i started the day as per any other day until i received a email. such things do happen, i know. but at the start of the year? how sad is that. i need to grow up, i need to learn, i need to control my emotions, i need to open up. why are there so much things to learn to deal with day to day stuff and to deal with people.

i am sniffing like mad now, nose so pain and feeling so jaded.



thanks to b, he brought me to sushi tei, that kinda perked my day a little, i need the weekend to recuperate. anyway, this is their winter promotional items, squeeze rice in squid thingy. the sauce abit sweet.

I'm a super boring loner today.

I went to office slightly later today around 11 and i thought to myself, eh, i should try some of the stalls in ah moy that always has alot of people q-ing for. And recently watched this food show by bryan wong. he recommended this hakka yong tau foo, which i thinking what is so special about. Apparently, they sell 猪肠粉 together with their ingredients. I am not a fan of it so i took just bee hoon soup. Look at before and after I buy.



And that is not even 12 noon. I think the q gets longer.

This is what i had for lunch and dinner.



So boring right. I now end up craving for alot of things. Like Mac's twister fries, korean fried chicken, kembangan mee sua. And the list goes on. I'm so sad i lost my food buddy. =(

i read the Life section of the papers today. Thought this is interesting. 12 must-go places in 2012:

1. Laos
And we can get there in 3 hours! Best time to visit is from Nov to Jan.

2. London
Because they will be hosting the summer olympic games from july 25 to august 12! The royal family is there too!

3. Bhutan
They won the happiness level thing right? Haha!

4. Netherland
For the some flower event, best time to visit is April 5 to October 7.

5. Myanmar

6. Korea
I really want to go!!! They say Yeosu for a world expo to be held there from may 12 to aug 12.

7. Taiwan
To cycle! Best time to visit is sep to nov when rates for hotel are not marked up and the weather is fairly warm and dry

8. Warsaw
For the football fever.

9. Slovenia

10. Belfast
Something about them rebuilding a replica of the Titanic

11. Helsinki

12. US

I'm not so adventurous at the moment (will i ever be?), so i really wanna explore the southeast asia countries more. and places such as taiwan, korea and japan are top on my list on top of the rest of the south east asia countries.

B recently got hooked onto 'You're beautiful", a korean drama. Don't laugh at him, he's really quite addicted to it. i didn't watch with him, maybe just a few mins here and there, but it reminds me of the drama above, 'Coffee Prince' and so someone like me who loves to watch repeated shows couldn't resist but started watching it again.

the scenes i laughed and the many many scenes i cried for. there is this scene where the female lead is so cute, went in to hug the mum when she sleeping to tell the mum she has someone she likes and that she is going to confess she is a girl. the mum hugged her and say it's hard on you. that kind of encouragement and assurance from a mum to a child. there goes my tears again. silly me, I KNOW!



did i add that i love love love the second female lead, she is so pretty, i like her features, like her figure, like her hair!!!! i'm never the kind that will go ooh and ahh for male leads, but for pretty ladies, i will! haha! maybe it is plastic. korean plastic seems to be doing quite well. and success rate and results seems to be satisfactory. maybe i should consider.

first thing i learnt for the new year-- everyone has their own boiling point and it really differs from person to person. when my mum is freaking mad, i find that really funny. however when she makes me boiling hot, she finds it very funny as well. like now, she's angrily packing the mess at the balcony. my huge and tall stack of newspaper, and suddenly, she found a packet of rubbish. I don't know when i left it there and forget to throw, must be quite a while because it's starting to smell. She went hysterical but i found that really funny!

my memory is really getting from bad to worse, what should i do ar? ginko? maybe this is the retribution for laughing at evelyn last time. haha! and i better start remembering my rubbish, mummy just threatened if i forget again, she will make me eat up the rubbish! and i'm laughing out loud again. freaking funny! hahaha

Happy new year from the both of us! Our first picture taken at the strike of 00:00.



We even reviewed our last year resolution together, i did most of the things i wanted to. probably just the exercising part and the saving part. haha! Anyway, 2012 will be a better year for that!



It has indeed been a meaningful weekend thus far and I'm looking forward to a cosy Sunday evening together, with homecooked meal and lost of quality time spent. One of my resolution this year is to have a to-do list. Don't know why but my memory is getting from bad to worse, if i don't start a to-do list and follow through, i will not be half as efficient as i wanted to be.

B and I want for MCP counseling yesterday and there were a lot of take aways. We have to work on our conflict management, not that it is really bad now or that we have huge issues. In fact, we have petty issues but it is good to be able to talk it out and dialogue it. It definitely helped to improve our r/s, especially since we have been dating for a long long time, like coming 6 years this 22nd. A long, constant and steady r/s has its pros and cons. I shall not name the pros which will go on and off. The cons will be taking each other for granted and definitely assuming we understand every aspect of what each other wants all the time. Which may not necessarily be true. Anyway, we did a wishlist individually for what we hope we can have more or less in our r/s. I thought it is a good thing to do on top of our resolutions together on a yearly basis. Not so much a demand list, but rather it's good to talk about things. I love talking. =) =)

Ok, time to go help him out in kitchen. Tata. Happy 2012 everybody. This year will be great, if you believed in it!

Good morning people! Pardon my enthu-ness for blogging. God knows how long this will last. Haha!

Had a lovely Friday evening. Prepared grilled chicken salad for dinner.




I was cutting up the ingredients when suddenly i thought to myself, at the rate we are eating salads, we should invest in a salad spinner! the more i thought of it, the more i wanted it. so after dinner, we end up at ikea and courts. I love going such places at night, too bad they are not 24/7.



Had a bump into with Jeffrey. What are the chances? It's good to know that everyone is doing fine and looking forward to the new year.

Woke up in the morning to prepare breakfast. I love to display my breakfast in a pretty way. It always makes me happy. But of course preparing it for someone a little bit dense (a little!!) is always a bit exasperating. Cos he couldn't tell that it was a flower!! I mean, obvious right! haha!



Anyway, hope everyone have a fun time counting down to 2012. I have my own fair share of things lined up. =) =) I will update soon!

whee! i am so happy with my new blogskin.

new year, new beginning and time to blog more often. A piece of exciting news --> redstripesgreencircles is back!



And to make it a complete year, i finished my puzzle!! It took me roughly 8 months to complete it but that is because i got caught up with work and neglected it for a while. did the puzzle on and off, got bored a while but now that it's completed, i'm so proud of myself. I'm not sure why but I have this thing for puzzle since young and it always makes me very happy to be able to piece up the picture piece by piece. Am going to embark on the next project next year. mr Tan wants me to do the Lord's supper. Challenging but interesting! =)

it's going to be a eventful weekend, with lots to think about and planning to do for the new year. 2012, here i come!

