joining, with no one who can accompany you to do so. Oh well, i still think it's quite exciting.

My mum left the house around 5 plus this morning so by the time i wake up, she's gone, suddenly the house seemed quieter and i do miss having a presence at home. maybe not the voicem is the presence. and coming home to a quiet house knowing she wun come back at 10pm.. it's quite freaky. hmm.. maybe i'm not tt ready to move out of myself after all.. i'm not too sure.

it's a tiring day. anyway... i was thinking do i sound like i m complaining abt my bf all the time... or grumbling abt him? don't get me wrong know, he's great. he's cute, he's silly. he's my bf. haha.. just that i think if i go all gooey or lovey dovey on my blog abt stuff we do or he said... u guys wouldn't want to read right... i hate reading such blogs.. like tooo sweet. so i try not to do it. but dun think my bf is mistreating me, k. for the most part of it no la.. but he's nice la. in a blokish way. haha

i m tired!

the weather is reallt killing me. i know some people will think, no biggie, cos they might not sleep in aircon daily. but for me.. i'm very used to it already. further more, i am someone who prefer being frozen to death than having the heat get the better of me. so with ushc hot weather and plus those who come my house should know how hot it is. without aircon.. i m really dying! =/

finally finished my cfp module 3 exam. after studying for quite some time until i feel so saturated yet i still left the room after the paper feeling quite shitty as well. no girl gets lucky twice in a row right? well.... what surprises me is when i came out of the room, the boy is THERE already. must be come out very early. we got posted to different rooms u see... Choo and Tan. before he left me in my room, he was like choo la choo! haha

no brunch after that but we did get to go Vivo. and tt's like after a v v v long time since i last went. i'm pretty sure it's been more than a year.

i love spending time with him. but seriously.... he's soo irritating! he loves smacking my face.. can u guys believe it!?? will u ever treat ur gf like that~!!! qing qu he calls it. let me give him some credit, k? being a blokish guy all of u guys noe.. he can be really sweet sometime. totally unexpected and he himself dun even noe it's sweet. curious curious? ask me... =)

so now back to exams business. determines my graduation. mummy is going on a holiday tmr. to taiwan for 5 days. finally, she's getting some life. i'm happy for her. i need some getting used to coming back home to empty house... but i noe once i get used to it.. she would b back.

and thanks jie for mob tv. haha!! i m so enjoying!

gosh, i'm being punished for some things i did in the past year or whatever. the hottest period of singapore and my air con is broken down! mum dun seem to have the intension to fix it and i'm feeling hot and sweaty in my own house! no air no air!!!!!!!

sent yan off.... finally left the few of us from xcyflawx (i forgot the one added with yan) in singapore. exams are drawing nearer, i need more strength and determination. i need to focus, deprive myself of life and totally focus.

baby's birthday coming... 100000 things not done!!!!

boon. i'm touched, u left comments on the first 3 entries! ahahhaa.... =)

still recovering from my wounds, though it's painful and not that i don't wanna qing cao you, it's more of cing cao you is painful and if i put den go to bed, sure stain the bedsheets!!! =( not sure if i can run tmr, but of course, not an excuse. although although...... i might have stretched a muscle.... hahaha.. excuses.

i'm trying to blog more often here.. but putting effort into my baby too.. hey friends... do go there... give comments, k? it's effort.. dun be too judgemental! ahahhaa..

here's the baby:

www.redstripesgreencircles.blogspot.com

maybe i was born a klutz but i only knew it now. when i think back, as far as my memory can stretch, there were lots of instances that suggested i was one. first day in primary school where i had the older student bringging me to tour around the school, i was this mini park we had and attempted to run over. i tripped and fell on the road. and that's how i knew where the teacher's staff room was then. I had to apply medication there. of course, there were other instances when i got ahead of myself in PE classes, running around, sprinting or whatever i as doing, i also fell. it's always the scrapping of knees or elbows. not to forget, palms too.

when i grew older, that was when i realised i could also trip over myself while playing ball games with my peers. be it captain's ball or basketball. there goes the knees again. and sometimes if i was unlucky enough, i could even sprain the ankle, which i did and had to go to a chinese sinseh to get it treated. i kinda pulled a muscle at the ankle i think.

