when i think of ur absence this weekend, i can't help but feel sad. but then on the other hand, when i think of how much time we can spend tgt in our life time, this seem very trivial.

i can't help feeling a little down though. miss u terribly.

seriously, guys don't have to go to great lengths to be sweet to a girl. somehow, i find all the small nitty gritty details ten times sweeter... simple things like after going out with a girl, most people think it's sweet if he sends u all the way home.. i think it's sweet if he calls a cab for u.. or flag a cab for u also and like send u safely into the cab and end the night by saying, give me a call or sms when u reach home safely... i think tt's equally sweet as well and i totally dig it. hahaa..

also there are many circumstances that are sweet... it's not about going out of his way to do things for u... but also about not doing certain stuff because he had u in mind. it's as simple as being a single carefree person, he doesn't have to care about anything other than himself.. but with you in mind, he decided not to go out with his friends so often, not drinking so often, not smoking so often. it's stuff like that. it's abt changing ur daily routine. about some stuff tt u always do but because u have someone in mind, whether he/she will mind, maybe i shouldn't do it. i think by thinking that way and by not doing ur usual stuff cos of someone, tt's sweet. really sweet. the having someone in my mind and acting based on that. i think tt's uber sweet.

soak me with some sweetness and love, though i need to have some time alone.. but tt doesn't mean i dun want all these after i'm out of these....

there could be 1000000 stuff out there but there's only one me.

this is totally not the best time to be out there partying and enjoying. i wanna stay home and isolate....

freaking random-ness tt i m suffering from. blues... siansation.

i m finally understanding the meaning of all these. i'm trying to escape.... esp from that someone who cannot seem to stop nagging, even at this moment, right beside me. i shouldn't flare up i keep telling myself but alot of things do no make sense. i dunno wad is wrong, i only know i wanna run somewhere far away, away from all these....

with the taste of magarita still lingering in my mouth, here is my blessed and blissful christmas.





and a comparison of iphone picture quality and my sucky sucky phone quality.... why didn't someone tell me earlier magarita can be so sweet and nice... whee.... going off for more boooze or milo. hahaa

it's christmas eve. i skipped brunch with the rest and chose to spend the day resting and nua-ing at home. the weather is awesome, so good that i wished i can stay home the whole entire christmas eve, counting stars (if there is in sngapore), cuddling, watching tv, sipping tea, exchange gifts, unwrapping them... ahahaa.. this is a wish from the homey side of me... but i have another side of me. and that is the go out, have fun, party, dress-up, drink and party summore. but of course, after the partying part, i will still wanna go home cuddle and count stars to sleep. hahaa...

i always want the best of both world. and the harsh reality always comes back to me to tell me that i can't. yes, i'm nothing but a spoilt brat yea? i need to use this mini break to think through, to prepare myself for the challenges up ahead. i'm excited yet scared. i set these high expectations of myself and now i'm afraid i can't meet them. wha't expectations, what's right and what's wrong.

i need this break... and i need some christmas love!! gifts and cards.....

Happy 100th monthsary nu peng you.... can u believe it... we met and got acquainted and got closer and ta da.. it's 100 mths!! ahahaaa... the sweetest friendship one can ever have... let's look forward to the many many more mths to come.. loves loves loves.

this is the day that everything's gg to change.... i need to make some readjustments, in every aspect of my life.

where is th place where i can feel safe. everywhere i go i feel like i'm going to fall somewhere and some more. i miss my boy....

i'm upset with myself... for my clusiness, for my sillness, for my this and that. i can't believe i can just fall down like tt and now i end up with a burning knee. freak....

how do i get rid of this lousy feeling... one day before the day.... yucks.

Three months pass by in a flash. sam still remembered it was 16 sept. and now, i've a few days of rest before i'm embarking on another journey. abit too soon, some will say but if i rest too long, i think i will feeel so lazy to do anything. so yea.... i need motivation every now and then. i think E noes it.... everytime i meet him for training.. i feel that he noes i need to be like pushed and motivated.

lemme drop a big hint to my friends out there... in the new journey and esp when in the first few years of my next career... really need lots encouragement and motivation.. =/ give me more love my friends!!! haha!

another nice weekend to chill in. long weekend for me.

i think it's december.. thus i got a sudden desire to meet people.. ahaha.. well.. not any other tom dick or harry on the road.... but people i care and pple close... it's been so long since i tok to certain people, i dun even want to try counting how long. it's been so long since i actually meet certain people... if u are reading this and u fall into this category.. drop me a sms now!!!! let's meet up to chill.. to snack, to gossip, to just meet up! anything... let's end december with well wishes, meet ups and lots lots more..