1431

the exciting days to come.

2076

the sweet memories shared.

happiness comes from being able to share this joy. happiness comes from seeing others genuinely happy for us. happiness comes from looking at him and smiling from within. i am finally able to 'move on'. sounds weird, i know.

i thank God for looking out for us, for planning every stage of our lives for us, for knowing what is best for us and giving us only the best.

we finally found the ruby studs we want, the right shape but the colour seems off. pinkish. i want a red ruby! very red ruby!

i started to count my blessings as the day draws nearer. i realised i have a lot of things to be thankful for yet on the other hand, the complacent side of me says, "aren't these blessings coming a little too slow, one at a time?" i think to myself, which side am i convinced.

i'm always in such situation, such a mental battle. the good side of me says something and immediately the bad side has something to retort. Thank God, the good always triumphs, I have so many things to be thankful for. It is just that when I look back at my almost quarter life, i think of the lost friendships, i think of the times when I shouldn't have said this and that, I also think of people whom I missed and not forgetting the things that could still be done in the past but not now.

i feel like posting up a list, but tt's so old school. hahaa! i'm way beyond that now. lots of ideas i wanna share, lots of plans, but without one crucial thing-- money! oh well, i am still counting my blessings. =)

sometimes just being able to call out to You is such a big blessing.

regret is still a regret, whether big or small. sometimes, when opportunities come to you, either you cannot decide or keep pushing it away, now that things has happened without you, i'm regretting!!! boo... but i know it's for the overall better. i'm just feeling sad now. =/

it seems that i'm becoming more worldly as the months passed. I'm conforming to the society, what it expects of me and conforming to worldly views. I should have been contented being different and living my own life the way I want and not worry about the system of the world, the government structure and least of all, other people's tongues.

It's indeed a very grey morning. I begin to realise how untrained I am to adapt to the big things, how much activity I cannot take in at one time. I can problem solve very well, other people's problems that is, because I can use logic and common sense. Apparently, all these does not apply to myself.

I just want a cup of gong cha to cheer me up. Can i please drink finish and then start thinking about all these? All I want now is to dwell in His presence, to be reassured of His words and to leave everything to Him.

i'm so miserable! and my throat hurts, why is this repeating again and again!!!I really wish i have someone to share with this.

grr.. too much to bear

Life doesn't always go the way we want, that I know. When i'm learning how to slowly pick up step by step, life suddenly gave me alot more challenges. Aren't I supposed to learn one step at a time? or must i force myself to take whatever comes my way?

My inconsistency in things is driving me up the wall, how long will this go on

1 Universe, 9 Planets, 204 Countries,809 Islands, 7 Seas, and I had the Privilege to meet you.

this has got to be the worst weekend since a very long time, well technically, i really did have lots of fun on sat with my love but i had to deal with one disappointment after another all in a span of the last 24 hours.

of course, my love was being very very sweet and nice to me throughout and it really helped. I just wished time would stand still and i dun have to go out and face it. can i hide for a weeek and get some other people to deal with it?? gosh....

this is what happens to building a r/s and trust.

i'm overwhelmed with thankfulness that i have such a nice and happy childhood and that i don't have absent parents. This meant alot to me as a only child and that they took the time to attend all functions, events or whatever performance i have. i still remember when i was younger and had to go take my theory exams, these are usually held in schools, different schools around singapore. I made my mum wait for me and make her promise that i will see her when i come out of the room. ahahha.. those were the days.

even if they made mistakes in parenting here and there... this is one thing i have to applaud them for and one good role model that i can look up towards. i hope to be there for my child next time... rain or shine

i feel so ignored these days and misunderstood these days

i never know how to ride on my own momentum, and just like cycles occur to me. so i will never progress this way. i always spiral downwards, then up then down. I should have take the advantage when I am up!

I'm abit lost right now, not sure what to ask for. So I'll pray for God's will to be done. Whatever happens, I will just accept.

meanwhile.. be happy!

you don't always put down all your things and attend to me.

life is so frustrating already, do i need this? but if i don't attend to it, who will? i don't wanna wake up one day to find you missing in my life.

As this is the cooling day, I have time to think, read and think somemore. This is my first time electing and boy, is this a spectacular time, with 82 seats contested out of 87. The heat is on!!!

For areas like Tampines, I don't see much issue which is a weird thing. People Like MBT and Wong Kan Seng should be feeling the heat and not people like Minister George Yeo. I quote somewhere, good candidate, wrong constituency.

I'm a Tampines girl and I love my area. I don't fancy the MP though. I relate to Nicole Seah. 12 years staying in tampines but never meeting my mp and with people around me telling me about how MBT screw up with the public housing and all, i don't know how to support and like him. But frankly speaking, the problem of the public housing is already there. I want to hear wad each party can think of how to solve the issue and so far, i don't like what I heard. There is no feasible confirm can solve this issue.. and importantly, i need the current scheme to stick because i planned my finances based on that. If the new scheme or anything comes in to disrupt it, i'm not i;m able to get my place anytime soon. And frankly, I'm fine with Tampines being better than alot of other areas. The biased-ness is to my favour so good for me and bad for the rest of the people lo.

Who needs real shaking up.. is really bishan's wong kan seng. Heard from chin, her side always walk over... seriously... he needs to take things more seriously NOW!!!! when people talk about having different voices in parliament.. i totally 100% agree.. but can take away those disgusting ones.. and not someone like minister George Yeo or not. He is one of the better ones and pls, I don't even stay in Aljunied now anymore but my heart goes out to him.

I hope he makes it. The last election his votes v close to opposition, my heart heaved a BIG SIGH of relief! I really like him, I hope he makes it.

This is really a month-end syndrome that I'm facing, or rather I would like to label it as that rather than admitting that I'm finding excuses for myself

Today, I was taught we need renewal and rejuvenating of our body, mind and soul. I think I'm very lacking in the second department.

I'm feeeling so "????" right now. I should find a word for it.... any suggestions? It's like a combination of restless-ness/sianess, tiredness of the mind, zombified, spaced out and a lot of other mixed and confused emotions. I need a word for such thing. A codeword....

Ah! I feel so bunnified. I just thought of that word, random i know but whatever~ I just wanna scream somewhere.... I might even delete this stupid post, for now, i just wanna rant

i know what i want for my wedding!! celebrity STYLE!!

hahaha.. this is the effect after watching some celebrity couple get married. hahaa

feels goood after some retail therapy, though nothing for myself. but i still feel good being able to buy things. =)

i really wanna get that puzzle to do but i'm not sure if i have the time to complete it. but I FEEL LIKE

second time on lrt, and one more time on Sunday again. Seriously, why is everyone in that area, far away from me!