and of course as i grew even older, i do trip over my own legs and then give lame excuses like my legs are too long and such. but i somehow managed to stable myself before i land on the ground. and now that i have nic with me, he's always there for the extra tug back if i was going to land forward. so i thought somehow, i'm quick enough to make myself steady or fast.

or so i thought. cos yesterday, just because i was a little lost, i panicked and quickened my pace, either my so called long legs somehow tangle or i tripped over something not even on the ground, but i landed hard on my left side. nothing too serious, just scrapped a knee, an ankle and my palms. when u injured ur palm.. or hand for that matters, it's very difficult to do anything cos everytime u move it.. or touch water, it hurts. it doesn't mean u are injured, u dun have to wash ur daily laundry you know. then i found out, somehow i injured my right last toe as well. only found out today.

so finally, i conclude..i m a klutz

Looks very creepy yea... my big boy loves to play with dry ice...

i know i haven't been blogging really often.. blame it on laziness, studying and my big baby project. can't wait for it to be launched!

it's less than 2 months to my exams, i'm v v v stressed. i feel so unprepared and i got no skeleton to follow what to do. i work best with a skeleton and i can work even more efficiently with a draft as to what to do. damn... right now, i just have to go intensive revision faithfully and hope that somehow, it motivates me and i can see a direction as to how to begin.

it's been so long yet some prejudice seemed to stay. i keep telling myself time will make it all better, but humans are so stubborn. or issit everyone around me are particularly thick in the head. words dun seem to go in.. neither are they very good at communicating their thoughts or opinions to me without me blowing up. need to curb my temper as well.

some people might think i got no life. but i'm happy being the stay-home girl as i am. why do people always put down others? to make themselves feel better? i dun blame them actually, i blame myself for being so weak willed and not able to stick to my own view, stick to what i think makes me happy.

caught Marley and Me yesterday and towards the end of the show, i have a girl beside me sniffing, a girl in front of me leaning in towards her bf's shoulders while he patted her on the head. and somewhere someone is tearing the tissue out or some sort, and further away, someone else is sniffing as well. lots of sniffing and lots of tissue sound. it's a great show seriously.. very heartwarming family type of show. the last time i felt THIS way about any movie is actually Click. and to think in the morning after my usual run, i was telling nic, no i don't want a dog. totally changed my mind. and of course my silly bf had to whisper, quite loudly, are u crying!? isn't that an understatement already. haha.... so him.

somewhere down the afternoon.. i forgot exactly what we were toking about but most probably me kicking up a fight of sort sort.. but he was saying.. we should have been the happiest couple around. hmmm... he never said that before and this got me thinking whether my unnecessary fight picking skills is the crucial part to us not getting it perfect. and den a few hours later.. he was threatening me not to post up his cylops look alike picture. haha.... well, i really won't dare to do it for who knows what he will do for me. seriously, did i sae we are a steady bland boring couple? think i have to take it back.

I thought this heart shaped chicken look really interesting. couldn't resist taking a picture of it. and after which i was told my KIA bf that chicken breast is often shaped this way. he never fails to make me stupid.. =/

i've got another sunday to look forward spending it with him. let me just stay this contented and blessed for a while before i think of getting my skills up another notch.

march is going to be the beginning.

let's have some non food related posts. slightly downcasted by my failure to cook decent prawn paste chicken on sunday but i will improve. the boy said that i m far far far from being a chef. and he's not the least bit kind in his words. hmph.

had a pretty nice day today. he finally went to finish up with his applications and all, now just have to wait for applications to be approved.

i just woke up 2 hours earlier than normal.. and i m so darn tired the whole day.... =/

i m already counting down to end of may... while the guys are counting down to ord.

finding the last person who love me enough to buy me a book!

On a saturday night... it's home cooked meal yet again.

Starting off with healthy stuff... fruit salad... there's lettuce.... and strawberries as u can see... cherry tomatoes are alwaysa must. and dried cranberries which we put for a change. not too bad.. a sweet and healthy starters!

My home made pasta yet again. and this time i tried out penne with chicken. that's bacon bits u see on top as well. hmmm.. my pasta sauce ar got lots and lots of room for improvement! hope to do better. the next time i post on pasta will definitely be a item that i m satisfied with.

The spread before us! and notice, we are really getting healthies.. Yakult ar.. we also drink Yakult Light.

