had a relatively eventful saturday. went chinatown in the morning to q for ba kwa. spent around 1 hour plus q-ing for it and luckily i had the boy with me. each q one side and see which line faster. yay!! yummy lim chee guan!!!



feeling a little down lately, so i asked the boy, can we turn the kitchen upside down and do something we never do before? somehow, we settled on rosti, not that big a dish that turns the kitchen upside down. but we never try before. and we even bought a grater just for it. i love my new grater. love buying kitchen utensils, makes me happy.







nothing beats having heineken together with a lovely dinner. =) and then we realised we got so much ba kwa at home but it's all to give people. we didn't buy any to munch ourselves!! darn! so we walked all the way to central to get bee cheng hiang (which is disgusting btw). wanted to jog but end up too lazy. what a way to start the new year. oh well.

为了无能为力的事，我感到很沮丧。
为了再也触碰不到的人，我感到很沮丧。
为了不能想通让爱我的人放心，我感到很无奈。
为了总总的无奈，失落在失落。

i started the day as per any other day until i received a email. such things do happen, i know. but at the start of the year? how sad is that. i need to grow up, i need to learn, i need to control my emotions, i need to open up. why are there so much things to learn to deal with day to day stuff and to deal with people.

i am sniffing like mad now, nose so pain and feeling so jaded.



thanks to b, he brought me to sushi tei, that kinda perked my day a little, i need the weekend to recuperate. anyway, this is their winter promotional items, squeeze rice in squid thingy. the sauce abit sweet.

I'm a super boring loner today.

I went to office slightly later today around 11 and i thought to myself, eh, i should try some of the stalls in ah moy that always has alot of people q-ing for. And recently watched this food show by bryan wong. he recommended this hakka yong tau foo, which i thinking what is so special about. Apparently, they sell 猪肠粉 together with their ingredients. I am not a fan of it so i took just bee hoon soup. Look at before and after I buy.



And that is not even 12 noon. I think the q gets longer.

This is what i had for lunch and dinner.



So boring right. I now end up craving for alot of things. Like Mac's twister fries, korean fried chicken, kembangan mee sua. And the list goes on. I'm so sad i lost my food buddy. =(

i read the Life section of the papers today. Thought this is interesting. 12 must-go places in 2012:

1. Laos
And we can get there in 3 hours! Best time to visit is from Nov to Jan.

2. London
Because they will be hosting the summer olympic games from july 25 to august 12! The royal family is there too!

3. Bhutan
They won the happiness level thing right? Haha!

4. Netherland
For the some flower event, best time to visit is April 5 to October 7.

5. Myanmar

6. Korea
I really want to go!!! They say Yeosu for a world expo to be held there from may 12 to aug 12.

7. Taiwan
To cycle! Best time to visit is sep to nov when rates for hotel are not marked up and the weather is fairly warm and dry

8. Warsaw
For the football fever.

9. Slovenia

10. Belfast
Something about them rebuilding a replica of the Titanic

11. Helsinki

12. US

I'm not so adventurous at the moment (will i ever be?), so i really wanna explore the southeast asia countries more. and places such as taiwan, korea and japan are top on my list on top of the rest of the south east asia countries.

B recently got hooked onto 'You're beautiful", a korean drama. Don't laugh at him, he's really quite addicted to it. i didn't watch with him, maybe just a few mins here and there, but it reminds me of the drama above, 'Coffee Prince' and so someone like me who loves to watch repeated shows couldn't resist but started watching it again.

the scenes i laughed and the many many scenes i cried for. there is this scene where the female lead is so cute, went in to hug the mum when she sleeping to tell the mum she has someone she likes and that she is going to confess she is a girl. the mum hugged her and say it's hard on you. that kind of encouragement and assurance from a mum to a child. there goes my tears again. silly me, I KNOW!



did i add that i love love love the second female lead, she is so pretty, i like her features, like her figure, like her hair!!!! i'm never the kind that will go ooh and ahh for male leads, but for pretty ladies, i will! haha! maybe it is plastic. korean plastic seems to be doing quite well. and success rate and results seems to be satisfactory. maybe i should consider.

first thing i learnt for the new year-- everyone has their own boiling point and it really differs from person to person. when my mum is freaking mad, i find that really funny. however when she makes me boiling hot, she finds it very funny as well. like now, she's angrily packing the mess at the balcony. my huge and tall stack of newspaper, and suddenly, she found a packet of rubbish. I don't know when i left it there and forget to throw, must be quite a while because it's starting to smell. She went hysterical but i found that really funny!

my memory is really getting from bad to worse, what should i do ar? ginko? maybe this is the retribution for laughing at evelyn last time. haha! and i better start remembering my rubbish, mummy just threatened if i forget again, she will make me eat up the rubbish! and i'm laughing out loud again. freaking funny! hahaha

Happy new year from the both of us! Our first picture taken at the strike of 00:00.



We even reviewed our last year resolution together, i did most of the things i wanted to. probably just the exercising part and the saving part. haha! Anyway, 2012 will be a better year for that!



It has indeed been a meaningful weekend thus far and I'm looking forward to a cosy Sunday evening together, with homecooked meal and lost of quality time spent. One of my resolution this year is to have a to-do list. Don't know why but my memory is getting from bad to worse, if i don't start a to-do list and follow through, i will not be half as efficient as i wanted to be.