Distance is getting to me and I'm getting more disoriented and disorganised... after a long hard day at work, i came hope to fall in the toilet. Now I have an ugly blue black below my knee!! BOO! =(

for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
for You alone deserve all glory
for You alone deserve all praise
Father we love you
and we worship You this day

this is so exciting. mummy got a new lenovo, i secretly named it black pearl for her. haha... and cos i drag her to the IT show with me, i got a printer as well! =) a really good one to serve my purpose. now, i can do alot more things at home, in case office space gets too cramped.

speaking of which, i will be moving to tanjong pagar officially tmr. =) life's great, everything's great.. it would have been better if i get my 2 responses soooon. ahahaha

love love =)

there comes many points in a woman's life where she will keep feeling that she's not needed. i think the biggest blow will be when your kids outgrow you especially. They used to need you but now, they've gained independence. one would start to question the value of her life. i can imagine that kind of feeling, not needed and that you are becoming a burden. you start to be afraid of making requests. then you start to shut yourself away. how sad

alot of things is happening around right now. i feel like i lost something. maybe i really did.

when things are good, i think of all the mistakes i made. when things are bad, i feel like making mistake again. grrr.....

human beings are very delusional at times. We give people options, but clearly one of the option is the better one. So why do people still put in the obviously worst off option, cos like every primary school kid will tell you, it has to be a fair test. We put in the worst off option to make it fair, to be fair to tell the person that there is another way out but time and tests have shown me that, you deep down know that people will choose the better option.

i think humans are made selfish. and come out with reasons to justfiy their own selfishness. been there, done that. only people who still believe in happily ever after believes in fairness and believes that men and women can be equal. in this asian culture we are in, no matter how much women claims to be equal, somethings cannot be equal. for a change, let's do proposal tgt. guys propose with a ring, and maybe ladies propose with a car? a camera? i dunno what the guys like. i'm not saying that there are no woman who initiates a proposal, there are! i saw on tv summore. just that to be fair, then both do it.

i wonder what will happen if someone actually choose the worst off option, what will humans
mind or thinking be like after that?

some happy and not so happy thoughts about the day:

1. had a good time at the hsbc women's golf championship. it's my second day there as early as 8 in the morning. morning sun almost killed me. what didn't kill me got me really dark. came home and straight away put mask. cannot take it mans.

2. i never spend enough time with the boy, that for one but also for missing this morning's service. and importantly MasterLife as well. It would have been a good time of fellowshipping with the rest of the people. oh well, work doesn't occur every Sunday so yups, just have to bear with it a little.

3. Had a nice home cooked dinner.

=) =)

Give me more strength for the week ahead.

i came home to realise the skin on my thumb is bleeding. I dislike the feeling of coming home to find out i injured myself without realising. such things always happen and i don't like it.

quick to listen and slow to pass judgement, is something i'm working towards. another aspect is to stop expecting. this bubble is getting bigger and bigger and inside this bubble is actually nothing. all the hype for nothing. =/ i gotta stop thinking about it.

complacent makes you fat!

I want that Kate Spade bag badly!!!! =(

i had the loveliest time spent with the girls and xm and evelyn. better add their name in case they are reading this. haha!

i love traditions. especially when it's kept year after year. It brings people tgt.. it gives people excuse to come tgt. all in all, i love creating traditions and keeping them year after year. so steamboat, ah ma's ngoh hiong and quality time spent snacking on cny cookies is one tradition i wanna keep for as long as i m around. =)

it's been a long time since i blogged. again. it's a little hard to keep up with blogging lately, is it cos i am getting older? this is something i don't want to think about. I've reached that age when I don't want to grow up so fast. Unlike when i was in my TEENS, i can't wait to grow up but now.. WOAH... slow down mans!

It's a really good cny i had this year, slightly more visitings and more interactions with my relatives. I had fun. I'm still going to hold my annual steamboat party this year as well. Life's been great, everything is good right now. =)

Feb is going to be a fast and short month. I'm aiming towards making everyday count. March got OCBC cycle which i m going to take part, I think, if i'm registered.

i wish i have photos to show about my life.... i'm taking lesser photos as i grow older. =(

seriously cannot have any expectations from you mans.... bitter... sour.... salty... wadever it is.. just NOT SWEET!!! grrrr

home on a Sunday night, not in my best mood, with my bed 'undressed'. just want to lie flat and sleep till tmr. I know tmr is the start of it all again, things did not go so well today, my tummy ache from i dunno what.

I'm supposed to learn how to listen in this new year. not just hear, LISTEN. new year resolution.

why is everyone planting such thoughts in my head? i'm trying not to think badly of the situation or not think badly of the person but why is everyone making me feel that I should and I have the right to be angry. grrr....

don't think don't think. May the new year bring new thoughts to me and bring me to new heights!

3 straight days of homey food, so christmasy feel. =) i'm a happy girl.... my collection of hairbands is increasing and i'm even happier. =) one more week to the end of the year. i was talking to the boy on the long journey home from island SEGAR and we were talking about people's faces. He said he didn't understand how come people can have double face. I told him everyone is bound to have 2 different face, it's a matter of how different one face is from the other and also wad's the intention behind the faces.

i told him.. he's a different person in front of me and in front of friends. He's quicker to anger as compared to when he's dealing with irritating friends. He said that's because it's me. And i told him, exactly, i could trigger that emotion out of him quicker and make him slightly different than when he;'s with colleagues or friends.

I bet people can have more faces than 2 and right now, i;m searching for one that I want to live with. Boon is right, at this age, not young anymore to shake off responsibilities but also not mature enough to handle all of it that comes our way.

I like who I am when I'm with you all. I really do. I just wish.....

Philippians 4:19

"And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."

it was a really gooood dream. i wished i never woke up

this little fettish of mine is expanding... i know times are different now, but i'm still allowed to have one small fettish right. i have to stop alot of things, but just this one, i hope to still have it.

i was reading one very very long ago entries blogged by me 5 years ago and i realised so much has changed. the people around me changed, the bond or the ties between us changed as well. gosh... i don't know if this is for the better or for the worse, because i sounded much happier then, surrounded by people I love so dearly. I still love them very much and i recognise that I will never be who i am today without them. does it work both ways? i have no idea... back then i seemed so sure that whatever i felt is vice versa, today.. 5 years older i have so much doubt. such irony....

it's been a really up and down week.. i m glad it ended with down.. looking forward to the bbq tmr.. =) more fruitful weeks before i go taiwan. =)

what lesson should I learn today? Nothing is for sure mans... I cannot pretend I'm not disappointed. But I hope I do better the next time.