And of course, not forgetting desserts! my all time favourite meiji yogurt! i love the mixberry in particular!

i'm supposed to be studying right this minute. but somehow, i don't feel the urge to do it. i feel like screaming, i feel like yelling, i feel like running away. i'm not feeling THAT extreme.. but i feel like i got alot in my mind and due to lack of memory space.. i can't seem to recall the things i have to do abt my life right now.

thurs are such tiring days to study. i can't wait for the weekends. i'm not even talking coherrently.

Boo

i have to say this, Breakout was amazing! Excellent... very nice. i love the dance... and pardon my ignorance or stupidity(according to the boy), i realise why is it call breakout only today. Breaking out of jail... and all the while, i thought they call it breakout cos it's related to break dancing.. which it is.. but not the reason why they call it breakout. okok.. silly me. well.. i love it!!! totally made this day so much nicer!!!! vday with the boy has never been this good.

so that's it for my very special v-day. plus dinner at our lao di fang of course... =) definitely a good day and will be remembered down the road. =)

It's burger day! seriously... it's successful and even the monster gave me 9 marks, out of 10. that's mashed potato at the side, on top of lettuce with two tomatoes at the side.


and ta-da! this is my chicken patty!! it's really successful this time. not hard at all. it's even a little juicy!! lalala... i can make burgers!!! ought to improve on the taste... i find it a tad too bland, though monster said it was fine. i'm happy.


sent off my dearest girlfriend today in the morning. hmmm.. what kind of feeling is that.... a little sad, a little longing, a little this and a little that. all mixed together. but i'm still glad i went. and i will miss her.. for these 6 long months to come. somewhere along the road.. i will definitely feel her absence... den i would get emo and flood her with a long email. haha.. i'm v capable of that. well.. all the best my girl! hugssss!

is it wishful thinking on my part to dream of romance and sweetness once again?

It's Japanese Day! we both agree it's a fattening day though.. haha.

our usual sashimi with kikoman soy sauce plus wasabi.

Our new addition, besides the usual rolls and sashimi that we will have. His favourte Salmon Don... i told him, eh? the seaweed like not much taste ar.. den he sae.. that one for decorative purpose! haha... i decorated the borders with the cucumbers! so cute right!

i lazy to put up the pictures of the sushi rolls, look pretty much the same everytime. with eggs and cucumber and all. but this is the best Japanese Day we ever had, with vinegar in the rice.. with wasabi and nice soy sauce. haha... the level of authencity!

i'm looking forward to V-Day... and dreading the end of Chinese New Year

Whether we are growing older or younger as each day passes, whether we are prolonging our life with the latest medical science or trying to look like we did 20 years ago, death is inevitable. however, on our deathbeds, do we have a great story of our lives to share? was it pure dressing up to the nines, dolling ourselves up, buying the most expensive brands, going to the most happening places, plotting how to make the husbands stay or die, in the case of insurance money, is our life worth any bit to share with people?

i've been focusing so much on how to doll myself up, feeling so upset that i can't look better, envious of what so many women had. i forgot slowly and gradually, i'm neglecting what i have on the inside. at our funerals, do we want people to only remember our big diamonds, fancy cars, great skin, white straight teeth, healthy hair? perfect weight, slender hips? or do we wanna hear stuff like she was a great mother. or daddy would have supported me regardless wad happens or she was a woman of her times, a loss to us. does it still matter how we look if we were leading life to our fullest, defined by ourselves. what do we wanna be? happy on the inside or happy on the outside for all to see. it's a choice we make.

recently, i told amelia to look out for signs when u are making decisions. well.. it's to ease her and after all i m a believer of signs. signs are everywhere and everything is something to inspire or to teach us something. Like if we never lose someone we love, how would we had known that they were important? everyday we wake up alive is a blessing. i'm beginning to love Fridays, despite night classes (esp now that chin dun wanna send me home and i have to take cab but it's not important). it's on fridays when i have time to myself, to soak in the solitude of it all, to appreciate, to reflect. when that time stood still for me, i totally forgot i m a city girl. Life itself truly is amazing and i got to do what i want to do. no hesistation, if i don't do now, when then can i do the things.