B and I want for MCP counseling yesterday and there were a lot of take aways. We have to work on our conflict management, not that it is really bad now or that we have huge issues. In fact, we have petty issues but it is good to be able to talk it out and dialogue it. It definitely helped to improve our r/s, especially since we have been dating for a long long time, like coming 6 years this 22nd. A long, constant and steady r/s has its pros and cons. I shall not name the pros which will go on and off. The cons will be taking each other for granted and definitely assuming we understand every aspect of what each other wants all the time. Which may not necessarily be true. Anyway, we did a wishlist individually for what we hope we can have more or less in our r/s. I thought it is a good thing to do on top of our resolutions together on a yearly basis. Not so much a demand list, but rather it's good to talk about things. I love talking. =) =)

Ok, time to go help him out in kitchen. Tata. Happy 2012 everybody. This year will be great, if you believed in it!

Good morning people! Pardon my enthu-ness for blogging. God knows how long this will last. Haha!

Had a lovely Friday evening. Prepared grilled chicken salad for dinner.




I was cutting up the ingredients when suddenly i thought to myself, at the rate we are eating salads, we should invest in a salad spinner! the more i thought of it, the more i wanted it. so after dinner, we end up at ikea and courts. I love going such places at night, too bad they are not 24/7.



Had a bump into with Jeffrey. What are the chances? It's good to know that everyone is doing fine and looking forward to the new year.

Woke up in the morning to prepare breakfast. I love to display my breakfast in a pretty way. It always makes me happy. But of course preparing it for someone a little bit dense (a little!!) is always a bit exasperating. Cos he couldn't tell that it was a flower!! I mean, obvious right! haha!



Anyway, hope everyone have a fun time counting down to 2012. I have my own fair share of things lined up. =) =) I will update soon!

whee! i am so happy with my new blogskin.

new year, new beginning and time to blog more often. A piece of exciting news --> redstripesgreencircles is back!



And to make it a complete year, i finished my puzzle!! It took me roughly 8 months to complete it but that is because i got caught up with work and neglected it for a while. did the puzzle on and off, got bored a while but now that it's completed, i'm so proud of myself. I'm not sure why but I have this thing for puzzle since young and it always makes me very happy to be able to piece up the picture piece by piece. Am going to embark on the next project next year. mr Tan wants me to do the Lord's supper. Challenging but interesting! =)

it's going to be a eventful weekend, with lots to think about and planning to do for the new year. 2012, here i come!

1431

the exciting days to come.

2076

the sweet memories shared.

happiness comes from being able to share this joy. happiness comes from seeing others genuinely happy for us. happiness comes from looking at him and smiling from within. i am finally able to 'move on'. sounds weird, i know.

i thank God for looking out for us, for planning every stage of our lives for us, for knowing what is best for us and giving us only the best.

we finally found the ruby studs we want, the right shape but the colour seems off. pinkish. i want a red ruby! very red ruby!

i started to count my blessings as the day draws nearer. i realised i have a lot of things to be thankful for yet on the other hand, the complacent side of me says, "aren't these blessings coming a little too slow, one at a time?" i think to myself, which side am i convinced.

i'm always in such situation, such a mental battle. the good side of me says something and immediately the bad side has something to retort. Thank God, the good always triumphs, I have so many things to be thankful for. It is just that when I look back at my almost quarter life, i think of the lost friendships, i think of the times when I shouldn't have said this and that, I also think of people whom I missed and not forgetting the things that could still be done in the past but not now.

i feel like posting up a list, but tt's so old school. hahaa! i'm way beyond that now. lots of ideas i wanna share, lots of plans, but without one crucial thing-- money! oh well, i am still counting my blessings. =)

sometimes just being able to call out to You is such a big blessing.

regret is still a regret, whether big or small. sometimes, when opportunities come to you, either you cannot decide or keep pushing it away, now that things has happened without you, i'm regretting!!! boo... but i know it's for the overall better. i'm just feeling sad now. =/

it seems that i'm becoming more worldly as the months passed. I'm conforming to the society, what it expects of me and conforming to worldly views. I should have been contented being different and living my own life the way I want and not worry about the system of the world, the government structure and least of all, other people's tongues.

It's indeed a very grey morning. I begin to realise how untrained I am to adapt to the big things, how much activity I cannot take in at one time. I can problem solve very well, other people's problems that is, because I can use logic and common sense. Apparently, all these does not apply to myself.

I just want a cup of gong cha to cheer me up. Can i please drink finish and then start thinking about all these? All I want now is to dwell in His presence, to be reassured of His words and to leave everything to Him.

i'm so miserable! and my throat hurts, why is this repeating again and again!!!I really wish i have someone to share with this.

grr.. too much to bear

Life doesn't always go the way we want, that I know. When i'm learning how to slowly pick up step by step, life suddenly gave me alot more challenges. Aren't I supposed to learn one step at a time? or must i force myself to take whatever comes my way?

My inconsistency in things is driving me up the wall, how long will this go on

1 Universe, 9 Planets, 204 Countries,809 Islands, 7 Seas, and I had the Privilege to meet you.

this has got to be the worst weekend since a very long time, well technically, i really did have lots of fun on sat with my love but i had to deal with one disappointment after another all in a span of the last 24 hours.

of course, my love was being very very sweet and nice to me throughout and it really helped. I just wished time would stand still and i dun have to go out and face it. can i hide for a weeek and get some other people to deal with it?? gosh....

this is what happens to building a r/s and trust.