So disoriented now.

one of the best that i've read thus far. the heartaching feeling i have. haik... love romance. oh... how old am i again??

but this is really goood, so sad i dunno whether i wanna continue reading or not.

something seem to be wrong, i dunno what to call it. i just don't feel that right... is this the beginning of the end? i hate to admit it, but everyone is right. I'm insisting on something as far away as a fairytale. don't even talk about 10 years, i don't even know how to carry on for the next few years, let's just hope it is pms acting up.

脚步很轻很轻很轻
你忘了要发出声音
睡的很静很静很静
你忘了说过要一起

天气很晴很晴很晴
你忘了今天不下雨
身体很冰很冰很冰
你忘了要张开眼睛

天空忽然决定下雨
我来不及收拾那些回忆
伞底下的那个你
丢下我去哪里

原来天空没有下雨
湿了的是我哭红的眼睛
滴答滴答滴答滴
我好想念你

i'm really sad to know i can't make it and even sadder to know some things are not going to be as planned.

i posed chin this question today.. if she was a guy... which of us 5 will she think abt being with... of course.. i told her my choice.. hahaha.. interesting....

an overwhelmed surge of nostalgic-ness (whatever the proper word is) came over me when i chanced upon the scrapbook my lovelies made for me when i was 18 years old. not sure if you girls remember but when i took it out and look at the pictures, i was like woah.. we looked so young then. so youthful, so carefree... and everything was so much simpler.

when u girls come over my place next time.. remind me to take it out.... it's really one of the best gift i ever receive.... even if it didn;t brought tears to my eyes 5 years ago... it certainly tugged my heartstring when i saw it again 5 years later....

after three weeks plus or so, the top four is born. netherlands, my favourite orange jersey people, uruguay, the unexpected, it could have just been ghana, germany, the rally on form team and lastly, spain, which i sincerely hope woul dget their asses kick by germany in the semi finals.

these days have been very cold days. and yesterday was one of the worst for me. keep getting caught in the rain. it wasn't the heavy heavy rain kind, but it was slight drizzle the whole day. so everywhere i went, i got caught in the rain bit bit here and there.. didn't bathe until at night around 11 plus. and plus the fact i slept only 3 hours the day before.... i was shivering.. and feeling very very cold while waiting for the match of spain and paraguay to begin.... and thanks to the wonderful creation of panadol... i took only one pill.. and after a while... i felt so much better.. really quite scared tt i will fall sick and all cos i dun have the time to fall sick.

well, all thanks to our wonderful creator, he gave me a beautiful sunday, a well rested body and the best boyfriend, had a nice cosy sunday.

i miss you

i forgot how painful cramps can be. i almost forgot all the aching symptoms that i have before it comes... and it all came back today. i always dream of having a hot water bottle to hug.... forgot how much i need it in the past, and the painful aching feelings all came back today.... nonetheless... my lovelies gave me a wonderful time today. i forgot abt the pain halfway through, and the pain actually left for a while.. but now at night.. in the middle of england v germany match, the pain is back.

board games are so fun... i feel like going back on ladies night.. which is a tues.. not this tues... hmmmm.... some arranging needs to be done. i still think the question about who u wanna get to do a shady business.. how could anyone have thought of me. i'm not tt dark... and meticulous... haha!

i love u girls and my boy... always will.. who else can tolerate me anyway.....

i'm so digging the new dcp world cup tee shirts... but 50 bucks for a tee shirt?? hmmmm.. and a working class girl doesn't have much opportunity to wear one anyway.. but it's sooo cute!

and yes ghana!! you're in!

more than half of the top 16 is out. halfway there.... for me too. i'm a very happy girl recently... at least i know i got nothing to be unhappy about. somehow... something still seem to be missing... oh well.... soccer has made my nights happier... hang in there first and see where i will land.

i think i made my daddy the happiest this entire month. everytime he comes home, the soccer channel is on. every single time.. unlike the past.. he had to fight the tv for it, and since there are 2 women in the house, he obviously don't get his way all the time. except saturday.. the ladies of the house decided to give him one night.. and that's sat. so this whole entire month, he's going to be a happy man.. coming home to soccer everyday.. i know my boy is not like that.. i wonder does he want to come home to cartoon everyday instead. hhahahaa!

so the next match.. ghana and australia... go ghana!

alot of people start to put distance between themselves and other people, be it in a drift away style or interact very little with people is usually cause they are afraid. they are afraid people will see through them. they have things to hide. maybe not in the bad way.. more of maybe they are feeling moody, emotional.. or simply in a i don't give a shit to this world kind of mood so they don't want to be near people, to pretend to enjoy company. they rather be by themselves. and the other kind is they have a true self tt maybe only really close people know. or maybe only they themselves know and no one else know and they are afraid that people outside will find out this secret self... and judge. thus, they rather not interact.

for instance.. a person can start drifting away from a group... and hang out less outside.. keep going home after work/school. u think tt person is in a emotional, moody period.. but it might not be. when people drift away from social group, maybe cause they done something that they are not proud of, they are upset... and they know people will judge.

so why oh why do people judge... that's like a whole separate issue really.

i need a retreat.

the long wait is finally over! i'm very very excited... the world cup is starting in less than 3 hours time. wooots. =) it's going to be a month of sleepless nights but roaring excitement. maybe alot of people might not understand why i'm so excited about it.... even my own boy don't. hahaa... i'm never a girl who likes soccer. what league what league.. i never ever watch.. but i just like world cup.. ask me who i support ar... not any country in particular.. just like to support it match by match.. make some predictions... overall champion.. hmmm.. maybe brazil... any country but SPAIN. haha.. oops.. i got something against them. i wonder why.

i just bought a new laptop.. rubee!! i'm really happy. finally.. the antique can be used for only office purpose. i don't have to carry laptop to and fro. no more heels and heavy load in arms. and if u guys know, i'm a sucker for high heels.. like quite high heels.. cos i think those are the only ones that are pretty.. and so my poor feet suffers with me. ahahaa.

back to world cup.. first match.. host country vs mexico.... i'm thinking it might be a draw.... mabe host can surprise me? i need more people to watch with me.. spread the joy. hahaa...

i'll be back

hello world.... i'm back. am i long forgotten? replaced? in anyway... i'm back. =)

it's been a very meaningful journey for myself in the last 6 months. a journey that i intend to continue walking. somewhere that i see myself walking to without seeing any end to it. yet. haha.... whatever it is, it's good to be back. i should start keeping track of my thoughts, share my beliefs, my nonsense again. i do miss bloggging quite abit where i can rattle and rattle.

i hope people still come here to check on me every once in a while....

how much a friendship means to us largely depends on the memories we created with that person. how much this friend means to us depends on all the things we went through together, be it the happy ones or the sad ones.

a friend holding u and telling you everything is ok when you are crying your eyes out. or a friend who skipped classes with you and go spend the afternoon slacking or playing somewhere. all these are memories that will follow us through the years and even when now you lost contact with that particular friend, you will think back of the good times you had tgt and also all the memories you created with that person, big or small ones, you would be prompted to automatically go pick up the phone and call him/her. or maybe drop a message. we do this little actions cos we remembered. all the memories we share with that person, and how much this friendship had meant in the past.. or means to us right now.