ahhahaaa... as i type.. i realised it sounds like some advertisement.. is it? ahahhaa... oh well.... here i m bored bored at 8:50 at work.. work dun start till 9 for me actually.. have been accompanying the boy to work this whole week so far.. which is half an hour earlier than my actual time... but it's nice tt we bring breakfast for each other.. well.. i try... but elaborate breakfast requires waking up even earlier!!

anyone has a spare laptop to spare me?? i feel crippled like seriously.. no laptop to use... cannot acceess alot of sites from my office. basically disconnected with the world.. in my puny world now.. there is only me and my best friend stuck on tt island with no communication otherwise.. occassionally sending out help msges like this. ahahahaa.

YES.. as u can tell.. boredom gives me lots of room for imagination.. haa

i m so getting this game!

my best friend at home has decided to leave me and go accompany my bf, cos he needs to work on his project and actually he needs my best friend more than i do. i mean i merely just watch shows, facebook away and check mails, nthing as important. but it's also goood, cos my best friend left just in time for my new best friend to fill the place. i was afraid i might neglect my best friend (or should i say ex-best friend) when my new best friend arrived... and so ta-da.... i have my new best friend all to myself..... wii is the name of my new best friend....

pardon my silliness.. here i m at work... nthing much to do.. it's amazing waad a contrast from yesterday. Yesterday was the month's end. Last day and we were all swamped with work.. lesser chit chats.. everyone typing typing away... and everyone knowing it's going to be a long long night. and today... so freee!! at least for me.... and did i mention tanjong pagar after 7 is like a ghost town.. food places all close... there's hardly anything left to eat.. wad happens to those pple starving, had to stay past 8.. come down from office and realised.. eh.. nthing to eat. i had sucky ramen after 8 last night.. dun get me wrong, the ramen is nice to eat. the soup and all.. just that they only got one kind of ramen.. e one with the jap char siew and egg.... standard... and they only have 3 different soup base. so no matter wad soup base i choose.. i still have to eat char siew.. and i'm not a fan of porl.. so basically.. i had noodles soup yesterday at the price of 14.50!!! hmmmmm.. definitely not worth it!

i miss my best friend at home.. and this whole week.. not much time to spend with it also... practically have something on every night and my weekends are filled already! i just wanan complete tt game den i can focus on another one!

i had one of the loveliest long weekend ever.. and it is not entirely due to my new toy.. but i'm giving all credits to the boy. he has been nothing but sweet and accomodating the whole entire time. right from waiting at expo for me for a few hours to come decide and see whether i wanna get my wii or not (the place was almost closing when i reached) and heading back down the next day to get extra controllers and not forgetting we had to go back down that night cos the controller we got was faulty. i hate hate hate doing such troublesome matters and i dun particularly like going to fairs and squeeze cos it's really really crowded. so i wasn't in my best mood and temper.. but he still managed to pacify me and was really patient with me... and I seriously thank God for that. i mean it doesn't help when two hot tempered persons argue and all.. over such a nice long weekend with wii.. and den everyone's moods spoil. so yea.

and also for hanging out with pple i love as well.... and trying and making effort to be nice and taking initiative and all.. hahahaaa..... the list goes on... but i'm really thankful for him and everything that he has done for me... there are days when i feel grouchy and will forget such a happy time i had with him.. so i gotta jot this down and remind myself when things get dreary.... and hoping people who reads this will remind me as well. aahaha...

meanwhile.. wii wii wii wii wii.... seriously.. playing games is really a form of luxury.. u think just by getting wii is enough? no.. there's the controller... and accessories tt we wanna get as well.. wii charging stand... wii games... wii motion plus for certain games.. the list just goes on.. but right now.. im happy with wad i have... =)

i'm a happy girl!

my early christmas gift... wii!!! loves loves loves... whee to my boy and whee to wii!! =)

seriously... getting a gadget always require so much homework to be done.... and up till now, i'm still pretty confused.. can someone like teach me or guide me? i mean.. why is buying one wii so difficult.. putting price aside... there's so many other things to look out for... updating, modifying, and cannot anyhow modify somemore.. patching or whatever shit.. making sure i can access to wiishop... GOSH!! HELP ME SOMEBODY!!! >(

the number of things i have to abstain eating makes me wonder if i can eat anything anymore... i cannot eat nuts.... and sesame... no eggs, no oyster sauce... no seafood and that includes prawns, crab, sotong.. and the list goes on.. luckily for me.. fish is still on the list.. and oh yea.. no alcohol.. how do i literally survive. esp when it comes to eggs.. so many things has eggs inside tt u dun notice it at all?? gosh.... =(

where is my life now.... and when is this nightmare ending?

