you say you need to knock sense out of me? you say i make decisions without discussing with anyone?

basically, from my point of view, since when did u discuss ur decisions with me? i feel u blame me for not discussing with u is because u want to make the decision urself!

no more doubts and mistrust. from now on, it's love, trust and commitment.

it's been a long year, but i'm glad we are still holding on.

all the sweet talk.... ends up with an ending like this. i loathe the sweetness before... cos i never like bitter after sweetnes.. i'd always prefer sweetness after bitter.

i guess i never change. i'm pretty much the person who hates loneliness at the end of the day.

no one can ever enjoy best of both worlds. sacrifice is always essential. well, i shall not be harsh on some who actually get to enjoy best of both worlds. one cannot enjoy unless he or she manages it damn well. at the end of the day, he or she still has to make a choice. this world of that world. no both worlds. choice is necessary for people as such.

i made my point. take it or leave it at ur discretion.

angel.... i'm saying ur CR looks like a crybaby.... he always lok like he wants to cry.... =/

i know this sounds pretty retarded but maybe to a certain extend, i'm like pumpkin? ok.. this is definitely after effect of reading her blog, after such a long time summore. sweetness mans.... and the way she talks about it... gross and childish once i recovered from this momentarily effect of reading her blog but for now, i think i m like her. when it comes to things she write... but not the mundane stuff la.. just the interesting part tt all of us only read.

on the other hand, i might want to be like that. or i desire to be like that. i guess sometimes, we people just have to tell ourselves when to let it go and when to let it end. but every statement i made to myself, i have a counter argument. it seemed as if these days, i'm in constant argument with myself... heart and mind. but of cos, as usual, heart always win.

i always tell myself. i made the mistake once and i wun make the same mistake again. but by refraining myself for making mistake, i'm still subjected to all these? then wad's the difference? maybe in this way, i will seen as weak-willed blah blah blah.. cannot think of btter words to describe.

i m very strong in every aspect. i m just sentimental i guess. to the extend i will miss my calculator if it misfunctions. i will be upset cos after all, it followed me for quite some time. nothing wrong with being sentimental but dun take advantage of this trait of mine.

exam's round the corner... i need to tok. i need to release... i need someone to listen.. i need some hugsssss....... feeling so dreadful.

would i say it's sunshine over rain? i certainly hope so. cos i never want this to be the priorities of my problem. i guess once again, i've got to learn how to handle feeling, emotions of people. as well as how to deal with relationships with people. after learning, falling and picking myself up, i've got to learn again. how to fall.. and what other ways can pick myself up.

putting that aside, this is going to be the busiest and ost exciting year. with things unforseen and circumstances not predicted and directions not known. exam's round the corner. two tests this week. presentation and more tests next week. and den exams.....

now i know where's the focus. where it should be and will be

something seems to be wrong with my tag??

the closer i get, the more scared i become. so it's finally here yea.. i've finally reached this phase.

putting up a brave front is never my forte. but that doesn't mean i cannot try.....

i want:

1. a bb wallet
2. a pair of new decent jeans
3. heels
4. slippers

now.. is that alot to ask for????

A smile is the light to your window that tells others that there is a caring, sharing person inside.

i like this.

i m going to name my son ashton and my daughter avia. =)

whee... my boy got his driving license!

evelyn.. need help from u. never see u online leh.. ask u ar.. u noe the pantene some serum tt can help to straighten hair.. tt one better or the silky straight. silky straight is sunsilk i think. which of these 2 products better??

a cold day and a cold night. for a whiny girl wanting more attention...

the fun is over!

merry christmas! merry merry christmas. i've got to say.. this is one christmas i will never forget. it's been great. time spent with everyone seem sooo little. tooo little. but i really had a great week. thanks guys!

any other animes that i can catch after ouran high school... recommend!

