there comes many points in a woman's life where she will keep feeling that she's not needed. i think the biggest blow will be when your kids outgrow you especially. They used to need you but now, they've gained independence. one would start to question the value of her life. i can imagine that kind of feeling, not needed and that you are becoming a burden. you start to be afraid of making requests. then you start to shut yourself away. how sad

alot of things is happening around right now. i feel like i lost something. maybe i really did.

when things are good, i think of all the mistakes i made. when things are bad, i feel like making mistake again. grrr.....