A gift of love

the phrase let time tell it all is so appropriate to use at this point of time. time has told me what i knew right from the start. what i chose not to fully believe in but time has told me what i need to know. time has proven things right. things are slowly changing and i m aware. i'm sure no one is that insensitive to be unaware. why prolong it, i wonder. maybe it's better to let time sink in further den abruptly calling it off. i'm dreading things.

a very long month ahead of me.

i'm really upset!! frustrated.. and how many times over the past few years i kept feeling like this... why am i being punished!!!!!

yes, it's been quite some time since i last blogged and i promised i will blog before the month of january end. so tonight's my deadline.

it's been one whole roller coaster ride month for me. alot of new things learnt, alot of harsh lessons included. different kind of people you meet and different kind of experiences. but i have to say, i'm still learning, moulding and shaping myself. things hasn't been all rosy but it won;t get me down, cos i know i haven;t gave it my best shot.

for those who know me well enough.. am sure i have been going around bragging abt myself signing up a marathon! 21km!! woots for me! oh.. my dear xcyflawz.... we are going to have a cny eve reunion like we always do right.. lunch time?? 13th lunch??? pls tell me who cannot make it sooon....

i love new year. it gives me a feel that whatever i screwed up or failed to do, i can always make it right again. so i will tell myself, like how i tell myself every other year, this year is going to be a goood year for me. and i'm going to complete all my new year resolutions and get all that i want! give me some credit here yea. i m trying to be optimisitic for the new year and i need all the enthusiasm or optimism to carry me through 2010.

another reason why i love new year is also cos it gives me the excuse to change all my old stuff to new ones. and i will use the new year to pack abit.... revamp abit... all to make me feel happier abt my so called new beginning.. now now now.. all i lack of is a new calendar... be it those stick on the wall.. or flip kind.. I NEED A NEW CALENDAR. someone.. pls? ahhaaaa

when i think of ur absence this weekend, i can't help but feel sad. but then on the other hand, when i think of how much time we can spend tgt in our life time, this seem very trivial.

i can't help feeling a little down though. miss u terribly.

seriously, guys don't have to go to great lengths to be sweet to a girl. somehow, i find all the small nitty gritty details ten times sweeter... simple things like after going out with a girl, most people think it's sweet if he sends u all the way home.. i think it's sweet if he calls a cab for u.. or flag a cab for u also and like send u safely into the cab and end the night by saying, give me a call or sms when u reach home safely... i think tt's equally sweet as well and i totally dig it. hahaa..

also there are many circumstances that are sweet... it's not about going out of his way to do things for u... but also about not doing certain stuff because he had u in mind. it's as simple as being a single carefree person, he doesn't have to care about anything other than himself.. but with you in mind, he decided not to go out with his friends so often, not drinking so often, not smoking so often. it's stuff like that. it's abt changing ur daily routine. about some stuff tt u always do but because u have someone in mind, whether he/she will mind, maybe i shouldn't do it. i think by thinking that way and by not doing ur usual stuff cos of someone, tt's sweet. really sweet. the having someone in my mind and acting based on that. i think tt's uber sweet.

soak me with some sweetness and love, though i need to have some time alone.. but tt doesn't mean i dun want all these after i'm out of these....

there could be 1000000 stuff out there but there's only one me.

this is totally not the best time to be out there partying and enjoying. i wanna stay home and isolate....

freaking random-ness tt i m suffering from. blues... siansation.

i m finally understanding the meaning of all these. i'm trying to escape.... esp from that someone who cannot seem to stop nagging, even at this moment, right beside me. i shouldn't flare up i keep telling myself but alot of things do no make sense. i dunno wad is wrong, i only know i wanna run somewhere far away, away from all these....

with the taste of magarita still lingering in my mouth, here is my blessed and blissful christmas.





and a comparison of iphone picture quality and my sucky sucky phone quality.... why didn't someone tell me earlier magarita can be so sweet and nice... whee.... going off for more boooze or milo. hahaa

it's christmas eve. i skipped brunch with the rest and chose to spend the day resting and nua-ing at home. the weather is awesome, so good that i wished i can stay home the whole entire christmas eve, counting stars (if there is in sngapore), cuddling, watching tv, sipping tea, exchange gifts, unwrapping them... ahahaa.. this is a wish from the homey side of me... but i have another side of me. and that is the go out, have fun, party, dress-up, drink and party summore. but of course, after the partying part, i will still wanna go home cuddle and count stars to sleep. hahaa...

i always want the best of both world. and the harsh reality always comes back to me to tell me that i can't. yes, i'm nothing but a spoilt brat yea? i need to use this mini break to think through, to prepare myself for the challenges up ahead. i'm excited yet scared. i set these high expectations of myself and now i'm afraid i can't meet them. wha't expectations, what's right and what's wrong.

i need this break... and i need some christmas love!! gifts and cards.....

Happy 100th monthsary nu peng you.... can u believe it... we met and got acquainted and got closer and ta da.. it's 100 mths!! ahahaaa... the sweetest friendship one can ever have... let's look forward to the many many more mths to come.. loves loves loves.

this is the day that everything's gg to change.... i need to make some readjustments, in every aspect of my life.

where is th place where i can feel safe. everywhere i go i feel like i'm going to fall somewhere and some more. i miss my boy....

i'm upset with myself... for my clusiness, for my sillness, for my this and that. i can't believe i can just fall down like tt and now i end up with a burning knee. freak....

how do i get rid of this lousy feeling... one day before the day.... yucks.