John Grisham never fail to amaze with the plot and this twist to the story. once again, i'm mesmerised.

my new shopping motto for the year, and this motto exludes books or comics:

Never be in a rush to get anything, always wait for sale maybe, or just wait till i dun feel like getting it anymore.

i've got so many things to do, from not so important things like sending out my warranty cards, to super important things like mugging for my exams and then on to life and death things. haha... last part was an exaggeration but it's life changing things, like getting a job, starting my career as well as taking up more responsiblities at home, starting from handling my own phone bill. it's right on top of the list.

recently, my dad seemed very addicted to wathcing those very very old dramas, those kind act and sing, very very olden days with all the costumes and chinese instruments playing in the background. we're having this channel for free trial till 12 Jan and somehow, daddy seemed very stuck to it. haha.. it's funny la. musical began such a long time ago. there's this scene that got the both of us cracking up, and mind you, i wasn;t wacthing.. but the tv's on right in front of me.

there's this scene.. this servant girl got beaten up darn badly and was about to die... she could still stand up, stagger abit though and SING... for quite some time. cannot stop laughing until she fall down and die. i was half thinking she would stand and sing again lo. hahaa. not being mean here. i just cannot appreciate it. generation gap?

i feel so sick going to school lately. serious feeling darn sian about it.

there are things i don't want to dwell on, cos i'm still trying to sort out my feelings within. i always thought i'm a very extreme person. someone who knows my feelings straight away and act upon them. when i'm happy, i laugh i bounce, when i m angry, i shout and got very irritated with everyone around me. and when i'm hingry and tired, i get grumpy. however, there are still certain issues that came to me and i don't know how to feel. it's the second time in the year already. i need time to sort out. and then i would know how to feel thus, wad to do about it.

a very nice cny gathering indeed. girly session.. tok tok, laugh laugh. though times like this is rare, cos it's quite impossible to gather everyone at times but with one session like this... i can be contented for at least 6 more mths. no more than that! hahaha....

the future seemed uncertain but we have to make the effort in everything we do. if u want something badly, u got to work towards it. cos i believe everyone is within our reach so as long as we give it all. so with the cny holiday coming to an end.. it's serious mugging time. no more vww, no more shows on tudou and of course less storybooks and comics... study study study.

and just to remind myself one day when i read my archives... i love that boy of mine very much at this point of time. uncertainties are bound to exsit along this road.. but i want to remember now and record it down. seriously.. 3 years ain't easy, especially for me. but i'm glad we stick on... let's just have to see where the future and God has to lead us to den.

nights everyone. love all u girlfriends i have out there! muacks...

i always thought i'm a traditional girl. i love the traditions and i follow them but of course i come to realise, i observe the traditions selectively. i don't observe all traditions but only those i like. well.. i'm still a city girl at heart i guess.. a city girl who tries to follow traditions. but this can't be helped. after all, we watched american style movies, read Candace Bushnell's novels. what's then the traditions in the asian way as compared to those of the western country? that's why mum and i are always disagreeing. she's much too traditional, without any movement in her mindset. still stuck in the sixties. seventies i think.

but she's trying to improve.. and i'm trying to accept, it's very difficult, especially with a wide gap of thirty years... there's a limit to how much compromise one can make, be it her or me. but we try.

this cny hasn't been a big hoo ha for me. used to love cny... bu i guess, my feelings for it is totally different now. have i grown older? outgrown it? maybe the time will come when i will get all excited again, and that's when all of us are old, have our own familes and children, where we can visit homes of our friends.. and talking of old stories.. maybe that's a different feeling for cny then.

yes i noe i am fat. =/ dun feel attractive anymore

another nice weekend spent. nothing special.. juts doing last minute shopping, not that i need to spend that much, i'm already very broke by the way. however, temptations are everywhere and it's not helping that there are still sales here and there.

2 chinese movies and both with local actors/actresses, i must say the boy has been very much accomodating in this aspect. he's just so mischeiveous at times that i feel like ignoring him the whole day. cos he can really tick me off.... so irritatinngggg but i can't ccos i'm not an angry person by nature unlike him.. who can flip as and when.. i shouldn't be bitching, oops. but well.. this is us.... back and forth, here and there.

so chinese new year eve. second year that my small fmaily of 3 decided to do it on ourselves. usually, we dine somewhere. like my gm's place. this year, i feel slightly more useful.. cos i am given the most important task of all.. preparing of soup base! very excited about this year's steamboat.. haha.. u girls would know why.

can't wait for this sat! =)