Let the pictures speak for themselves... Happy 11th month, my boy

our annual christmas party never fail to bring a smile to my face and warm up my heart. the bond we still share is so heartwarming that even till now, i'm still buzzing with a blessed feeling. this is call xin fu. i feel sooo blessed. with good friends... with close bonds.. with everyone around me i'm a luckyyy luckkky girl.. and like what boon said, this is fu qi!

woke up to a cold morning and went central for yakun breakfast. even though it's cold, that boy's x'mas gift warmed me up. don't see i complain he dunno how to give me surprise... and that i noe wad is he gg to get me already or the fact that he never even wrap up the present blah blah blah... but upon seeing the bear, i still feel very happy. i'm in a goood moood?? but i seriously feel very blessed. after so many years rejected love, rejected x'mas (apart from our annual x'mas party), i truly feel loved and appreciated. this me to you bear has so much meaning i feel. maybe other couples have their own version of stories but to me.. me to u bear is the first gift i ever received from my boy. it's one that carrys a hot water bottle. he said he bought me that to keep me warm since i get cold so easily. angel.. still remember last year.. when we keep saying this kinda bear shouldn't buy for ourselves? cos then it would be me to myself bear. how one year pass soo fast yea? furthermore.. when i look at this bigger m2u bear... still wrapped with a muffler, keeping me warm and a huggable size.. i noticed this bear has really small eyes. lol... meaning. if anyone caught it. small eyes. i cannot emphasise enough. that day he just mentioned, of all types of teddy.. even forever frens bear, i had to like the most expensive type. oh well.... it's the bear tt i like.. not the price. all in all... thanks dear.

went to yan's hse for our annual x'mas party. it's the usuals.. pasta.. salad... this time no clam chowder though. the only diff we have each year is the wine we drink and our dessert. had fondue.. wooooo.. pretttyyy! maybe i'll consider getting one myself.. cos it looks pretty. good for parties. after the very sumptous meal.. gift exchange. somehow i feel that this year's gift exchange is so meaningful. it's like angel and mortal.. and i'm angel's angel!!! and xin's my angel. somehow, i feel that though everyone wants diff gifts but every gift need some preparation or effort into getting them. nothing is easy.. the buying.. choosing and wrapping. it's all the tots and i can really feel it. especially my darling xinxin... love u lots. the bowl, chopsticks and spoon is sooo coool and cute. love it! =) anyway, angel, i hope u like wad i got u. =)

at the end of the day when i took the bus back, i always read the x'mas cards they made or write. this is the part that really touches me. this year, i really feel guilty for not writing or making one. i will do it next yr. first new yr resolution. those words.. those blessings i get from u guys, it totally ended my day so well. i love all of u so so much!!!

MUACKS!!! welcome back amelia!!!

ok.. i m bored. this explains two entries in a day. but actually, i'm not bored today. today is just a nice slacky and sleepy day. when i stepped out of the house today, i had the sunshine over rain feel. finally, i get to see some sunlight. i mean it's a drastic comparison from yesterday, where i almost thought i would have to swim or get blown away. but anyway, finally hit the gym today. i feel so guilty for procrastinating it for 2 days... wonder when will i go again next... baby said this week is hols week.. eat as much as i can, next week den start but no. i paid good bucks.

caught curse of the golden flower today. jay chou looked so out of place in the movie.. overall.. serious movie... artistic??? need a little depth thinking... so not a holiday flick. but nvm, i enjoyed the company.

can't wait for the weekends to come!

sometimes, i just want people to ask me for my opinions. even if it means that they've already made up their mind about it. i feel that this shows that they care about what i think and even if my opinion differ from theirs, i don't expect them to follow my opinions... i just want to feel my opinions matter to them.

it's all about how i feel again.

bon voyage dear amelia.... have a safe trip. will be looking out for news... just in case.

parta at little india.... steamboat at night and a nice game of chocopoly.... if only i have hot cocoa to go with... life will be perfecctt...

a beautiful monday, clouded with a rainy scene. heavy rain a moment and then gone. cold weather and i'm only drapped in teeshirt and shorts. good weather i would say, but i dun like the heavy rain part. got caught in the rain a little since this morning and due to extreme tiredness, i just went ahead to sleep.

caught deja vu last night. the show's pretty decent. but being in the holiday mood and season, dun really wan a show that requires much thinking. and furthermore, not at night. we wanted a late night movie.. but the latest we can get is 930 at night... and only lasted 2 hours. so after the movie, we went to macs and sat through out and talk cock. nice feeling, decent company. reached home around 6 plus in the morning. result is no gym cos simply cannot go with such a worn out body and not enough sleep.

and why not enough sleeep? unlike my boy who has the whole day to sleep. met my frens this afternoon and headed to ikea. first time to tampines ikea. nice place.. but everytime without fail whenever i go ikea, i've got an urge to want to design my own house. want to buy new house. ikea is sooo cooool lah. nv fail to amaze me with their stuff. i wannna buy stuff for my dream house. i wanna design my dream house!!! haha.. after which, we headed back to my house. totally tired.

but it's nice to hang out with my friends. =)