Three months pass by in a flash. sam still remembered it was 16 sept. and now, i've a few days of rest before i'm embarking on another journey. abit too soon, some will say but if i rest too long, i think i will feeel so lazy to do anything. so yea.... i need motivation every now and then. i think E noes it.... everytime i meet him for training.. i feel that he noes i need to be like pushed and motivated.

lemme drop a big hint to my friends out there... in the new journey and esp when in the first few years of my next career... really need lots encouragement and motivation.. =/ give me more love my friends!!! haha!

another nice weekend to chill in. long weekend for me.

i think it's december.. thus i got a sudden desire to meet people.. ahaha.. well.. not any other tom dick or harry on the road.... but people i care and pple close... it's been so long since i tok to certain people, i dun even want to try counting how long. it's been so long since i actually meet certain people... if u are reading this and u fall into this category.. drop me a sms now!!!! let's meet up to chill.. to snack, to gossip, to just meet up! anything... let's end december with well wishes, meet ups and lots lots more..

ahhahaaa... as i type.. i realised it sounds like some advertisement.. is it? ahahhaa... oh well.... here i m bored bored at 8:50 at work.. work dun start till 9 for me actually.. have been accompanying the boy to work this whole week so far.. which is half an hour earlier than my actual time... but it's nice tt we bring breakfast for each other.. well.. i try... but elaborate breakfast requires waking up even earlier!!

anyone has a spare laptop to spare me?? i feel crippled like seriously.. no laptop to use... cannot acceess alot of sites from my office. basically disconnected with the world.. in my puny world now.. there is only me and my best friend stuck on tt island with no communication otherwise.. occassionally sending out help msges like this. ahahahaa.

YES.. as u can tell.. boredom gives me lots of room for imagination.. haa

i m so getting this game!

my best friend at home has decided to leave me and go accompany my bf, cos he needs to work on his project and actually he needs my best friend more than i do. i mean i merely just watch shows, facebook away and check mails, nthing as important. but it's also goood, cos my best friend left just in time for my new best friend to fill the place. i was afraid i might neglect my best friend (or should i say ex-best friend) when my new best friend arrived... and so ta-da.... i have my new best friend all to myself..... wii is the name of my new best friend....

pardon my silliness.. here i m at work... nthing much to do.. it's amazing waad a contrast from yesterday. Yesterday was the month's end. Last day and we were all swamped with work.. lesser chit chats.. everyone typing typing away... and everyone knowing it's going to be a long long night. and today... so freee!! at least for me.... and did i mention tanjong pagar after 7 is like a ghost town.. food places all close... there's hardly anything left to eat.. wad happens to those pple starving, had to stay past 8.. come down from office and realised.. eh.. nthing to eat. i had sucky ramen after 8 last night.. dun get me wrong, the ramen is nice to eat. the soup and all.. just that they only got one kind of ramen.. e one with the jap char siew and egg.... standard... and they only have 3 different soup base. so no matter wad soup base i choose.. i still have to eat char siew.. and i'm not a fan of porl.. so basically.. i had noodles soup yesterday at the price of 14.50!!! hmmmmm.. definitely not worth it!

i miss my best friend at home.. and this whole week.. not much time to spend with it also... practically have something on every night and my weekends are filled already! i just wanan complete tt game den i can focus on another one!

i had one of the loveliest long weekend ever.. and it is not entirely due to my new toy.. but i'm giving all credits to the boy. he has been nothing but sweet and accomodating the whole entire time. right from waiting at expo for me for a few hours to come decide and see whether i wanna get my wii or not (the place was almost closing when i reached) and heading back down the next day to get extra controllers and not forgetting we had to go back down that night cos the controller we got was faulty. i hate hate hate doing such troublesome matters and i dun particularly like going to fairs and squeeze cos it's really really crowded. so i wasn't in my best mood and temper.. but he still managed to pacify me and was really patient with me... and I seriously thank God for that. i mean it doesn't help when two hot tempered persons argue and all.. over such a nice long weekend with wii.. and den everyone's moods spoil. so yea.

and also for hanging out with pple i love as well.... and trying and making effort to be nice and taking initiative and all.. hahahaaa..... the list goes on... but i'm really thankful for him and everything that he has done for me... there are days when i feel grouchy and will forget such a happy time i had with him.. so i gotta jot this down and remind myself when things get dreary.... and hoping people who reads this will remind me as well. aahaha...

meanwhile.. wii wii wii wii wii.... seriously.. playing games is really a form of luxury.. u think just by getting wii is enough? no.. there's the controller... and accessories tt we wanna get as well.. wii charging stand... wii games... wii motion plus for certain games.. the list just goes on.. but right now.. im happy with wad i have... =)

i'm a happy girl!

my early christmas gift... wii!!! loves loves loves... whee to my boy and whee to wii!! =)

seriously... getting a gadget always require so much homework to be done.... and up till now, i'm still pretty confused.. can someone like teach me or guide me? i mean.. why is buying one wii so difficult.. putting price aside... there's so many other things to look out for... updating, modifying, and cannot anyhow modify somemore.. patching or whatever shit.. making sure i can access to wiishop... GOSH!! HELP ME SOMEBODY!!! >(

the number of things i have to abstain eating makes me wonder if i can eat anything anymore... i cannot eat nuts.... and sesame... no eggs, no oyster sauce... no seafood and that includes prawns, crab, sotong.. and the list goes on.. luckily for me.. fish is still on the list.. and oh yea.. no alcohol.. how do i literally survive. esp when it comes to eggs.. so many things has eggs inside tt u dun notice it at all?? gosh.... =(

where is my life now.... and when is this nightmare ending?

gosh... this sucks mans... i was just thinking how come my rashes dun seem to be healing or anything and given my free time, i went online and google abit, now i suspect my rashes are actually eczema. i have all the symtoms... the itch and the scaly, peeling skin.... and now i m at a lost.

how do i go on to hsbc like that... i dun wanna look scaly and red, with rashes all over me.... and the next thing... how to keep taking off to go see doctor or something. i went to polyclinic last week.. after putting the medcine and all.. it doesn't seem to be healing or anything... just the same.. so i kinda wanna go back polyclinic and get a referral lecture to the skin centre or something. =( den there's facial this sunday supposedly? i dun think i m in the correct condition to go... ISSUES....

ARG!

Sometimes, on mornings like this when i'm so free that i let my mind wander all sorts of place, i wonder why pple are oblivious to things or people around them and others find those stuff such an eyesore. is like one party can blissfully be unaware of the dirty patch on the clear window, happily going in and out of the house while the other party immediately saw the dirty patch and get really upset about it that they wanna rub off and scrub off that patch of dirt.

i also wonder how come some people will think so highly of themselves when they are not as worthy as they think they are, worse still, they actually think they have the authority to oppress those under them. i mean for this case, no one is indispensible... they know that right? how can anyone actually think they are important enough to be unreplacable.

how do we ever know what's really right? and what's the masterplan for us? i hate gloomy mornings.... i wonder too much..

the highlight of the night.... marinated frog leg. it's actually nic's mum recipe... thought i will give it a try den improvise from there... so as long as it suits my boy's taste of childhood mummy's food? haha



halfway through... a mini accident... in my attempt to clean the stove with kitchen towel while the fire's still on.. i burn the whol paper.... had to pour water over it to stop the fire.



