i have to say this is one of the best birthdays i had ever have. and strangely, this is not because of what i did or gifts i receive, but cos of all the well wishes i got from many people. people i know and people i've not seen for quite some time. it's really very endearing. how simple happiness can be. it's just very nice to know my friends care and i feel so so so loved!

but i still need to give an update how my birthday went right? hahaa.. am sure some people out there are curious, maybe, maybe not. just a record of it for myself to read it in the future den.

i waited for chef Tan to come over my place to cook me lunch.. seeing him busy in the kitchen... washing up the dishes, cooking the meal for me and making cosmopolitan for me, can't help but smile. den it was The Proposal, movie at downtown east den we took bus down to parkway parade... met nic's mum and ate dinner together. den after dinner, nic and i walked from parkway parade all the way down to ice cream chef to get one cup of ice cream. it's not the ice cream that made me smile and feel blissfully happy.. is the walk. i love taking long walks with my dear one, though i feel bad when i see perspiration forming on his forehead and neck.

finally we cabbed home and i have chin spending the last few minutes of my birthday with me. am i allowed to be so happy on a single day? i feel something bad would come my way somehow?? like job finding will be futile and all? (i'm trying not to think of money and job search issue the whole day) but true happiness is all i feel today..

i learnt that without expecting alot.... u actually receive so much more... Thank you everyone who played a part for my birthday and all the well wishes!! thankkkk uuuuuu

i'm terribly terribly upset. it's not working out.... i feel suffocated. i dun get respect for my privacy, for things i want to do, what i wear, who i want to hang out with and the list goes on. I know this shouldn't go on, someone has to do something about it.

it all boils back down to the same old stuff. i hate this place call.....

it's been a very long day. and i came home with blisters. at least 3 big ones. i even had to wear socks at home cos when my blistered foot touched the floor, it's very very painful.

one saddening interview.... and though i was exposed to this side of the world but it was a very very disappointing one. i think i was more disappointed with myself more than anything.

well.. the happy thing is i get to eat chix ballotine from Miss Clarity. and i get to meet my all time fav girl.

den tuition.....

den back home... with the v v v v sore legs.. wonder how i m gg to manage with heels tmr

It's time to sit down, collect my thoughts properly and then plan and decide what's the next step I should take. There are things to be done, people to be met. Time for the list to be put to use again. I have a rough direction now but certain things still can't be rushed. That I know...

Now that my dearest friend is back... the more i should organise and collect my thoughts properly. I want to accomplish and complete some tasks or take on new ones, I wouldn't mind that too. Anyway... I know this is pretty old stuff but i cannot seem to be able to find it anywhere. Anyone knows where I can get a cup cover? I have cups and I wanna drink my tea hot, but i don't have cup cover at home, don't know where to get it from either. pls tell me if anyone knows. best if can buy one set, the cup and cover one set.

time to be a regular blogger again!

seriously.... it's not as easy as time goes by. i always thought being in a r/s is only about 2 parties, den gradually, i learnt that it is not but does it have to be this bad? why am i so trapped in between? i wanan be neutral.. yet i wanna have a stand?

i think everything can be solved once i get a job? i really hope so? i feel so sad now.... this is my life? gosh..... i totally lost it.