gosh... this sucks mans... i was just thinking how come my rashes dun seem to be healing or anything and given my free time, i went online and google abit, now i suspect my rashes are actually eczema. i have all the symtoms... the itch and the scaly, peeling skin.... and now i m at a lost.

how do i go on to hsbc like that... i dun wanna look scaly and red, with rashes all over me.... and the next thing... how to keep taking off to go see doctor or something. i went to polyclinic last week.. after putting the medcine and all.. it doesn't seem to be healing or anything... just the same.. so i kinda wanna go back polyclinic and get a referral lecture to the skin centre or something. =( den there's facial this sunday supposedly? i dun think i m in the correct condition to go... ISSUES....

ARG!

Sometimes, on mornings like this when i'm so free that i let my mind wander all sorts of place, i wonder why pple are oblivious to things or people around them and others find those stuff such an eyesore. is like one party can blissfully be unaware of the dirty patch on the clear window, happily going in and out of the house while the other party immediately saw the dirty patch and get really upset about it that they wanna rub off and scrub off that patch of dirt.

i also wonder how come some people will think so highly of themselves when they are not as worthy as they think they are, worse still, they actually think they have the authority to oppress those under them. i mean for this case, no one is indispensible... they know that right? how can anyone actually think they are important enough to be unreplacable.

how do we ever know what's really right? and what's the masterplan for us? i hate gloomy mornings.... i wonder too much..

the highlight of the night.... marinated frog leg. it's actually nic's mum recipe... thought i will give it a try den improvise from there... so as long as it suits my boy's taste of childhood mummy's food? haha



halfway through... a mini accident... in my attempt to clean the stove with kitchen towel while the fire's still on.. i burn the whol paper.... had to pour water over it to stop the fire.



But dinner's still served punctually.... the extreme left corner is steamed egg... den highlight of the night and veggie with shitake. =)

i found more motivation to cook these days... my precious boy seemed to be not eating much outside... like if we were to dine out.. he won't eat that much... like maybe skip a breakfast, lunch or both kind of thing. but if i cooked.. i m pretty sure he wun have excuse not to finish MY foood! so yes.. more home cooked sunday meals to come.

i had a goood weekend.... really goood one... and time seemed to fly by.... back to IJ for the very first time after they renovated and upgraded. hmmm... some stuff are there.. some stuff changed... but i guess the biggest change is me.. guess i dun feel the same for certain stuff anymore. but i'm definitely still loving the meesua there! outside the school that is. hahaa.. den it was alpha graduation.. all ended well.. and we had a really good time.... i'm going to miss having tt to occupy my every saturday.

i started my sunday with breakfast at the coffeeshop... toast and egg.. haha.. old school stuff den headed off to church.... den go grocery shopping. simple day for simple stufff... i'm truly blessed every single day.... =)

oh my gosh... i cannot believe this.... i can actually blog in the office.. the other time i tried, they blocked my entry.. but this time round, i managed to dive right in! wiggle my way in but there's still msg below my taskbar: " To help protect your security, Internet Explorer has blocked this website from displaying conetne with security certificate errors." in light yellow. and now... here i can spam my own blog... i know i will be so bored the entire day i might be able to write at least 8 (that's the number of hours i work each day) entires... one for every hour, minus lunch hour??

didn't have computer access for the past 2 days... cos the boy is on leave and he wants to com for his usage and evelyn.. if u are reading this, i'm sorry.. i know i got stuff to discuss with you... and it's been dragging.. keep wanting and reminding myself to msg you.. but i keep forgetting. now that i remember... WE WILL DO IT SOOON, k? promise promise!

have been eating medcine for my itch and rash the past 2 nights and i concussed for the the past two nights as well.. drowsy medcine really v amazing, knocked you out totally.. till morning, if not for my own alarm. and ar, my rash doesn't seem to be healing.. one side of my face is as swollen.. and my chest.. =( ARGGHHHHH and the haze and dust in singapore is not helping AT ALL!

pls... anybody who reads this.. feel free to email me at work mans.. i m so bored and i cannot access facebook or msn or wadever chat system there is.. boredom! my only form of entertainment is from emailing... this is the only way i get to reach out to the outside world... the only way at work.. =/