But dinner's still served punctually.... the extreme left corner is steamed egg... den highlight of the night and veggie with shitake. =)

i found more motivation to cook these days... my precious boy seemed to be not eating much outside... like if we were to dine out.. he won't eat that much... like maybe skip a breakfast, lunch or both kind of thing. but if i cooked.. i m pretty sure he wun have excuse not to finish MY foood! so yes.. more home cooked sunday meals to come.

i had a goood weekend.... really goood one... and time seemed to fly by.... back to IJ for the very first time after they renovated and upgraded. hmmm... some stuff are there.. some stuff changed... but i guess the biggest change is me.. guess i dun feel the same for certain stuff anymore. but i'm definitely still loving the meesua there! outside the school that is. hahaa.. den it was alpha graduation.. all ended well.. and we had a really good time.... i'm going to miss having tt to occupy my every saturday.

i started my sunday with breakfast at the coffeeshop... toast and egg.. haha.. old school stuff den headed off to church.... den go grocery shopping. simple day for simple stufff... i'm truly blessed every single day.... =)

oh my gosh... i cannot believe this.... i can actually blog in the office.. the other time i tried, they blocked my entry.. but this time round, i managed to dive right in! wiggle my way in but there's still msg below my taskbar: " To help protect your security, Internet Explorer has blocked this website from displaying conetne with security certificate errors." in light yellow. and now... here i can spam my own blog... i know i will be so bored the entire day i might be able to write at least 8 (that's the number of hours i work each day) entires... one for every hour, minus lunch hour??

didn't have computer access for the past 2 days... cos the boy is on leave and he wants to com for his usage and evelyn.. if u are reading this, i'm sorry.. i know i got stuff to discuss with you... and it's been dragging.. keep wanting and reminding myself to msg you.. but i keep forgetting. now that i remember... WE WILL DO IT SOOON, k? promise promise!

have been eating medcine for my itch and rash the past 2 nights and i concussed for the the past two nights as well.. drowsy medcine really v amazing, knocked you out totally.. till morning, if not for my own alarm. and ar, my rash doesn't seem to be healing.. one side of my face is as swollen.. and my chest.. =( ARGGHHHHH and the haze and dust in singapore is not helping AT ALL!

pls... anybody who reads this.. feel free to email me at work mans.. i m so bored and i cannot access facebook or msn or wadever chat system there is.. boredom! my only form of entertainment is from emailing... this is the only way i get to reach out to the outside world... the only way at work.. =/

credits to amelia

haha.. not that she made this or anything.. but it's cos of her.. i got inspiration. she cooked omurice for me last week (did i mention i do enjoy being guinea pig) but cos she packed the food for me, so there wasn't egg. and since then... i have craving for omurice.. with the egg! and do u guys noe there's a new ??? town in raffles city, this japanese resturant... dunno issit fast food type of restaurant or wad but i saw their menu.. there's omurice!! made my craving even stronger and so since i m on leave today.. decided to give it a shot.. with the remaining ingredients i have in my fridge.. taste wise.. definitely can be improved.. but i simply love the egg wrap rice concept! hahaaa...

so i mentioned i was on leave... woke up this morning with a very bad rash.. the rash has been there since monday but it became more visible and itchier last night. so i took leave to go to polyclinic to see the doctor. guess this will be the last time i go polyclinic.. thought cheap.. the time we waited.. =/ gosh.. is this a weekday morning or something? so so os many pple were there.. and not to add.. the doctors are not tt professional.

i m so looking forward to this sat... i hope my rash gets better.. the doctor said it is infection.. but from wad mans. i dunno. =( i do hope i will look alright this sat and not go back IJ scare pple.. or celebrate the last of alpha in such a state...

looking forward to trying nic's mum recipe this sunday! =)

it feels good to stay at home on a friday afternoon like this.... clad in home shorts and baggy shirt, relaxed and at ease... i started to do minor household chores. my mum always say, even if i dun help out with the house's chores... the least i could do is tidy up my bedroom and that is what i did.

first thing first, bedsheets.... and super single is already tiring... not that changing bedsheets or pillow case is tiring.. is more of changing the comforter cover... if u have one at home.. you would know what i mean... i cannot imagine changing a bigger bed's comforter cover in the future... definitely a work out for my biceps. den next is sweeping of my room floor. being a normal girl, i drop a healthy amount of hair each day. dun get me wrong.. not that dropping hair is healthy.. is just that dropping hair is a norm for ladies... and so my room after mths of non-sweeping or mopping, there are months worth of hair.. but it's clean now!!! i love it when my room floor is clean. i feel that i can eat right out from the floor! den i pack my clothes, wash my make up sponge and tada! my room is clean!! not exactly tidy.. but that could be worked on.. maybe tonight after cell or something.. i shall see.

i finished my basic course already. what else is there to come i'm not too sure... but it's really important to self motivate. that i know. and i know i will learn alot from now onwards.... all the best to me mans.... i'm scared but i know i have to move on. but for now... let me just enjoy the things as it is.....

back to work on monday... with so many things change.. i wonder anyone remember i still work there.

on days like these... i'm so upset i feel like crying... i have so much things i wanna shout out.... so much frustration.. but i keep a smile.... i pray so so so hard and... there's pretty much nthing i can do about it already.

meeting up with gfs is one of the goood things to look forward to in life. i'm a happy girl...... though i have to mug abit.. feeling so lazy and sleeepy... maybe i could wake up tmr morning to mug instead?

no.. i will be too lazy and complacent.

2 days down, 2 days to go.

one day down with 3 more to go before i officially become an agent. and the next few days are just gg to get tougher and tougher.

