first week of school is over and i'm in a much calmer mood than compared to first day of school. so at least when i describe the first day of school, i won't be cursing and swearing all the way. yes, it was that bad but it's all over.

so yes, the school screwed up very badly on monday. made me wait for a total of close to 3 hours for my class to start. i m not familiar with the school. but i do know how terrible their admin help is and how high their turnover rate is. i don't even know if they know their work or not. guess i got to figure my way around here and hopefully settle in soon. am i useless? i always feel like that in a new environment. helpless, lost and insecure. always feel like giving up. i know in the future, things will not be so bad.. but the start is so hard. it's really tiring me. =/ i never allow myself to regret but maybe this time round.... don't get me wrong. the lecturers are great! very helpful, the facilities can do. just that, i dun feel like i belong. the sense of belonging and security is not there. that's what so bad about the school. how can they actually make their students feel this way??

having said enough, somehow, i know God is always very kind to me. in this really bad first week of school, i had one of the best week together with me baby. he passed out on tues and awiting for results to see where is he going to be posted to. spent every single min and sec together. haha.. for lost times. but i'm really glad for his support and company during this whole week. =) once again, life is always balanced. am enjoying myself and i don't know why, we are not eating cheaply this whole week!! which is really bad..... i'm starting to feel guilty. for all the fats i know is going to accumulate. yucks man! apart from that, loving every min of it. in fact, our Golden weekend starts today. haha.. my name for it. cos we're gg to spend the whole time together till monday. maybe i should start cam-whoring with him... so can post some latest pictures up of him. will see how.

i'll pull through, won't i? things will work out just fine, won't it? need all the help and support i need. help would be nice like tell me where do i get tbs! don't care if it's second hand or not... i need to buy textbooks! haha....