Our dinner.... new recipe, not one that i thought of but i took it from shape and modify a little to our tasting... raw salmon with soba and sesame dressing. all in 20 mins or less. quick and easy. no fuss. and it's really not too bad at all.. at least the boy likes it so i can safely add it in my recipe book that i complied. and i'm very excited about the new cookbook i got from church.. lots of things i can try out... i wanna be a good cook! cook yummy stuff for pple. i know i got a long way to go, getting good and proper kitchen utensils is one. haha

cycling trip was great... i dunno why my back is aching instead of my calves. at least my thighs and butt are.. so ok. steamboat was great as well.. and so is my ah chew's greenbean plus seaweed. then putien was lovely.... all with great company i must add.. and i can't wait for pay to come and go shopping with my boy.... he's dying to lay his hands on .... i know.. i love seeing him shop.. makes me happy as well....

tmr is a start to a whole new chapter..... i'm nervous.. i need all support i can get.. but like wad my friend said.... just treat it like u are a student... i will be fine.. right? i noe i will be... but.... butterflies in stomach.. pls leave me alone?

i am looking forward to the weekends, it's all that working "adults" look forward to i guess... but this week is an exception for me. after the weekends, i'm like officially starting a whole new journey and i'll be alone. i guess i shouldn't be afraid, i mean, i made the choice already didn't I? putting these thoughts aside, i'm still embracing the weekend. cycling in the morning... dinner with the guys at night....

i just have a problem with this huge red and swollen *** under my nose~!!

i have a love-hate affair with this particular weekend. tsk... the insecurity building up again....

Just for Angel:

SATC is Sex and The City. and we went victors kitchen on sat.... and then ate ice cream beside the dustbin! hahahaaa. Don't ask. Ah Chew was packed you see....

If I could blog in the office, maybe I would have flooded my blog already.... It's not that I got nothing to do in office, it's just that I'm going on a one week leave next week, so they would really rather I got nothing to do, to pass my stuff down to the new guy, to clear up my work... it sounds like I'm leaving hor.... I'm afraid after I come back, I would become reduncdant already. =/

Anyway, went to bedok 85 yesterday and i begin my glutton journey.. We had stingray, cockles and lala. WOO... shiok! The the bbq chicken wings... wanted to eat carrot cake or hokkien mee.. but cos chin didn't know and she ordered rice.. and bam! i m full.... but i still could stuff 2 Ah ballings in my mouth. hahaa.....

BUT i ended up with a tummyache.. not tummy tummy ache.... is more of i had gastric before chin came to pick me... and i just ate... after that, stomach was still in pain.. =/ but i didn't regret all the things i stuffed into my mouth. i'm still going back for more.. kembangan meesua would not see me for a long time...

got to go work... how can i blog at workkkkkk... hmmmmmmm

SATC never fails to make me smile, to make me laugh, to make me touched.... the fabulous friendship that the characters share. at the really end of the day, having great friends to stick by you through every major or minor things in your life is the best blessings that one can have. and i'm always always thankful i have these bunch of friends who stick by me... during my grumpy and crazy times. Had one of the loveliest sat with the girls... HUGS. i cannot wait for the next SATC to come out.

Caught my sister's keeper today... and i cried buckets. like seriously.. and it was a really nice coincidence that GV gave out free packets of tissue today at the ticket counter. I'm not too sure if they gave out to only people who's watching my sister's keeper? but according to e boy, they dun give out to everyone... and on top of that, the cover of the tissue is not all that appropriate in the first place.. i mean hello, DARAH? with that scary woman... i told him to tear it away. i just wan the tissue which in the end serve its very good purpose. and ch is right... man has a gift and that is the fact that they know how to suck the tears right back in. it's a really nice show.. i read in the papers the ending is different from the book's? anyone read the book? wad's the ending like?

and so, there are times like tonight that i looked at my blog and realised i've neglected it. totally... and that i really really wanna do something about it. i hereby promise i will try to blog more often... words can be so communicative? some thoughts that i dunno who to tell... and as i type.. it just flows... so yea... i will tlry to blog more often. i'm sure i do have tt small handful of readers out there still.... i think.

anyone know about the show, A Christmas carol? or caughter the trailer? i'm so tickled by it...

"Disney's A Christmas Carol," a multi-sensory thrill ride re-envisioned by Academy Award-winning filmmaker Robert Zemeckis, captures the fantastical essence of the classic Dickens tale in a groundbreaking 3-D motion picture event. Ebenezer Scrooge (Jim Carrey) begins the Christmas holiday with his usual miserly contempt, barking at his faithful clerk (Gary Oldman) and his cheery nephew (Colin Firth). But when the ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and Yet to Come take him on an eye-opening journey revealing truths Old Scrooge is reluctant to face, he must open his heart to undo years of ill will before it's too late.

SCROOGE!! HAHAA.... abit of a private joke... but yea... it's really funny when xin pointed it out to me.

A beautiful weekend yet again. Nothing happens by chance... everything is planned.. Tmr signing the contract. gosh.. nervous yet excited.. yet feel so unreal.. yet yet yet.... oh well.. lemme settle wad i m going to wear first...

i hate nights like this. much more than nights which darkness could swallow me whole or nights which loneliness engulfed me entirely... i really beautiful days that end on such a bitter night! yuck!!

i always seem to make the wrong choice! yuck yuck!

=(

nothing beats a doting boyfriend and i want to declare it proudly, in anyway i want.

i m a happy girl!! a start of a happy weeekend!

the best type of kisses in the world are kisses on the forehead. at least for me, that's definitely the sweetest type that I like.

these days, I've been living my life in a rush. i rush to work in the morning, cos i dun wanna be there later than 9, not even a min, i rush back tampines on days i have tuition which is at least 3 days a week for this month, cos it's the exam month. I guess weekday are like that, especially for the working pple. I do envy those who are going on holiday like one colleague of mine and friends who are going holiday at the end of the year. i also look forward to this particular sat, where i can spend the whole entire day with the boy. how long has it been since we had one full day tgt.... even though we wun exactly be by ourselves on that day itself... but i m looking forward to starting the day with u and ending it with u.

an apple a day keeps the doctor away. a kiss a day makes my blues away.

im in very good mood today. =) and when i look at my bank account balance and saw that the pay is in.. it simply made my day!

another great weekend spent though the weekend is not exactly over yet. but i know tmr will be just as nice as today.

i did something that i never thought i would. i actually queeue 20 mins or so for nasi lemak!? chin and i went changi village cos i was craving for nasi lemak. went there in the rain.. q in the hot hawker centre and den got a little impatient so i went to sit at some nearby seats while chin continued to q for me. haha... the place is smoky and stuffy... but i keep telling myself determination and perserverence will pay off.. and it did. the nasi lemak rox. maybe it's cos this entire week i have been starving myself, ill-treating my tummy. i will try not to do that next week, esp when i have intensive tuition and all. october will pass by in a flash. i know it will. which reminds me.. i need to go book my dentist appointment sooon. working life makes things not easy at all.

i'm very happy that you took the extra effort. i never thought after this long, the sparks and chemistry that i always talk of can still be flying in the air. no matter what happens, i'll always remember this blissful moment in my life.